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it hurts. With time, it continues, and yet every second that goes on, is another second that you're not here, and I'm sorry. I'm so desperately sorry. I said I would always be there for you, I said that we'd learn dancing together, I said that life is beautiful. But somehow you thought that was something so hard to understand. My heart aches and my tears continue to flow, every second, all those moments pass and suddenly I forget and wonder how you're going at work. And I think, jesus, how are all those people at work going? So many people loved you. This is not what I want to say, but this is not something I cannot say. I wish you could hear me, telling your mum how amazing you were at everything, how absolutely everyone who met you, liked you. Your dad was so eager to know, to know everything. I hope that you are following all those beliefs that you had and that I couldnt quite understand. I hope you're laughing, and I hope your stupid grin never leaves your face. Everyone loved you, I loved you, even though you could be such a dumbass, and I'm sorry that wasn't it, that didn't make it. Good grief you silly boy, you certainly know how to create a to-do. May you always fly. Speak soon.
love liz
love liz