waking up
Immediately follows this.
Aaron: *I wake up slowly, feeling cold. Elijah’s not here. I don't like this waking-up-without-him trend. I roll over, facing the door, hoping he'll come back soon.*
Elijah: *Silently I make my way back down the hall, anxious to get back to the room and back to Aaron. I guess I don't feel as weird as I did when I first went to the kitchen for my drink and ran into Brendan; maybe a little confused by him, but only a little. I think I'm very thankful, however. I only hope this lasts. I could really get used to being here if it does... which, of course, in itself lends its own problems. When I slip inside, I see that you've rolled over toward the door, and I immediately make my way over and kneel again before you, this time pressing my lips to yours immediately, waiting for your response, and for you to pull me back under the blankets with you.*
Aaron: *I'm relieved to see you come back into the room. I'm enjoying kissing you, but... I want you in bed. With me. As quickly as possible.* C'mere, you... *I pull you into the bed and tackle you, planting my knees on either side of you and kissing you deeply.*
Elijah: *Smiling as you drag me in with you, I giggle a bit when you straddle me, a flutter in my gut, but it quickly passes, me feeling no threat from this, from you.* Sorry... I went to get a glass of water. *leaning up to kiss you lightly as I put my arms up and around your neck a bit,* Brendan and I were talking for a few minutes.
Aaron: *I let more of my weight rest on you, but lean a little to the side so you don't feel trapped.* Really? What did you talk about?
Elijah: *Looking into your eyes, the smile leaves my expression for a moment before I realize it, and smile again.* He wanted... he wanted to know about before. About... where I'd come from and... why I am the way I am, I guess. *I shrug a little against the mattress, my one hand sliding softly up and down your arm as you rest against me, pushing close to nuzzle against you and kiss your neck as I do.* I didn't mean for you to wake and find me gone. *I know you worry so much for me, and that really makes me feel understood and... loved.*
Aaron: *softly* Oh... *I want to ask what you told him, but... I don't. I know enough. I don't want to know more. But I want to be there for you. If you want to tell me. God, I'm so unsure of what the right thing to do is. I'm unsure of what you want, or need... and I want you to be happy. As happy as possible. I push it out of my mind for now. I know it'll hurt you to talk about it. For the second time today, even. When you talk about things... you almost relive them. At least that's how it is for me.* Oh Lijah... *I almost lose my train of thought when you kiss my neck.* It's okay. Of course you should go get water if you want some. I think.. I think it's safe for you here. For us.
Elijah: Are you comfortable here? I mean... *furrowing my brow a bit* really comfortable, you think? Like... you could be happy here? *I kiss you again, smiling against you at your reaction to me.* You worry so much for me... I want you to feel happy too... at least as happy as you can feel. *And I have no clue what I'm going to do when I haven't got you any more, you've already gotten me so accustomed to having you to lean on when things start closing in on me. Closing my eyes, I trail my hand up to your hair and play with it the way I like to, twirling the back strands around my fingers.*
Aaron: I... yeah, I guess. *I sigh, resting my head on the pillow just above your shoulder.* I can be happy here. Sort of. I just... *I really should just come out and say it. Even though I don't want to.* I can't be happy here without you, Lij. And I definitely can't be happy, anywhere, knowing you're... with him. *I can't help but think that I'm ruining our free day together, that I'm ruining your short time here, by bringing all this up. By making you feel worse because I feel bad.*
Elijah: *I feel a stab in my heart when you say this, and it makes me need to tear up knowing that you're worrying about the same thing that I am. I wrap both my arms around you now and hold you tight to me as if you're going to be gone any moment.* Yeah... *sighing* I think Brendan's OK. *I say, changing the subject.* I think... maybe I can learn to trust him. He seems truthful in what he says. *And he doesn't have cold, shifty eyes that change mood in a second's time, and I think that's half of what scares me about Hugo - that he can switch his mood so quickly, and I can see the pain coming, based on what his eyes show me.*
Aaron: *I rub my face in your neck, trying to make the thoughts go away. To not make you think about it.* Yeah, I think you're right... he seems like a nice person. *I start to stroke your side, petting your while you hold me. It makes me feel better... confirms that you're actually here, with me. Comfortable.*
Elijah: *A decompressing sigh escapes me now as I huddle against you, burrowing into your neck, and I kiss you there again, enjoying the feel of your hand roaming my skin and your warmth all over me, providing a safe and secure feel within me. My hand continues to comb through the hair at the back of your head, and I tilt upward a bit to kiss and lightly suck at your jaw. My heart beats hard in my chest again, being this close to you again, and I can't get enough of the feel of you lying against me. This time it's my leg that worms its way between yours, hooking us together.*
Aaron: *I can feel your heart beat harder, which makes me feel better about mine doing the same. I'm starting to breathe faster, too... being this close to you, it's impossible for me to not get excited. I'm almost panting when you press your leg between us, and I rock against it a little, my groin tingling and my face getting hot as I start to get hard.*
Elijah: *My little smile returns as I press against me and I can feel your breath hot against my face now. I move to kiss your lips, gently at first, then deeper as I can feel your body responding to mine.* Aaron... *I whisper your name as I curl closer around you, pressing myself tighter against you, and a little rush goes through me when I can feel you hard against the top of my thigh. It doesn't take long for my body to answer the call as I can sense the heat pooling in my nether regions now the longer I stay pressed against you.*
Aaron: *I break off our kissing, just for a second, to catch my breath.* Elijah... *I mimic your whisper and press back against you, slipping one hand between us and under your shirt to lightly circle around a nipple.*
Elijah: *I catch you right back up in another kiss as soon as you whisper my name, pressing in deep, seeking your tongue with mine. A shudder races through me when you begin to play with my nipple, and a quiet groan generates from deep within my throat this time, my fingers grasping tight in your hair, holding you close to me. Breaking the kiss again, I gasp quietly, stretching out to kiss your forehead. Carefully, I raise my thigh some, brushing lightly against you, creating gentle friction there. God, I'm nervous again, but this is nice... this is so good, with you.*
Aaron: *You feel so good when you're stretched out like this, like a big kitten. I love to see you enjoy yourself. I gasp, more loudly than I mean to, when you brush against me. It just feels so good. I can't help myself... I start to rub myself on your thigh in earnest, moaning quietly.*
Elijah: *Finally releasing my grip in your hair, I slide my hand slowly down you back, rubbing you up and down, then holding you at your lower back as you rub yourself on me. After another moment I stop and pull my T-shirt off, tossing it aside, then press my now-bare chest against your hot skin, continuing to lift my thigh, pressing more against you. Every sound you make causes me to smile a little more, and get a little more confident that I'm doing all this right, and making you feel good.*
Aaron: *I gasp when you take your shirt off, leaning down to suck on your collarbone. I've never felt like this -- so desperate to be closer, to have more. It takes all I have to stop grinding against you before I come. I finally force my hips still, and slide down out of your arms, licking and kissing your chest. I stop at your stomach, biting at the skin just below your belly button.*
Elijah: *My eyes flutter closed when you slide down my body, kissing me the entire way, and I can feel myself panting against you as you brush over sensitive parts to stop just above the waist band on my boxers. Grasping out to try to reach you, I pet your hair, run fingers through again, anticipating your next move, a bit of a tremble to my abdominal muscles now. I know what I want now, I know what I want to feel, what I want to let you do, but I'm unsure again, so I just wait for you again, settling instead into whatever you feel like doing, knowing that you wont do anything that I decide I can't. I put my leg over you, my calf resting over your hip as you slide yourself lower against me.*
Aaron: *I can feel your stomach tremble a bit, but I don't want to stop; I want to make you feel good, to make you feel sure of yourself. I want to do this for you. I rub against your leg, loving the weight and warmth of it along my body. It's comforting. Not like the past, when... when this was a duty. Something I did because I was told to. With no touching and no real desire and... and no love. I rub my hands up and down your thighs, massaging them as I dip my tongue just under the waistband of your boxers. As you relax, I feel a little more bold, and lightly -- very lightly -- mouth over the bulge in your shorts, blowing warm breath through the cotton.*
Elijah: *Breathing heavier now, I suck in sharply when I feel your mouth on me through the shorts, and freeze for a moment, not for fear or apprehension, but to feel you completely, my hands clenching a moment in your hair, then loosening again. I have figured out one thing about myself, now that I'm experiencing these things gently and willingly - that being, I'm very impatient when I like something and feel right with it, as I do now.* God... Aaron... *I whisper to you, wanting, needing more, and my hands move from your hair to start pushing my shorts down for you.*
Aaron: *I grab your hands, stilling them, and slip my thumbs under the waistband of your boxers. I slide them down slowly, taking time to become more familiar with parts of your body I've never seen up close or in decent light. You're beautiful -- I try to push the thought no wonder you were a pleasure serve out of my mind, but it's there before I can. I ignore it and force myself to focus on this. Focus on you. I slide your shorts all the way off, nipping at your calves when you lift each leg up to help me. I settle back down between your thighs, nuzzling at your balls, working up the nerve to actually do what I want to do.*
Elijah : *Letting you take control, take over when I start to remove my shorts, it causes the slightest bit of worry to fight its way into my head, but I quickly cast it aside, concentrating instead on what you're actually doing and not that you're making me stop and let you. Before I even realize it, you've got me completely naked and vulnerable before you, and a little blush goes through my entire body as I can feel you looking at me. Part of me wishes again that I didn't look this way as I can see the look of approval on your face, but the rest of me, the larger portion of me, likes this, that you like what you see, and I want you to have me, if that's what you want. I'm wound tight like a rubber band as I feel you nuzzling against me, a combination of deep anticipation and slight apprehension, waiting for your next move.*
Aaron: *I know you're tense -- all your muscles are clenched and you're completely silent -- but you always say you'll tell me to stop if you need me to. And I believe you, and trust you. I can't make you wait any longer. I know this will be good -- god, I hope this will be good -- so I have to just do it. I slowly lick you, from base to tip, and take your tip into my mouth, sucking gently and rubbing my tongue just underneath the head. You're so warm, and taste good on my tongue.*
Elijah : *A shuddering, moan escapes me when I feel you on me suddenly, and immediately any and all thoughts that were going on in my head about being scared or nervous or anything else vanish, as the only thing I can possibly concentrate on right now is you, and specifically, your hot, wet mouth. Fingers clench in your hair again, my thighs get taught, but this is... amazing. Nothing at all like when he tried to do this to me the one time, because he was rough and sucked too hard but this... you... you're making it so good.* Ohgod... *I whine out, my pitch so high I probably sound like a girl, but this is incredible, as gentle as you're being with me.*
Aaron: *I moan a little when I hear you cry out... it just makes me want to do more, to make you cry out louder. I take you as far into my mouth as I can, letting my tongue rub the underside of your cock. I grab the base and circle my thumb there, in that tight juncture between your base and your sac. I want this to last a while, but I don't think I can hold back when you're holding onto me and being so responsive. I scrape my teeth very lightly up your length as I rise, tonguing your slit a little before I move back down and start to suck you in earnest*
Elijah : *For a fleeting moment, when your fingers move around me, the thought occurs to me that you might try to hold me back, keep me from coming, but then I feel pressure in that place you touched last time, and I practically see stars it feels so good.* Ungh... godAarongod... *Now my shaking is for a totally different reason as you've got me so sensitive and responsive and needing to come so bad. Everything happens so fast now, and before the thought that I'm going to come right in your mouth is even complete, my entire body is stiffening as my every sensation congregates in one place. Digging my fingernails into your scalp without realizing it, I give this high-pitched cry as I shoot deep and hard into the back of your throat, my breath coming ragged and loud now as I'm flush with the waves of my release.*
Aaron: *I moan a little when you come, swallowing as much as I can. I hated this in the past -- not because of the taste or anything else, but because it wasn't pleasurable for me -- and now, it's wonderful. It tastes good. It feels good. I don't even mind you scratching at my scalp; it barely hurts, and what little pain is there actually almost feels good. You feel good, shivering and shaking around me as you recover. I lick the last of your come from your cock and let it slip from my mouth, not wanting to hurt you as you're probably sensitive right now. I feel your hands loosen but not let go, and I give your balls one last nuzzle before raising up and smiling at you.*
Elijah : *It takes me a moment to get my wits about me again, my body still humming with delight from what you've done, but finally I lift up my head to see where you are, what you're doing down there, and all I want is for you to be back up here with me. I push myself up with shaky arms to sit, then reach for you, pulling you desperately up to me again, where I can throw myself around you and hold you a moment, you probably still able to feel me shaking with the pleasure you gave me.* OhmygodAaron... *I whisper, unable to come up with anything else to say right now.*
Aaron: *I wrap my arms and legs around you, determined to hold as much of you as possible. I can't stop kissing you -- your forehead, your ears, your face, your neck. I rock us back and forth a little, stroking one hand up and down your back. softly* Lijah...
Elijah : *Something about this is so disturbing to me, that we're having to take all these little steps to break down my barriers like this, but at the same time, it feels so good.. like you're slowly freeing me from the fears that I have, and so I can't help it when my eyes well up a bit. Raising to my elbow, I lean down and kiss you hard, my tongue seeking yours, tasting myself on you as I do, and another tingle rushes through me. When I break the kiss, I look into your beautiful, gentle eyes, wanting to just drown in them, and my cheeks pink a little. I slide my thigh up and gently nudge you with my knee, knowing that you're still waiting for me.* I... haven't done much before, but I'll do whatever you want... what you just did or... *letting out a shuddered breath* ... you can take me... have me... if that's... if you want that. *And I'm nervous as hell about that, but again I remind myself that it's you... and you aren't going to hurt me. You've already proven this a number of times. My hand comes up and I touch your cheek, sliding fingers down and tracing over your lips as I wait for your response.*
Aaron: *My stomach clenches a little when you offer to do whatever I want. I know you're not doing it out of duty, but... still. I press my cheek into your hand and kiss your fingertips when you touch my lips, closing my eyes and enjoying your caress.* I want you to do what you want, Lijah. *I force myself to open my eyes and look at you.* You don't have to do anything at all. Or we can keep doing this. Or you can do that. Or... *I start to kiss your neck, reaching around to squeeze your ass* ... you can have me, if you want...
Elijah : *Smiling against you when you squeeze my ass, I breathed a relieved sigh, relieved only in that we're still taking our time here, though I'm perfectly serious about my offer to you. I wouldn't have made it if I wasn't* I want you to feel good.. I want you to feel the way you've made me feel so... whichever you prefer. *kissing your jaw and the front of your neck* If I'm offering, that mean's it's all right... I mean... we'll still have to go slow but... I want you to have from me whatever it is that you want. Please... *I cling to you now, waiting, teasing you a bit more with my palm now, which I rub over you, still wearing your boxers. The thought of me having you, that mingles in my mind for a moment, but in all truthfulness to myself, I only know one way so far, and even then, I have no idea how it can feel if it's good. And if it isn't ever good from the receiving end, it isn't something that I want to do to you.*
Aaron: *I rub against your hand, shivering when you kiss my neck. I thought letting you top would be good, would build your confidence, but maybe you need more time. And for a moment I think maybe I need more time, too, but... I've had bad experiences, but I've had good ones, too. I know that it can be pleasurable. I know I can keep building on the good feelings I know you have right now. I don't think I need more time; I think I need you. I squeeze your ass again, letting one finger slip between your cheeks and stroke you slowly.* Would you let me, Lijah? Would you want me to? To show you...?
Elijah : *Closing my eyes at your touch, I feel your touch all the way in the pit of my stomach, but I do... I do want this, if its what you want. I'm never going to feel better about it if I don't face it.* Yesss..... *I whisper, still holding myself to you tight.* I know.... *swallowing against you.* you wont h-hurt me. You wont. It's all right...
Aaron: *I hug you, holding you as tight as possible* I won't hurt you, baby, I swear. *I've only done this a couple of times before, when my Cits have ordered me to. But I think I can do it now. With you. *I roll over on top of you, kissing you deeply. As our tongues slide against each other, I slip a hand down under your ass, fitting the curve of my palm around it and rubbing your entrance slowly with my thumb.*
Elijah : *I take long, deep breaths, in between our kisses, calming myself as I feel your hand venture beneath me again, and it feels strange, making me blush. I'm tense all over as your finger presses against me, but at the same time, a twinge of life echoes through my limp, spent cock, and I suck in a gasp. I kiss you harder now, not willing to give up on this yet, wanting to give you the pleasure you deserve from me now.*
Aaron: *I kiss you back, licking at your lips and feeling my teeth hit against yours. But I have to break away and let you go. I look around wildly for my duffel bag and find it at the foot of the bed. Digging through, I find a small bottle of lotion I've been able to keep with me. Turning back to you, I stop a minute to admire you -- your hair wild and mussed, your eyes big, your breath coming in short pants. I can't wait to be inside you.*
Elijah : *Leaning up on m elbows when you get off the bed suddenly, I look at you, puzzled, at first thinking that I did something wrong, until you return after shuffling around in your stuff with the bottle, and I give a curious look until... OH! Right.* He never used anything with me. Just... *My words trail off as you settle yourself on the bed once more, and I'm still very apprehensive about all of this, but at the same time I can already tell this is going to be very different. Hooking my wrist around your neck, I pull you down for another kiss, since I can do the kisses now. The kisses quiet me, make me feel relaxed.*
Aaron: *I wince when you start to say that, but you're already kissing me and I don't really have a response. I keep kissing you back as I squeeze a little lotion onto my hand, letting it sit there and warm for a second. I break the kiss, moving back down your chest, pausing to lick and nip at your nipples. I keep moving down and take your half-hard cock into my mouth, tonguing it gently, as I press a slick fingertip into your opening.*
Elijah : *Again I tense, my automatic reaction, but I can immediately feel this is different. This is better... it feels weird, but it doesn't hurt as your finger slips back and forth inside me, and the more you do it, the smoother it gets. I lay back again and try to relax, reaching down to stroke your hair as you gently mouth my cock, sending more little pulses through me as it tries to wake for you once more. I can now feel some of the tension leaving me as I watch you, feel you, and allow myself to feel the careful way you handle me, so thankful to have you.*
Aaron: *I can feel you relax, smiling as you stroke my hair. Slowly, I add a second finger, making sure I have plenty of lotion. I twist my fingers a little, curving them to find your prostate. I feel it under my fingertips and press.*
Elijah : *I feel the second finger go in, and it's tight, but not unbearable, since you're being so careful, and I quickly get accustom to it, actually start enjoying it a bit when I then feel something... oh..OHgodrighthere... like when you pressed on me before, only from the inside, and I think I've just died and gone to heaven as my lower body is filled with this consuming sweet sensation that generates under your finger and ends in your mouth as I can definitely feel myself responding to that now. I let out a low groan, digging my fingers deeper in your hair, my attention centered around only you and what you're once more doing to me. Opening my eyes to little slits, I watch you again, waiting for you to finish preparing me so I can feel you.*
Aaron: *I gasp when you groan, feeling you grow harder in my mouth. I add a third finger and twist them, pressing against your prostate again, making sure you're stretched enough. I can't help but rub my cock against the sheets a little, my need to be inside you getting desperate.*
Elijah : *Tighter yet when you add another digit, but once more, tight, but no pain; more like a low burning, but nothing too uncomfortable. I cam do this... I can do this... I want to do this with you. I want to give myself to you.* Aaron... *I whisper out your name, my arousal and feeling of need being reinstated by your manipulation of me, and this time the need calls from within.* Take me... it's all right. *I look at you with wide, honest eyes, urging you on, my heart beating fast in my chest, from both the excitement of this, and the bit of reservation that I still fight.*
Aaron: *I look up to meet your eyes, my heart starting to pound harder when you say my name.* Oh, Lijah... *I slip my fingers out, giving your cock one last lick. I lift your legs, lifting your little ass up off the bed and opening you to me. I position myself at your entrance, staring straight into your eyes, rubbing your hips with my palms.*
Elijah : *My eyes don't leave yours now as you help me into position, and I reach down to touch your hand as you ready your self, feeling you hesitating there at my opening, and right now it kind of tickles. I'm breathing heavier again, anticipating what I know is coming, waiting for the searing pain that I know isn't going to be there today, and my muscles tighten up a bit, reflexively.*
Aaron: *I press into you, going as slowly as I can as I feel you tense up. But I know it'll be easier once I'm all the way in, once you can get used to the stretch. I slide further into you, groaning loudly at how hot and tight you are around me. I have to stay in control, but I feel like I'm so close... my cock throbs, and I hold myself still, waiting for a sign from you that you're ready.*
Elijah : *Letting out a deep gasp as you slowly fill me, my hands grab for something, one finding your hand at my hip, the other gripping tightly on the blanket beneath us. My eyes snap shut and my head presses back against the bed as I feel the burn now, more than before, and it hurts... but nothing like it did before, with Hugo. I'm panting now, short, quick breaths as I tell myself over and over that this part is normal and you're doing your best, and slowly, so slowly, everything begins to relax once more. I can feel you trembling, hovering over me, and I force my eyes open to meet yours again.*
Aaron: *I smile at you and lean in for a deep kiss, distracting you as you slowly relax. I rock against you, just barely moving inside you to let you get used to it.*
Elijah : *Forcing a little smile back, I close my eyes a moment, feeling myself loosen some around you. My hand grasps out desperately to find yours, but when I open my eyes, you're still here with me and your smile encourages me.*
Aaron: *I hold your hand tightly, bracing myself against you with the other hand. I start to move again, sliding into you, gasping at how slick and hot you are. I push your legs forward, kissing you hard and deep, pulling almost all the way out of you and thrusting back in again, brushing against your prostate.*
Elijah : *The first couple of times you pull out, then press back in, the burn is present, and I hiss a bit, but its not so bad... and then we meld together a little bit more, and my eyes open wider to meet yours again, only this time to the feel of deep pleasure within me. I let you put me in the position you need me, and it seems to make the contact even better, and as you slide repeatedly over that spot in me, the shudders increase, only due to the intense pleasure I'm feeling and not any pain at all. Watching the expression on your face, one of pure bliss, this makes me feel even better.*
Aaron: *I smile at you, leaning down to rest in the crook of your neck and press my mouth there.* Oh Lijah... oh god... oh god... *I can't stop gasping and moaning, feeling myself get closer and closer and feeling you shudder as I angle over your prostate. I slip my hand under your leg, running my thumb over around your stretched opening.*
Elijah : *I shudder violently when you do this, teasing me as you thrust into me, and the sensations go again straight to my cock once more, causing me to moan lightly. God.. you're fascinating, watching you like this, filled with this pleasure, and this is so nice. I know now this is how it's supposed to be, and as I can feel the urgency building in you, I try to push against your thrusts, helping you deeper, feeling you through my entire body.*
Aaron: *I bite at your neck when you thrust against me, moving my hand to your cock, stroking you against the rhythm of my thrusts. I'm so close, but I want you to come first, I want to push you over the edge first.*
Elijah : *Every nerve ending in my body is awake now as you thrust deeper, brushing across my sweet spot each time, and I can feel release building, feel it pooling in me, and when your hand starts on me, I'm tense and crying out all over again, pulsating in your hand as you milk a second orgasm from me. Lost in this feeling, My hand quickly goes to pull yours off me, still over sensitive from the first time, and wanting you to concentrate on your own release.*
Aaron: *Once I feel you come over my hand, I let out a long, loud moan, releasing into you, throbbing and shaking. I immediately collapse on top of you, burying my face further into your neck, gasping for breath.*
Elijah : *Your release is almost instantaneous after mine, and as I feel your final, deep thrust, I reach out to put my arms around you as you fall forward onto me. Kissing your hair, rubbing your back, I can feel your body shaking all over, feel your chest heaving against mine, and I can't help but smile.*
Aaron: Oh, Lij... *I murmur quietly, letting myself relax against you as my breathing slows. I push up on my arms and smile at you, kissing you softly on the lips. I lean down and grab my shorts from the floor, using them to clean us both off. I toss them aside and lay back down next to you, pulling you against my chest. I kiss your forehead and ears, sighing deeply.* Was that... are you... okay?
Elijah : *Threading my arms tightly around you, I nod against your chest, kissing you over and over, sighing deeply* Yes... good... *I manage to choke out as I feel emotion creeping up on me, but good emotion. I don't want you to think something's wrong, though, so at first I try to hide it, but I know you'll see, so I lift my head, teary eyes and all, and look up at you before pressing into you with a hard kiss.*
Aaron: *I kiss you hard, sucking on your tongue. Seeing you look like you want to cry makes me tear up a little too... I'm overrun with so many emotions, I don't know what else to do. When we break apart, both breathing hard, I look deep into your eyes, hugging you to me, hard. Whispering* I love you.
Elijah : *Closing my eyes and nodding, a few stray tears leak out, me unable to hold them back, and I bury my head against you again.* Love you, too. God, I do... *I cling hard to you for a few moments, loving this, needing this, this healing you're giving me.*
Aaron: *I rub your back, crying into your hair a little. I curl around you, kissing your temple and laying one leg over yours.*
Elijah : *Smiling some, this sad and yet happy smile, I softly rub at your back, finally calming myself some, before reaching down to grab the blankets to cover us again.* Thank you.. *I whisper against you, my face pressing against your neck now, kissing you lightly. I don't want to let you go. Ever.*
Aaron: *I snuggle under the blankets, kissing your hair.* No... thank you, baby... *I sigh again, feeling sleepy again.* You want to nap a bit longer now?
Elijah : *nodding* Yeah... *Kissing you more, securing my arms around you* I need to stay here like this a little while... don't want to lose you. *Yawning, I snuggle in close to you. My eyes blink slowly, sleep threatening already.*
Aaron: You're not going to lose me. *I whisper in your ear, closing my eyes. I'm so warm and satisfied, and you're so soft and feel so good against me... I'll be asleep in no time.*
Aaron: *I wake up slowly, feeling cold. Elijah’s not here. I don't like this waking-up-without-him trend. I roll over, facing the door, hoping he'll come back soon.*
Elijah: *Silently I make my way back down the hall, anxious to get back to the room and back to Aaron. I guess I don't feel as weird as I did when I first went to the kitchen for my drink and ran into Brendan; maybe a little confused by him, but only a little. I think I'm very thankful, however. I only hope this lasts. I could really get used to being here if it does... which, of course, in itself lends its own problems. When I slip inside, I see that you've rolled over toward the door, and I immediately make my way over and kneel again before you, this time pressing my lips to yours immediately, waiting for your response, and for you to pull me back under the blankets with you.*
Aaron: *I'm relieved to see you come back into the room. I'm enjoying kissing you, but... I want you in bed. With me. As quickly as possible.* C'mere, you... *I pull you into the bed and tackle you, planting my knees on either side of you and kissing you deeply.*
Elijah: *Smiling as you drag me in with you, I giggle a bit when you straddle me, a flutter in my gut, but it quickly passes, me feeling no threat from this, from you.* Sorry... I went to get a glass of water. *leaning up to kiss you lightly as I put my arms up and around your neck a bit,* Brendan and I were talking for a few minutes.
Aaron: *I let more of my weight rest on you, but lean a little to the side so you don't feel trapped.* Really? What did you talk about?
Elijah: *Looking into your eyes, the smile leaves my expression for a moment before I realize it, and smile again.* He wanted... he wanted to know about before. About... where I'd come from and... why I am the way I am, I guess. *I shrug a little against the mattress, my one hand sliding softly up and down your arm as you rest against me, pushing close to nuzzle against you and kiss your neck as I do.* I didn't mean for you to wake and find me gone. *I know you worry so much for me, and that really makes me feel understood and... loved.*
Aaron: *softly* Oh... *I want to ask what you told him, but... I don't. I know enough. I don't want to know more. But I want to be there for you. If you want to tell me. God, I'm so unsure of what the right thing to do is. I'm unsure of what you want, or need... and I want you to be happy. As happy as possible. I push it out of my mind for now. I know it'll hurt you to talk about it. For the second time today, even. When you talk about things... you almost relive them. At least that's how it is for me.* Oh Lijah... *I almost lose my train of thought when you kiss my neck.* It's okay. Of course you should go get water if you want some. I think.. I think it's safe for you here. For us.
Elijah: Are you comfortable here? I mean... *furrowing my brow a bit* really comfortable, you think? Like... you could be happy here? *I kiss you again, smiling against you at your reaction to me.* You worry so much for me... I want you to feel happy too... at least as happy as you can feel. *And I have no clue what I'm going to do when I haven't got you any more, you've already gotten me so accustomed to having you to lean on when things start closing in on me. Closing my eyes, I trail my hand up to your hair and play with it the way I like to, twirling the back strands around my fingers.*
Aaron: I... yeah, I guess. *I sigh, resting my head on the pillow just above your shoulder.* I can be happy here. Sort of. I just... *I really should just come out and say it. Even though I don't want to.* I can't be happy here without you, Lij. And I definitely can't be happy, anywhere, knowing you're... with him. *I can't help but think that I'm ruining our free day together, that I'm ruining your short time here, by bringing all this up. By making you feel worse because I feel bad.*
Elijah: *I feel a stab in my heart when you say this, and it makes me need to tear up knowing that you're worrying about the same thing that I am. I wrap both my arms around you now and hold you tight to me as if you're going to be gone any moment.* Yeah... *sighing* I think Brendan's OK. *I say, changing the subject.* I think... maybe I can learn to trust him. He seems truthful in what he says. *And he doesn't have cold, shifty eyes that change mood in a second's time, and I think that's half of what scares me about Hugo - that he can switch his mood so quickly, and I can see the pain coming, based on what his eyes show me.*
Aaron: *I rub my face in your neck, trying to make the thoughts go away. To not make you think about it.* Yeah, I think you're right... he seems like a nice person. *I start to stroke your side, petting your while you hold me. It makes me feel better... confirms that you're actually here, with me. Comfortable.*
Elijah: *A decompressing sigh escapes me now as I huddle against you, burrowing into your neck, and I kiss you there again, enjoying the feel of your hand roaming my skin and your warmth all over me, providing a safe and secure feel within me. My hand continues to comb through the hair at the back of your head, and I tilt upward a bit to kiss and lightly suck at your jaw. My heart beats hard in my chest again, being this close to you again, and I can't get enough of the feel of you lying against me. This time it's my leg that worms its way between yours, hooking us together.*
Aaron: *I can feel your heart beat harder, which makes me feel better about mine doing the same. I'm starting to breathe faster, too... being this close to you, it's impossible for me to not get excited. I'm almost panting when you press your leg between us, and I rock against it a little, my groin tingling and my face getting hot as I start to get hard.*
Elijah: *My little smile returns as I press against me and I can feel your breath hot against my face now. I move to kiss your lips, gently at first, then deeper as I can feel your body responding to mine.* Aaron... *I whisper your name as I curl closer around you, pressing myself tighter against you, and a little rush goes through me when I can feel you hard against the top of my thigh. It doesn't take long for my body to answer the call as I can sense the heat pooling in my nether regions now the longer I stay pressed against you.*
Aaron: *I break off our kissing, just for a second, to catch my breath.* Elijah... *I mimic your whisper and press back against you, slipping one hand between us and under your shirt to lightly circle around a nipple.*
Elijah: *I catch you right back up in another kiss as soon as you whisper my name, pressing in deep, seeking your tongue with mine. A shudder races through me when you begin to play with my nipple, and a quiet groan generates from deep within my throat this time, my fingers grasping tight in your hair, holding you close to me. Breaking the kiss again, I gasp quietly, stretching out to kiss your forehead. Carefully, I raise my thigh some, brushing lightly against you, creating gentle friction there. God, I'm nervous again, but this is nice... this is so good, with you.*
Aaron: *You feel so good when you're stretched out like this, like a big kitten. I love to see you enjoy yourself. I gasp, more loudly than I mean to, when you brush against me. It just feels so good. I can't help myself... I start to rub myself on your thigh in earnest, moaning quietly.*
Elijah: *Finally releasing my grip in your hair, I slide my hand slowly down you back, rubbing you up and down, then holding you at your lower back as you rub yourself on me. After another moment I stop and pull my T-shirt off, tossing it aside, then press my now-bare chest against your hot skin, continuing to lift my thigh, pressing more against you. Every sound you make causes me to smile a little more, and get a little more confident that I'm doing all this right, and making you feel good.*
Aaron: *I gasp when you take your shirt off, leaning down to suck on your collarbone. I've never felt like this -- so desperate to be closer, to have more. It takes all I have to stop grinding against you before I come. I finally force my hips still, and slide down out of your arms, licking and kissing your chest. I stop at your stomach, biting at the skin just below your belly button.*
Elijah: *My eyes flutter closed when you slide down my body, kissing me the entire way, and I can feel myself panting against you as you brush over sensitive parts to stop just above the waist band on my boxers. Grasping out to try to reach you, I pet your hair, run fingers through again, anticipating your next move, a bit of a tremble to my abdominal muscles now. I know what I want now, I know what I want to feel, what I want to let you do, but I'm unsure again, so I just wait for you again, settling instead into whatever you feel like doing, knowing that you wont do anything that I decide I can't. I put my leg over you, my calf resting over your hip as you slide yourself lower against me.*
Aaron: *I can feel your stomach tremble a bit, but I don't want to stop; I want to make you feel good, to make you feel sure of yourself. I want to do this for you. I rub against your leg, loving the weight and warmth of it along my body. It's comforting. Not like the past, when... when this was a duty. Something I did because I was told to. With no touching and no real desire and... and no love. I rub my hands up and down your thighs, massaging them as I dip my tongue just under the waistband of your boxers. As you relax, I feel a little more bold, and lightly -- very lightly -- mouth over the bulge in your shorts, blowing warm breath through the cotton.*
Elijah: *Breathing heavier now, I suck in sharply when I feel your mouth on me through the shorts, and freeze for a moment, not for fear or apprehension, but to feel you completely, my hands clenching a moment in your hair, then loosening again. I have figured out one thing about myself, now that I'm experiencing these things gently and willingly - that being, I'm very impatient when I like something and feel right with it, as I do now.* God... Aaron... *I whisper to you, wanting, needing more, and my hands move from your hair to start pushing my shorts down for you.*
Aaron: *I grab your hands, stilling them, and slip my thumbs under the waistband of your boxers. I slide them down slowly, taking time to become more familiar with parts of your body I've never seen up close or in decent light. You're beautiful -- I try to push the thought no wonder you were a pleasure serve out of my mind, but it's there before I can. I ignore it and force myself to focus on this. Focus on you. I slide your shorts all the way off, nipping at your calves when you lift each leg up to help me. I settle back down between your thighs, nuzzling at your balls, working up the nerve to actually do what I want to do.*
Elijah : *Letting you take control, take over when I start to remove my shorts, it causes the slightest bit of worry to fight its way into my head, but I quickly cast it aside, concentrating instead on what you're actually doing and not that you're making me stop and let you. Before I even realize it, you've got me completely naked and vulnerable before you, and a little blush goes through my entire body as I can feel you looking at me. Part of me wishes again that I didn't look this way as I can see the look of approval on your face, but the rest of me, the larger portion of me, likes this, that you like what you see, and I want you to have me, if that's what you want. I'm wound tight like a rubber band as I feel you nuzzling against me, a combination of deep anticipation and slight apprehension, waiting for your next move.*
Aaron: *I know you're tense -- all your muscles are clenched and you're completely silent -- but you always say you'll tell me to stop if you need me to. And I believe you, and trust you. I can't make you wait any longer. I know this will be good -- god, I hope this will be good -- so I have to just do it. I slowly lick you, from base to tip, and take your tip into my mouth, sucking gently and rubbing my tongue just underneath the head. You're so warm, and taste good on my tongue.*
Elijah : *A shuddering, moan escapes me when I feel you on me suddenly, and immediately any and all thoughts that were going on in my head about being scared or nervous or anything else vanish, as the only thing I can possibly concentrate on right now is you, and specifically, your hot, wet mouth. Fingers clench in your hair again, my thighs get taught, but this is... amazing. Nothing at all like when he tried to do this to me the one time, because he was rough and sucked too hard but this... you... you're making it so good.* Ohgod... *I whine out, my pitch so high I probably sound like a girl, but this is incredible, as gentle as you're being with me.*
Aaron: *I moan a little when I hear you cry out... it just makes me want to do more, to make you cry out louder. I take you as far into my mouth as I can, letting my tongue rub the underside of your cock. I grab the base and circle my thumb there, in that tight juncture between your base and your sac. I want this to last a while, but I don't think I can hold back when you're holding onto me and being so responsive. I scrape my teeth very lightly up your length as I rise, tonguing your slit a little before I move back down and start to suck you in earnest*
Elijah : *For a fleeting moment, when your fingers move around me, the thought occurs to me that you might try to hold me back, keep me from coming, but then I feel pressure in that place you touched last time, and I practically see stars it feels so good.* Ungh... godAarongod... *Now my shaking is for a totally different reason as you've got me so sensitive and responsive and needing to come so bad. Everything happens so fast now, and before the thought that I'm going to come right in your mouth is even complete, my entire body is stiffening as my every sensation congregates in one place. Digging my fingernails into your scalp without realizing it, I give this high-pitched cry as I shoot deep and hard into the back of your throat, my breath coming ragged and loud now as I'm flush with the waves of my release.*
Aaron: *I moan a little when you come, swallowing as much as I can. I hated this in the past -- not because of the taste or anything else, but because it wasn't pleasurable for me -- and now, it's wonderful. It tastes good. It feels good. I don't even mind you scratching at my scalp; it barely hurts, and what little pain is there actually almost feels good. You feel good, shivering and shaking around me as you recover. I lick the last of your come from your cock and let it slip from my mouth, not wanting to hurt you as you're probably sensitive right now. I feel your hands loosen but not let go, and I give your balls one last nuzzle before raising up and smiling at you.*
Elijah : *It takes me a moment to get my wits about me again, my body still humming with delight from what you've done, but finally I lift up my head to see where you are, what you're doing down there, and all I want is for you to be back up here with me. I push myself up with shaky arms to sit, then reach for you, pulling you desperately up to me again, where I can throw myself around you and hold you a moment, you probably still able to feel me shaking with the pleasure you gave me.* OhmygodAaron... *I whisper, unable to come up with anything else to say right now.*
Aaron: *I wrap my arms and legs around you, determined to hold as much of you as possible. I can't stop kissing you -- your forehead, your ears, your face, your neck. I rock us back and forth a little, stroking one hand up and down your back. softly* Lijah...
Elijah : *Something about this is so disturbing to me, that we're having to take all these little steps to break down my barriers like this, but at the same time, it feels so good.. like you're slowly freeing me from the fears that I have, and so I can't help it when my eyes well up a bit. Raising to my elbow, I lean down and kiss you hard, my tongue seeking yours, tasting myself on you as I do, and another tingle rushes through me. When I break the kiss, I look into your beautiful, gentle eyes, wanting to just drown in them, and my cheeks pink a little. I slide my thigh up and gently nudge you with my knee, knowing that you're still waiting for me.* I... haven't done much before, but I'll do whatever you want... what you just did or... *letting out a shuddered breath* ... you can take me... have me... if that's... if you want that. *And I'm nervous as hell about that, but again I remind myself that it's you... and you aren't going to hurt me. You've already proven this a number of times. My hand comes up and I touch your cheek, sliding fingers down and tracing over your lips as I wait for your response.*
Aaron: *My stomach clenches a little when you offer to do whatever I want. I know you're not doing it out of duty, but... still. I press my cheek into your hand and kiss your fingertips when you touch my lips, closing my eyes and enjoying your caress.* I want you to do what you want, Lijah. *I force myself to open my eyes and look at you.* You don't have to do anything at all. Or we can keep doing this. Or you can do that. Or... *I start to kiss your neck, reaching around to squeeze your ass* ... you can have me, if you want...
Elijah : *Smiling against you when you squeeze my ass, I breathed a relieved sigh, relieved only in that we're still taking our time here, though I'm perfectly serious about my offer to you. I wouldn't have made it if I wasn't* I want you to feel good.. I want you to feel the way you've made me feel so... whichever you prefer. *kissing your jaw and the front of your neck* If I'm offering, that mean's it's all right... I mean... we'll still have to go slow but... I want you to have from me whatever it is that you want. Please... *I cling to you now, waiting, teasing you a bit more with my palm now, which I rub over you, still wearing your boxers. The thought of me having you, that mingles in my mind for a moment, but in all truthfulness to myself, I only know one way so far, and even then, I have no idea how it can feel if it's good. And if it isn't ever good from the receiving end, it isn't something that I want to do to you.*
Aaron: *I rub against your hand, shivering when you kiss my neck. I thought letting you top would be good, would build your confidence, but maybe you need more time. And for a moment I think maybe I need more time, too, but... I've had bad experiences, but I've had good ones, too. I know that it can be pleasurable. I know I can keep building on the good feelings I know you have right now. I don't think I need more time; I think I need you. I squeeze your ass again, letting one finger slip between your cheeks and stroke you slowly.* Would you let me, Lijah? Would you want me to? To show you...?
Elijah : *Closing my eyes at your touch, I feel your touch all the way in the pit of my stomach, but I do... I do want this, if its what you want. I'm never going to feel better about it if I don't face it.* Yesss..... *I whisper, still holding myself to you tight.* I know.... *swallowing against you.* you wont h-hurt me. You wont. It's all right...
Aaron: *I hug you, holding you as tight as possible* I won't hurt you, baby, I swear. *I've only done this a couple of times before, when my Cits have ordered me to. But I think I can do it now. With you. *I roll over on top of you, kissing you deeply. As our tongues slide against each other, I slip a hand down under your ass, fitting the curve of my palm around it and rubbing your entrance slowly with my thumb.*
Elijah : *I take long, deep breaths, in between our kisses, calming myself as I feel your hand venture beneath me again, and it feels strange, making me blush. I'm tense all over as your finger presses against me, but at the same time, a twinge of life echoes through my limp, spent cock, and I suck in a gasp. I kiss you harder now, not willing to give up on this yet, wanting to give you the pleasure you deserve from me now.*
Aaron: *I kiss you back, licking at your lips and feeling my teeth hit against yours. But I have to break away and let you go. I look around wildly for my duffel bag and find it at the foot of the bed. Digging through, I find a small bottle of lotion I've been able to keep with me. Turning back to you, I stop a minute to admire you -- your hair wild and mussed, your eyes big, your breath coming in short pants. I can't wait to be inside you.*
Elijah : *Leaning up on m elbows when you get off the bed suddenly, I look at you, puzzled, at first thinking that I did something wrong, until you return after shuffling around in your stuff with the bottle, and I give a curious look until... OH! Right.* He never used anything with me. Just... *My words trail off as you settle yourself on the bed once more, and I'm still very apprehensive about all of this, but at the same time I can already tell this is going to be very different. Hooking my wrist around your neck, I pull you down for another kiss, since I can do the kisses now. The kisses quiet me, make me feel relaxed.*
Aaron: *I wince when you start to say that, but you're already kissing me and I don't really have a response. I keep kissing you back as I squeeze a little lotion onto my hand, letting it sit there and warm for a second. I break the kiss, moving back down your chest, pausing to lick and nip at your nipples. I keep moving down and take your half-hard cock into my mouth, tonguing it gently, as I press a slick fingertip into your opening.*
Elijah : *Again I tense, my automatic reaction, but I can immediately feel this is different. This is better... it feels weird, but it doesn't hurt as your finger slips back and forth inside me, and the more you do it, the smoother it gets. I lay back again and try to relax, reaching down to stroke your hair as you gently mouth my cock, sending more little pulses through me as it tries to wake for you once more. I can now feel some of the tension leaving me as I watch you, feel you, and allow myself to feel the careful way you handle me, so thankful to have you.*
Aaron: *I can feel you relax, smiling as you stroke my hair. Slowly, I add a second finger, making sure I have plenty of lotion. I twist my fingers a little, curving them to find your prostate. I feel it under my fingertips and press.*
Elijah : *I feel the second finger go in, and it's tight, but not unbearable, since you're being so careful, and I quickly get accustom to it, actually start enjoying it a bit when I then feel something... oh..OHgodrighthere... like when you pressed on me before, only from the inside, and I think I've just died and gone to heaven as my lower body is filled with this consuming sweet sensation that generates under your finger and ends in your mouth as I can definitely feel myself responding to that now. I let out a low groan, digging my fingers deeper in your hair, my attention centered around only you and what you're once more doing to me. Opening my eyes to little slits, I watch you again, waiting for you to finish preparing me so I can feel you.*
Aaron: *I gasp when you groan, feeling you grow harder in my mouth. I add a third finger and twist them, pressing against your prostate again, making sure you're stretched enough. I can't help but rub my cock against the sheets a little, my need to be inside you getting desperate.*
Elijah : *Tighter yet when you add another digit, but once more, tight, but no pain; more like a low burning, but nothing too uncomfortable. I cam do this... I can do this... I want to do this with you. I want to give myself to you.* Aaron... *I whisper out your name, my arousal and feeling of need being reinstated by your manipulation of me, and this time the need calls from within.* Take me... it's all right. *I look at you with wide, honest eyes, urging you on, my heart beating fast in my chest, from both the excitement of this, and the bit of reservation that I still fight.*
Aaron: *I look up to meet your eyes, my heart starting to pound harder when you say my name.* Oh, Lijah... *I slip my fingers out, giving your cock one last lick. I lift your legs, lifting your little ass up off the bed and opening you to me. I position myself at your entrance, staring straight into your eyes, rubbing your hips with my palms.*
Elijah : *My eyes don't leave yours now as you help me into position, and I reach down to touch your hand as you ready your self, feeling you hesitating there at my opening, and right now it kind of tickles. I'm breathing heavier again, anticipating what I know is coming, waiting for the searing pain that I know isn't going to be there today, and my muscles tighten up a bit, reflexively.*
Aaron: *I press into you, going as slowly as I can as I feel you tense up. But I know it'll be easier once I'm all the way in, once you can get used to the stretch. I slide further into you, groaning loudly at how hot and tight you are around me. I have to stay in control, but I feel like I'm so close... my cock throbs, and I hold myself still, waiting for a sign from you that you're ready.*
Elijah : *Letting out a deep gasp as you slowly fill me, my hands grab for something, one finding your hand at my hip, the other gripping tightly on the blanket beneath us. My eyes snap shut and my head presses back against the bed as I feel the burn now, more than before, and it hurts... but nothing like it did before, with Hugo. I'm panting now, short, quick breaths as I tell myself over and over that this part is normal and you're doing your best, and slowly, so slowly, everything begins to relax once more. I can feel you trembling, hovering over me, and I force my eyes open to meet yours again.*
Aaron: *I smile at you and lean in for a deep kiss, distracting you as you slowly relax. I rock against you, just barely moving inside you to let you get used to it.*
Elijah : *Forcing a little smile back, I close my eyes a moment, feeling myself loosen some around you. My hand grasps out desperately to find yours, but when I open my eyes, you're still here with me and your smile encourages me.*
Aaron: *I hold your hand tightly, bracing myself against you with the other hand. I start to move again, sliding into you, gasping at how slick and hot you are. I push your legs forward, kissing you hard and deep, pulling almost all the way out of you and thrusting back in again, brushing against your prostate.*
Elijah : *The first couple of times you pull out, then press back in, the burn is present, and I hiss a bit, but its not so bad... and then we meld together a little bit more, and my eyes open wider to meet yours again, only this time to the feel of deep pleasure within me. I let you put me in the position you need me, and it seems to make the contact even better, and as you slide repeatedly over that spot in me, the shudders increase, only due to the intense pleasure I'm feeling and not any pain at all. Watching the expression on your face, one of pure bliss, this makes me feel even better.*
Aaron: *I smile at you, leaning down to rest in the crook of your neck and press my mouth there.* Oh Lijah... oh god... oh god... *I can't stop gasping and moaning, feeling myself get closer and closer and feeling you shudder as I angle over your prostate. I slip my hand under your leg, running my thumb over around your stretched opening.*
Elijah : *I shudder violently when you do this, teasing me as you thrust into me, and the sensations go again straight to my cock once more, causing me to moan lightly. God.. you're fascinating, watching you like this, filled with this pleasure, and this is so nice. I know now this is how it's supposed to be, and as I can feel the urgency building in you, I try to push against your thrusts, helping you deeper, feeling you through my entire body.*
Aaron: *I bite at your neck when you thrust against me, moving my hand to your cock, stroking you against the rhythm of my thrusts. I'm so close, but I want you to come first, I want to push you over the edge first.*
Elijah : *Every nerve ending in my body is awake now as you thrust deeper, brushing across my sweet spot each time, and I can feel release building, feel it pooling in me, and when your hand starts on me, I'm tense and crying out all over again, pulsating in your hand as you milk a second orgasm from me. Lost in this feeling, My hand quickly goes to pull yours off me, still over sensitive from the first time, and wanting you to concentrate on your own release.*
Aaron: *Once I feel you come over my hand, I let out a long, loud moan, releasing into you, throbbing and shaking. I immediately collapse on top of you, burying my face further into your neck, gasping for breath.*
Elijah : *Your release is almost instantaneous after mine, and as I feel your final, deep thrust, I reach out to put my arms around you as you fall forward onto me. Kissing your hair, rubbing your back, I can feel your body shaking all over, feel your chest heaving against mine, and I can't help but smile.*
Aaron: Oh, Lij... *I murmur quietly, letting myself relax against you as my breathing slows. I push up on my arms and smile at you, kissing you softly on the lips. I lean down and grab my shorts from the floor, using them to clean us both off. I toss them aside and lay back down next to you, pulling you against my chest. I kiss your forehead and ears, sighing deeply.* Was that... are you... okay?
Elijah : *Threading my arms tightly around you, I nod against your chest, kissing you over and over, sighing deeply* Yes... good... *I manage to choke out as I feel emotion creeping up on me, but good emotion. I don't want you to think something's wrong, though, so at first I try to hide it, but I know you'll see, so I lift my head, teary eyes and all, and look up at you before pressing into you with a hard kiss.*
Aaron: *I kiss you hard, sucking on your tongue. Seeing you look like you want to cry makes me tear up a little too... I'm overrun with so many emotions, I don't know what else to do. When we break apart, both breathing hard, I look deep into your eyes, hugging you to me, hard. Whispering* I love you.
Elijah : *Closing my eyes and nodding, a few stray tears leak out, me unable to hold them back, and I bury my head against you again.* Love you, too. God, I do... *I cling hard to you for a few moments, loving this, needing this, this healing you're giving me.*
Aaron: *I rub your back, crying into your hair a little. I curl around you, kissing your temple and laying one leg over yours.*
Elijah : *Smiling some, this sad and yet happy smile, I softly rub at your back, finally calming myself some, before reaching down to grab the blankets to cover us again.* Thank you.. *I whisper against you, my face pressing against your neck now, kissing you lightly. I don't want to let you go. Ever.*
Aaron: *I snuggle under the blankets, kissing your hair.* No... thank you, baby... *I sigh again, feeling sleepy again.* You want to nap a bit longer now?
Elijah : *nodding* Yeah... *Kissing you more, securing my arms around you* I need to stay here like this a little while... don't want to lose you. *Yawning, I snuggle in close to you. My eyes blink slowly, sleep threatening already.*
Aaron: You're not going to lose me. *I whisper in your ear, closing my eyes. I'm so warm and satisfied, and you're so soft and feel so good against me... I'll be asleep in no time.*