Not sure what I really want...
I don't know why I'm in this mood where I feel as if I'm randomly drifting...
Maybe it's the fact that Frolicon was this past week, and while I had a friend going, there is no way I could make it this year. Ditto for the "Beyond Leather" conference in Ft Lauderdale.
Maybe it's waiting to get an exact date for my mother to come down in April so I can make preparations (though mostly mental)... Which reminds me, maybe it's time to do something with my fathers ashes other than keeping them on the entertainment center.
Maybe I'm getting tired of reading about all the great times people are having in Seattle and Chicago area.. There is little here in Florida for a single sub male, and my attempts to remedy the "single" part are hopeless. Plus I'm getting tired of telling my friends that I can't find anyone on the dating sites... But with my current financial situation, there is no way that I'm going to be able to move anytime in the next few years. Some days I feel like I'll be in my 70s before getting into a relationship, if ever.
Maybe I just need to adjust my meds... I probably should, since the "shaky hands" side effect is starting to get in my way...
Maybe it's the fact that Frolicon was this past week, and while I had a friend going, there is no way I could make it this year. Ditto for the "Beyond Leather" conference in Ft Lauderdale.
Maybe it's waiting to get an exact date for my mother to come down in April so I can make preparations (though mostly mental)... Which reminds me, maybe it's time to do something with my fathers ashes other than keeping them on the entertainment center.
Maybe I'm getting tired of reading about all the great times people are having in Seattle and Chicago area.. There is little here in Florida for a single sub male, and my attempts to remedy the "single" part are hopeless. Plus I'm getting tired of telling my friends that I can't find anyone on the dating sites... But with my current financial situation, there is no way that I'm going to be able to move anytime in the next few years. Some days I feel like I'll be in my 70s before getting into a relationship, if ever.
Maybe I just need to adjust my meds... I probably should, since the "shaky hands" side effect is starting to get in my way...