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it seems as though there is nothing with such power to bring so many strange opposing people together - than partying, maybe concerts- maybe...strange weekend at the very least.
Today was absolutly splendid- and beautiful. It warmed my heart
I hate when people change the subject as like a defense mechanism, or just to end the previous thought cause they know you arent ready to do so. It always bothers me when people cant have a simple conversation about something...
Today some one said that the movies that you used to like when you were a kid say something about who you are, then she said she liked "The beauty and the beast' and I didnt know what that told me about her, except that secretly shes probably not a lesbian. I was like dude flight of the navigator, the secret of NHIM, and cinderella...dont know why I thought of those three first.
School is so different without people like Libby and seth and brian around. It feels almost like its elementary school or something I cant even explain it. I cant help wishing that I could just got back to the end of freshmen year and live it all over again, because I just feel sort of lost.
I feel like the last thing I want to do is think about 'the future' or anything in relation to it. I absolutly cannot find a good monologue and I seriously am saying fuck it. I wish brian was here to just listen to this so I didnt have to type it. I am seriously, I know its lame, god, finding myself listening to emo music. I KNOW its like wtf? like dashboard confessionals. Its like what is wrong with me. I am facing myself and all my faults, or atleast trying as of now. All I want to do is go away for the weekend but its so impossible. I hate that I feel like I lived myself out. Cause all I want to do sometimes is sit in my room and cry, or like just get drunk and fall asleep. Its so completly pathetic and stupid. I envision myself telling this secret that is tearing me up inside. Half because of absolutly how glorious it is and the other how pausativly wreched and terrible it is. yeah oh well
I left this open went to the store with my mom, then conferences with my dad. At the store I saw megans friend lindsay, whom I met at jimbos and she didnt remember me. I am now stoned and lost the train of thought from when I was writting this, and I am stoned now BREW HAHA.
Today was absolutly splendid- and beautiful. It warmed my heart
I hate when people change the subject as like a defense mechanism, or just to end the previous thought cause they know you arent ready to do so. It always bothers me when people cant have a simple conversation about something...
Today some one said that the movies that you used to like when you were a kid say something about who you are, then she said she liked "The beauty and the beast' and I didnt know what that told me about her, except that secretly shes probably not a lesbian. I was like dude flight of the navigator, the secret of NHIM, and cinderella...dont know why I thought of those three first.
School is so different without people like Libby and seth and brian around. It feels almost like its elementary school or something I cant even explain it. I cant help wishing that I could just got back to the end of freshmen year and live it all over again, because I just feel sort of lost.
I feel like the last thing I want to do is think about 'the future' or anything in relation to it. I absolutly cannot find a good monologue and I seriously am saying fuck it. I wish brian was here to just listen to this so I didnt have to type it. I am seriously, I know its lame, god, finding myself listening to emo music. I KNOW its like wtf? like dashboard confessionals. Its like what is wrong with me. I am facing myself and all my faults, or atleast trying as of now. All I want to do is go away for the weekend but its so impossible. I hate that I feel like I lived myself out. Cause all I want to do sometimes is sit in my room and cry, or like just get drunk and fall asleep. Its so completly pathetic and stupid. I envision myself telling this secret that is tearing me up inside. Half because of absolutly how glorious it is and the other how pausativly wreched and terrible it is. yeah oh well
I left this open went to the store with my mom, then conferences with my dad. At the store I saw megans friend lindsay, whom I met at jimbos and she didnt remember me. I am now stoned and lost the train of thought from when I was writting this, and I am stoned now BREW HAHA.