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ok so i havent written in this thing in months. im sure by now anyone who used to read it has stopped checking. i am so torn apart inside. i love robin so much, not teenager-type "oh i love you.. this week" type love, or stupid "oh i love you...'re appearance" type love. no, im really stricken with that shakespearean, unconditional, light-up-the-room, everything-goes-blurry-except-for-her, who-cares-about-your-cmt-or-your-ankles-i-think-you-are-the-most-gorgeous-girl-on-the-face-of-the-earth, get-married-have-kids, work-all-day,-come-home-to-her-and-cook-her-dinner-and-snuggle-on-the-couch-watching-a-movie-while-the-kids-are-laying-on-the-floor type of love. the most important thing to me, besides college and shit, is robin and her happiness. right now she is single, she could choose me, or she could choose matt. i just hope she chooses the one that makes her happiest, even if it isnt me. i dont think there's anything she could ever do to make me stop loving her. whenever i am not with her, it feels like my insides are being twisted up and burned at the same time, whenever i am alone i have elaborate conversations with her in my head trying to convince her to come back to me, telling her how much i love her. whenever i talk to her online my heart drops when it says "Ramen Supernova is typing..." and my hands get sweaty. i live for this girl.
maybe there's something wrong with me.
<3 you robino. :(
maybe there's something wrong with me.
<3 you robino. :(