Nov 02, 2007 22:42
I have to tell you both something. I was thinking about giving in. Letting what was done to me keep me away. Because you'd think that being dead would keep you from traumatising experiences, but it didn't. I still went through something horrible. And I was going to say that I didn't want to come back. That I couldn't. But I talked with my mother, and she made me realise how weak that was. Just by being with her, because my mother is made of adamantium (nerd alert). And I can't let my mother be strong and give up so much for me just to turn around and give up myself. I won't do that to her. Or anyone else.
And, Spectre, I won't let Brian take me from you.
So...I suppose what I'm trying to say is...I'm ready to be strong now. No more giving up. And I love you both so much for being there for me when even I didn't want to be there. I know I've been...something other than myself. So thank you. From the bottom of my heart.
being strong,
grrrrr!,
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