is this really what you want?
i don't know what to do with myself right now. there's not really much to say either. i don't want to feel empty anymore... every single day it's just more and more of the same. i'm wondering when it's going to be different, when it's going to be better. nothing is easy... but i don't have any ambition to try. it's too hard to focus on things. for a while i thought indifference was the answer, but that gets too lonely... just like everything else. now that school is almost over, all i can hope is that there won't be any more days like this.