June 5, 2009
I have to admit something pretty embarrassing. I am obsessed with the movie Twilight. Now, I don't think that it is a good movie. And, I don't think that it was a good book. But, there is something about the movie that I can't stop watching. I mean...I hate it. There are so many bad things that I have found wrong with the movie. So many. Too many. And yet, there is something there...something that keeps me attached to the movie...something that I have become unbelievably obsessed with. I don't know what it is. It has become so strong and prominent in me that I even went out and bought the movie. Before I bought the movie, I had originally ordered the movie on Netflix at the constant coos and desires of Mark's sister, Jenn, who thought that I would really like the movie. Hence, I decided to get it. Now, upon first watching it, I hated it immediately. There was nothing that I liked. Vampires glitter? Are you fucking kidding me? The stupid looks on Edward's face? Idiotic. And the kid they chose for the lead role (not the girl), was so unattractive that I didn't understand why all these tweens loved the movie. Needless to say, it did not leave a good impression with me. And then, I was drunk one night, all by myself because Mark was at work. I was looking at all my pay-preview channels and there wasn't anything that I really wanted to see, but I wanted to watch a movie that wouldn't have me think too much. I mean, I was drunk off of wine and I was full from Chinese food and tofu. I just wanted to relax and watch and non-thinking movie. So, I ordered Twilight. And that is when it happened to me. It could be the fact that I was really close to my period, but I became overly emotional when I watched it this second time. The second time turned into a third and a third turned into a fourth. By the time I realized what was happening, I had kept the movie on a constant stream throughout the night where I would find myself falling asleep to parts and waking up to others. It was bad. After the movie ran out...I kept thinking about it...I became enthralled with it...and then, eventually I just bought it...
I am ashamed. This is not like me. This is not a movie or story I like. I do not understand what has gotten into me. And it really making me want to continue on with my Fallen story that I have been putting off all these many years. But, should I? Do I have the time to continue my story? How are people going to take to another vampire story when the Twilight series has become so popular? My story, my Fallen story, is not going to be anything like this little tween romantic version. Far from it...
I wonder what people would think...