dream diary
last night i dreamt i was living like a poor girl in a tiny cemetery in the countryside. At first I was a little girl who was taken care of by an old woman then i was the old woman taking care of the little girl. She liked to be alone and not play with the other children. they were boys anyways and weren't into the same things. There was a lot of wood and grass. Then I was older and living in the side of a hill. Ben and his dad lived in the other side. At some point I realized Ben didn't love me and I beat him with my crutch that still had the dark red ribbon on it. It wasn't gory and was only violent in the sense that I was hitting him and wanted to hurt him, even though I didn't. I guess they were hesitant blows or just symbolic. I kept saying you lied to me you were supposed to love me you were supposed to be with me and take care of me forever and you didn't and you were a horrible person to me, and he just lay there on his stomach and said I told you I wouldn't, I always told you I never promised anything. I don't remember much after that, the alarm clock woke me up. This was all after I woke up at 530 am to pee, I didnt have a dream before that.