Analyze This
Wonder what it means to have totally forgotten something and then have it come crashing back at an odd moment?
I'm hypoglycemic. I have to be careful when/what I eat or my blood sugar with seriously bottom out. I've checked it before just feeling mildly 'lite' an it been at 32. Seriously.
Yesterday we'd slept in and I'd taken some Advil for shoulder pain. My stomach just didn't feel like food before my bath. So I decided to bathe first.
Mistake.
I got out of the shower and had one of those terrible waves of sweaty nausea roll over me. I was dizzy and I had to sit (or fall). As I sat and put my head between my knees trying not to pass out, I had a sudden *very vivid* childhood memory.
The church I was raised in was a small place just down the street from where I grew up. My grandfather was the pastor. I remembered being in this church and they were having a "foot washing". I'd totally forgotten about the church doing this. I was probably about 5-6 years old. I remembered the pans that were used. The "praises" being shouted. This man who used to sit in the back of the church and yell (along with many others in the church). But this man had some type of speech impediment. And his shouts were always "different" than others around. I remembered the clothing he wore. He was ill. I'm not sure what he had, but he was losing body parts. I want to say Leprosy, but I really don't know if that's true or just stories I'd heard when I was little.
But he smelled. And I could smell him yesterday. And hear him. And (for some reason) feel the sunday school table under my hand.
All of this lasted probably 2-3 seconds. And it was so vivid that I felt almost like I'd been transported back in time.
I immediately got myself something to eat. But I didn't feel normal for several hours.
I'm hypoglycemic. I have to be careful when/what I eat or my blood sugar with seriously bottom out. I've checked it before just feeling mildly 'lite' an it been at 32. Seriously.
Yesterday we'd slept in and I'd taken some Advil for shoulder pain. My stomach just didn't feel like food before my bath. So I decided to bathe first.
Mistake.
I got out of the shower and had one of those terrible waves of sweaty nausea roll over me. I was dizzy and I had to sit (or fall). As I sat and put my head between my knees trying not to pass out, I had a sudden *very vivid* childhood memory.
The church I was raised in was a small place just down the street from where I grew up. My grandfather was the pastor. I remembered being in this church and they were having a "foot washing". I'd totally forgotten about the church doing this. I was probably about 5-6 years old. I remembered the pans that were used. The "praises" being shouted. This man who used to sit in the back of the church and yell (along with many others in the church). But this man had some type of speech impediment. And his shouts were always "different" than others around. I remembered the clothing he wore. He was ill. I'm not sure what he had, but he was losing body parts. I want to say Leprosy, but I really don't know if that's true or just stories I'd heard when I was little.
But he smelled. And I could smell him yesterday. And hear him. And (for some reason) feel the sunday school table under my hand.
All of this lasted probably 2-3 seconds. And it was so vivid that I felt almost like I'd been transported back in time.
I immediately got myself something to eat. But I didn't feel normal for several hours.