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somehow i always seem to get hurt. i actually wasn't hurt this time because i wasn't attached to this one. but i was definetly the one who got screwed over again. if you tell someone to call you the next day to make plans, you could at least have the courtesy to pick up and tell her you have a new girlfriend...
alicia and i had a really good talk tonight. i really needed to vent.
we covered my guy situations for the past half year and decided my life sucks, basically. i still keep going back to one. i don't want to because his was probably the worst situation but he's the only one i connected with. the others were based on looks and then conversation. but with him it was different. don't get me wrong, he had the looks but i dont know. i don't really know where i'm going with this. all i know is that i still really like him and we haven't even talked in months. how pathetic is that?? i can't even begin to explain the vacant hole that is my heart right now. i feel like shit and i just want someone to fill it. i'm so tired of guys who want flings, that isn't me. it's not me at all and yet those are the only guys i get.
fuck this. i'm out.
alicia and i had a really good talk tonight. i really needed to vent.
we covered my guy situations for the past half year and decided my life sucks, basically. i still keep going back to one. i don't want to because his was probably the worst situation but he's the only one i connected with. the others were based on looks and then conversation. but with him it was different. don't get me wrong, he had the looks but i dont know. i don't really know where i'm going with this. all i know is that i still really like him and we haven't even talked in months. how pathetic is that?? i can't even begin to explain the vacant hole that is my heart right now. i feel like shit and i just want someone to fill it. i'm so tired of guys who want flings, that isn't me. it's not me at all and yet those are the only guys i get.
fuck this. i'm out.