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arg! why must i always be this stupid!....wow...im so vulnerable, like the smallest things set me off for some reason...dude! why!?am i invisible!? is that why i get treated this way?...fucking a...dammit, and all the time, im like yeah, no more of this, no more being used and taken advantage of, no more me being depressed, im not going to deal with it anymore, it's not happening, but lo' and behold it happens again!again and again...my heart gets torn over and over again...like new gashes cutting into old ones....O AND LOOK!!! JOHNNY CALLED ME!!!! ahhhhhh yeeaaahhhhhh...wow...these guys! im soooo sooo confused with all of them!!!
johnny
cj
mark
this NAMELESS GUY ON THE METRO!!!!
johnny-b/c all my life i've had it in my mind that we were soul mates and shyt, idk what's goin gon with him, he still cares about me...and says we still have a chance...
cj-gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh fRuStRaTiOn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! confuses me the most....
mark-tells me he wants to get back with me, but later, i don't know if he wants me as his play toy, or as a serious girl...probably as the play toy, so lets 4get about him
that guy-his face has been burned into my mind this whole weekend...i have no idea who the hell he is!! but thinking about him drives me crazy b/c i DON'T know who he is but he's just THERE....grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
wooo so yeah i feel better...a lil...write a lil more later, sending som epics somewhere...
P.L.U.R.
*one love*
Jessi
johnny
cj
mark
this NAMELESS GUY ON THE METRO!!!!
johnny-b/c all my life i've had it in my mind that we were soul mates and shyt, idk what's goin gon with him, he still cares about me...and says we still have a chance...
cj-gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh fRuStRaTiOn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! confuses me the most....
mark-tells me he wants to get back with me, but later, i don't know if he wants me as his play toy, or as a serious girl...probably as the play toy, so lets 4get about him
that guy-his face has been burned into my mind this whole weekend...i have no idea who the hell he is!! but thinking about him drives me crazy b/c i DON'T know who he is but he's just THERE....grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
wooo so yeah i feel better...a lil...write a lil more later, sending som epics somewhere...
P.L.U.R.
*one love*
Jessi