Philosophy Class
I love talking to Josh Solar-Doherty. I have trouble conveying my feelings and desires that are deep down in me to anyone else but him. People just don't understand them. We've been thinking a lot lately, and it feels good. I think that all this thinking is paying off and I won't be such a waste of life anymore. There is so much to live for and do in life, even if it's just setting up for the chorus concert or doing a dance show. If I wasn't doing that, than I'd be sitting at home doing nothing, yet somehow I find time to complain about what I have to do. I decided today that I am grateful that I have the opportunity to do those things because if I didn't then I would be wasteing time and life. You really have enjoy everything that comes at you and make the most of everything. Complaining, something that I do a lot of, really blows. Worrying, also something I do plenty of, is a waste of time. I know it's easy to think of these things, but when I actually put them into my life today, I felt so much better. I had a smile of the rest of the day. There is no point in complaining about something that you don't have to do. You don't have a lot of time to live, especially in High school when you feel like time is at full speed and you can't even grasp it, and you just need to enjoy everything even the things that arn't too much fun. What actually makes things unenjoyable is complaining about them. (this applies to everything except work at the A&P because 90 percent of the people that shop there are ungrateful bastards, but the other 10 percent puts a smile of my face) I don't know, I really just need to take the time out every once n' a while to look at myself and at my life. There is no point in complaining and worrying because in the end nothing matters. It's pretty idealogistic...if that's a word. But it works sometimes, and it makes me smile and feel good about life and who I am and what I do everday. I get more done and I just feel happier and am nicer to people. I love laughing and enjoying life. I can't stand being in a shitty mood. It sucks. I love talking to Josh about this stuff. We just talk for hours. I'll miss him this summer, but he's gunna have a kick ass time and it's gunna be amazing.
Adam is leaving for Argentina. He's gunna have a sick time. I'll have to hear some stories.
We have the dance show to do this weekend. This year is coming to a close. Another thing about looking at the good side of things is that you enjoy things, so things don't drag on. You enjoy it, so your not missing out on things, but at the same time your not complaining so it feels like life isn't moving.
Anyway, good times.
Adam is leaving for Argentina. He's gunna have a sick time. I'll have to hear some stories.
We have the dance show to do this weekend. This year is coming to a close. Another thing about looking at the good side of things is that you enjoy things, so things don't drag on. You enjoy it, so your not missing out on things, but at the same time your not complaining so it feels like life isn't moving.
Anyway, good times.