valentines day thoughts
if only I could explain to you, why it KILLS me that there is such a holiday, one for people to show who they truly love... oh, but remember the holidays back at school. remember the year i got two valentines from one person, showing showing oh so much. but then, it was too much for her and now she's gone, gone like the summer sun. god, but those nights were great. i felt so alive, so full of life that i was brimming over.
or the other one, when a few days later was the night i never forgot.
or the other one, where i did all i could to pamper and treat someone who cared nothing for me, but instead tread over me like i was just one round tire. i want someone to treat me like that, i want to feel like that, i want to remember that.
all the things we do to make it through this day, being each others valentines, giving candy to everyone, that's not right. that doesn't make up for the fact that i'm unloveable. sure, i have the best of friends, but no one dares to tread into the deeper waters. perhaps it because there really are no deeper waters, and all that i had imagined on those lovely nights was just folderol. perhaps. or perhaps there is someone waiting, just waiting, for the perfect opportunity to share with me the most essential things.
or the other one, when a few days later was the night i never forgot.
or the other one, where i did all i could to pamper and treat someone who cared nothing for me, but instead tread over me like i was just one round tire. i want someone to treat me like that, i want to feel like that, i want to remember that.
all the things we do to make it through this day, being each others valentines, giving candy to everyone, that's not right. that doesn't make up for the fact that i'm unloveable. sure, i have the best of friends, but no one dares to tread into the deeper waters. perhaps it because there really are no deeper waters, and all that i had imagined on those lovely nights was just folderol. perhaps. or perhaps there is someone waiting, just waiting, for the perfect opportunity to share with me the most essential things.