May 13, 2005 21:53
I hate liking someone I shouldn't. I shouldn't like him for multiple reasons I will not list, and it sucks because it's like this weird feeling. Like, I'm not even sure I like him, I just really like being with him and talking to him, and he's awesome. I'm probably just being a stupid desperate 15 year old (14 and 364 days old, whatever.) God, this sucks. Why do I like him. Why didn't I like him when I had the chance. This is so fucked up. I don't even know if I really like him. FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. that's all I have to say.
Jesus, this is not a good way to be the night before my birthday. I hate my phone too, why does it never have service when I want to talk to people? This is so fucked up. I hate my life right now, except I went birthday shopping tonight with my mommy and daddy. They bought me stuff. hehe, like THE NOTEBOOK!!!!!!!!! w00t w00t, I'm so psyched about watching it and crying my eyes out! yay!
I have to leave, I'm so bored and I know if I don't, I'll just ramble on about my pathetic life. Later!