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i'm not so sure anymore how to handle the way i've been feeling about things. i usually try not to think by listening to other peoples "problems" and trying to help them. i've honestly felt one of my greatest gifts, or qualities, was reading other people. getting in other peoples minds. helping them understand something in a way that someone else couldn't. i've always been able to do it, and doing it has always made me happy. helping people has always made me happy. but what happens when someone doesn't want to be helped? what happens when your only choice is to sit back and watch someone you care about get crushed, what happens when your words no longer have any meaning? nothing. nothing happens. you can talk, and talk, but it comes to a point where your just trying to make yourself feel better. better because at least you tried to help. that feeling worked for a little while with me but now i'm just angry. i'm angry that i try to help and you don't care. i'm angry because you want to get hurt, because you think you deserve to be hurt. it makes me sick that you can't see what i can. please, please stand up for yourself. i'm scared if you don't now then you never will. i'm scared of this happening for the rest of your life. please just trust me, because i have never given you a reason not to.