Yankee - 10 - Last chapter
Title: Yankee
Author:su_ede
Length: About 6122 words
Pairing: Matsumoto Jun x OC
Rating: nc - 17
Genre: romance - life - School life
Disclaimer: I don't own Arashi...or maybe I do, who knows?
Summary: Jun's school moved to Asuka's neighbourhood recently. She has been looking at him lately. Is not the cool hair and the handsome look what call her attention. It's the idea of rebellion, ideals and braveness what makes her go toki doki for this guy.
A/N: I want to say thank you everyone who followed this fic. It was a little dream of mine to write a fic about a first love, and the passion and innocense that youth brings. I'm so pleased with the result, and hope you, my dear readers, too.
Chapter 10
“Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.”
― Dr. Seuss
Aiba was having a hard time with mitosis and meiosis, and Jun was doing his best to help him out “Come on Aiba I’m bored”
“Hey! If you’re smart that’s not my problem, some of us need more time to digest this information”
“Ok, I’ll go down stairs to hang out with your dad”
“Matsujun wait, did something happen? You have been here for two nights in a row that’s not like you…is everything alright at home?” Jun came back to his position in the floor and looked at the floor, shunning Aiba’s stare “Things at my house are weird. The other day a detective came, then my mom fought with my dad for an hour, I couldn’t get what they were saying, I could only hear their muffled screams, each time I leaved the house, some unknown persons came to me asking who I was, and If I could say something about my dad…I think my dad is in to something, but I don’t wanna know, I would crash at Asuka’s place, but she’s visiting her gramps”
“Jun-kun that sounds bad…well, you can stay here as long as you want”
“Na! Asuka arrives tomorrow, I’ll move to her place” Jun patted Aiba’s shoulder and walked outside his room so he could study in calm.
But Aiba couldn’t avoid get worried.
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“It’s so nice to have a son in law who is so helpful and cute and polite and a good cooker and…”
“Mom, enough, I get it, you like him more than you like your own daughter, big deal”
“Oh my god Asuka, I never said that, I was just implying that I wish Jun was my son and not you” Asuka did a fake hurt expression, getting a good laugh from Jun “Girls, girls don’t fight for me please, now if you excuse me, I’ll go take out the garbage” Jun leaved, throwing Asuka a mocking smile “Jun, let me adopted you please!, I can get rid of Asuka in a minute” Asuka hung to her mom’s neck, crushing her in to a hug “Mom, don’t leave me please, I’ll be a good daughter” Jun watched them joke around, and heard them fake quarrelling with a big smile plastered on his face. That was a nice family environment.
After smoke a cigarette and chewing a mint gum for a while, he got inside Asuka’s house, finding her sitting in the kitchen pealing some oranges “Mom went to bed already, she has long shift tomorrow, I’ll take this to my bedroom, you can follow me, or you can stay here cleaning the house or what ever”
“You’re not mad aren’t you?, she’s just joking, I’ll be a better son, that’s for sure, but she loves you” Asuka threw him the rind of an orange, which Jun skilfully dodge “I know that! She’s just bewitched by your natural charm”
“And you’re not?”
“I am, very much” Asuka got up from the table, leaved a short kiss in Jun’s cheek and walked to her room. Jun followed her, turning off the lights on his way.
The day Jun arrived in Asuka’s house, her mom had prepared him a futon in Asuka’s room. She knew that the possibility of Jun getting in Asuka’s bed in the middle of the night was high, but as a mom, she preferred to erased that though from her mind.
Jun laid on top of his futon, eating one of the oranges Asuka brought, looking at her changing in to her pyjama. “Are you enjoying that nice futon over there?”
“Sure, is soft and warm, better than Aiba’s” Asuka gave him a look that Jun couldn’t interpret, but say nothing. She got in to her bed, eating the last orange before Jun did.
They both went to sleep at the same time. None of them could do it though. “You up?” Asuka turned around in her bed, looking on his direction “Yeah…want to be bad and sneak in to my bed?”
“Don’t mind if I do” Jun went out of his futon cautiously, trying to make no sound, so her mom wouldn’t find out. He got in to her bed, with the same care, making Asuka laugh. Finally Jun was under Asuka’s blankets, sighing in content. The heat flared between them, Jun pulled her closer, enjoying the feeling of Asuka melting in his arm. “Jun? Let me ask you something” Her voice was a soft whisper easy to hear in the stillness of the night “Ask me”
“Something is bothering you, you haven’t sleep in your house for four nights, tell me what’s going on”
“Man, you’re fast”
“I know you very well”
“Ok, I don’t wanna go home, something is going on and…I’m scared of what I might find out”
“I see…you think your dad is on to something?”
“Yeah” Jun said nothing more, he didn’t need to, Asuka already got an idea, and the only way to support him was being there for him. She kissed Jun’s lips, chin and neck to finally rest against him, seeking for sleep.
Jun did the same.
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“Jun-kun, Jun-kun wake up!” Jun was being violently shook by his shoulder, a horrible way to start the day “Jun-kun, come on, Asuka, you too, I need you guys down stair right now, hurry up!” Asuka saw her mom dash outside her room, it was still early, and probably her mom was getting ready to leave. She woke up Jun, no without difficulty, her mom kept screaming ‘hurry up’ from the first floor. “Is she mad because I got in to your bed?”
“I don’t thing so, she didn’t looked mad, she looked worried, hurry up, let’s go see what is happening”
They reached the first floor finding Asuka’s mom in front of the TV, covering her mouth with one hand, her eyes load with worry “Jun-kun, dear, seat down, watch this” Jun focused his attention on the TV for the first time ‘Senator Matsumoto money scam’ read in the CG of the TV and the image was a man that looked a lot like his dad pulled out from a house that looked a lot like his, by a police man. His body felt cold suddenly, his head refused to believe what was going on “Early this morning senator Matsumoto and his wife were arrested at their house after the tribunal find him and his wife guilty in the charges of embezzlement and fraud. They were taken to the Aoyama police department and they are waiting for their trial. Their lawyers haven’t talk to the press, and they aren’t answering our calls, we will back to you with more news about this case after the break”. The TV went to commercials. The image of his dad was replaced by a girl with big eyes and a big smile eating bread.
It had finally happen.
His dad finally dig his family grave. Embezzlement and fraud. Two disgusting charges. Now all the things that occurred during the week had an explanation. And the explanation was mom and dad, on TV taken out of their house by cops.
It felt as if he was inside a vacuum. There was a strange ring in his ear, his mouth was dry, his eyes itched, and he couldn’t react.
Asuka stared at the TV with the exact same feelings. But she had to be strong. “Jun, Jun?” He didn’t react, not to her voice, not even to her touch. His eyes were still looking at the TV. But not really looking. Say ‘It’s alright’ sounded as a fake and stupid lie in her ears, and Jun wasn’t going to believe it. She felt like there were no good words to say now. Her hand grabbed Jun’s, he didn’t answer back, but that didn’t stop her. Asuka’s mom had to leave, her concern was the same as her daughter. She dropped a kiss in Jun’s head and leaved for work.
Asuka noticed as Jun’s body started to shake, his breathing quickened and his eyes closed. With desperation, Asuka brought him to her body, hugging him, trying to calm him down, to bring him back to life. Her body started rocking back and forward, soothing him, whispering his name on his ear, kissing his head and face.
Suddenly something was pulling Jun back to reality. It was Asuka’s warmth, fragrance and voice. Taking him back to life. As always. He grabbed her waist, pushing her slightly away, to look at her. He only found worried in her eyes. He could see the worry of his own eyes reflected on hers. And he hated it.
He got up from the couch, dash up stairs to get dressed. Asuka followed him, trying to calm him down, but without success. Both of them froze when Jun’s phone rang. It was his father’s lawyer “Jun-kun, I don’t know if you know…”
“Of course I know, it was in the fucking news, what the fuck is that?”
“Look, calm down, we have to talk, we have to meet, I’ll wait for you at the coffee next to the train station. I’ll like you to stay away from your home and from your school, you will be surrounded by reporters”
”Ok, I’ll be there in 15 minutes” Jun hanged up the phone, but said nothing to Asuka “Jun?” He didn’t answered “Jun? Please, where are you going?” He walked outside the room, followed by her “Asuka! No…don’t follow me, I need to be alone” He walked outside without looking back, leaving Asuka in the verge of crying.
Jun had met the family lawyer a couple of times. He knew him well, it was a good man, for sure his work had a strong lack of ethic, but he was a good man after all. “Jun-kun come here, you must be hungry”
”Cut the crap, what is happening?”
“Well, what you saw on TV is true. Right now your dad and your mom are guilty on those charges”
”My mom?!”
“Yeah, she was an accomplice, she wasn’t directly connected, but she knew, and some of the papers and properties bought with that money are under her name, when asked, she said that she was aware of it” Jun didn’t saw that coming, but knowing his mom, he suspected that she was covering his husband “Jun-kun, I’ll cut to the chase, right now, thing don’t look good, they have the proofs, they have witnesses, and your mom and dad already confessed. My job right now is turn the penalties a bit down, less years. Not less than 3 years though. The bank accounts are blocked, you can’t get in to your house either, it’s being investigated by the police” Jun felt like crying, like hitting the guy in the face, like grabbing the knife in the table and stab himself in the neck. His mom and dad, a pair of modern Bonnie and Clyde, but more disgusting. “Also, your big sister is on her way. You’re still a minor, and with the situation, she’s your chaperone now…she wants to take you with her to London. With all the accusations and all the people your father knew and trick, it could get hard for you to live in Tokyo”
“What? So not just only my parents are the new shame of Japan but I’m supposed to leave now?!”
“Jun, is all for good. Your own good”
“Tell me something, did my dad told you to met me? All this things you’re saying are his message?”
“No, I’m doing this on my own. Your dad hasn’t said anything about you, and I don’t know about your mom, I haven’t had the chance to talk to her”
“Figures…fuck this, I don’t give a damn of what happens to them, let those love birds make new friends in jail, tell them I say hi” Jun stood up, feeling his view go blank, numb to any word that came from outside.
He started to wonder, walk with no clear path. His cell phone started buzzing. Aiba, Ranma, Tommy, Asuka, Ohno, Asuka again, he didn’t know what to say, he didn’t want to say anything, so has soon as he found a garbage can, he dropped his phone and kept walking.
Mornings during week days turned the small shirine close to the river shore in to a desert place. It was a good place to hide and smoke. One cigarette after the other. It took him 3 cigarettes to reconsider the ‘visit his parents issue’, it took him 5 cigarettes to understand what was going on, it took him 2 cigarettes to realized how fucked up was all, another 2 cigarettes to realize how little his parents cared about him, and finally 6 cigarettes to let himself get full of rage and resentment. Just like in the beginning. His fists started to blaze with anger and a rush crawl up his back. He got in to his feet and walked to the south of the river shore. The sun was already down, the wind felt colder, and the street lights were already lighting up the cement. He chose the south because he knew what he could find there.
He knew who he could find there.
The guy didn’t have a name, or at lest he didn’t remembered it. His face was clear on his mind though. Jun and his friends had fought with him a couple of times before. They used to met at the creepiest part of the shore, the one full of garbage, were the water had a funny smell and not even the police dare to come by “Oi!” Jun’s scream was clear and loud, he found just who he wanted.
The guy was by himself, lying on the grass, smoking not a cigarette but a marijuana fag. His eyes were red and unfocused and getting up took him a bit of work. Jun knew that it would give him advantage and he didn’t care. Once he was up and stable on his feets, he looked in Jun’s direction and he recognize him “Oh, Shirokin beautiful princes! How can I help you miss?” Jun didn’t answered, if he was waiting for a reason to attack, there it was. He walked down the hill, and as soon as he was less than a meter away from him, he dropped the first punch. From then on, it turned in to a mess of pumping adrenaline and swearing. The first punch that glanced Jun’s chin made him feel alive, as his violence had a reason now. A second punch was approaching, Jun dodged it skilfully, and his fist landed on his opponent stomach, doubling him over and expelling the last bit of choked air from his stomach. Jun wish the guy was a bit more conscious so the fight could be more liberating, the other guy send a hit, It was a heck of a shot, Jun noticed a light amount of pain. Fortunately, he was used to it. Jun already had a fair amount of fights in his body, he knew how to deal with pain.
He knew how to do it.
He stood straight, eyes bulging with rage, and stared at his opponent right in his shifty little eyes. The guy, still dresses with his school uniform, did his best to stand tall, but the pain and the effect of the weed didn’t allow him. Jun had him where he wanted and with a single kick Jun had him on the floor. He aimed another kick, this one to his ribs. The guy turn in to a ball, trying to protect himself, but Jun wasn’t satisfied yet. He straddled him, his fists aiming the guy’s face. His knuckles were already bleeding, his muscles sore, but still with energy to drop a few more punches. His fist was way up, gaining some momentum when he heard his name “JUN!!!” His fist stopped, his entire body froze when he saw who was bolting on his direction “What are you doing?, Stop it you idiot!” Asuka’s voice was a warm balm for Jun’s hurt body, even if it was covered by those words. She reached him in now time, grabbing him by his shoulders, soothing the shudder, relaxing them. Slowly, Jun put down his fist and looked at Asuka with his eyes darkened by rage, a small cut on his cheek and a trickle of blood going down his chin “Let’s go Jun, please come with me” He didn’t answered, he looked back at the guy under him, then back at Asuka. The expression on her face, the worry in her eyes, the trail of tears in the corner of her eyes, the shaking of her lips. She was worried, scared, and it was because of him.
Jun stood up, leaning against her, trying to steady his legs “I’m sorry Asuka, I’m sorry” It surprised him how low and rasped his voice sounded “It’s alright Jun, I’ve got you now, let’s go” They walked in silence until they reached the footpath. Asuka’s grip around his body was strong, but the lack of talking from her side scared him “Are you mad?”
“No, I’m not mad Jun, How can I be mad?, I was worried, dead worried, I leaved you alone, just as you asked, but I started to get worried, you didn’t pick up your phone, and no one saw you…I walked all along the river shore looking for you”
“I really needed to be alone”
“I know…did it help?”
“Yeah it did…but can we talk about it tomorrow?” Asuka didn’t insist, she understood that much.
They walked to Asuka’s house, Jun didn’t move his body away from Asuka’s, not even a millimetre. Meanwhile Jun ate, Asuka called everyone who was looking for him around the neighbourhood, even around Tokyo. “Ok, everyone is informed that you’re alive, and unharmed, I told them that you don’t feel like seeing anyone too, so you will be safe here” Jun only stared at his plate, bringing to his mouth the last piece of chicken. Asuka stood next to him, and carefully posed her hand on his back, moving it up until he reached his head. Jun’s eyes closed, his lungs release all the heavy air he had inside of him with a long sight. Asuka’s fingers caressed his head, combing his hair, moving from his forehead to his nape. Jun grabbed her hand, rather brusquely, standing up, pulling her with him. He darted up stairs, with Asuka following his steps. They reached her bedroom, and Jun was fast pushing her inside, closing the door behind them, and cornering her against a wall. His pupils contracted, and the stress in his cheeks notable. Strong, rough hands instantly covered Asuka’s face. Hard lips crashing against the girl's, low moans escaping both of their lips as Jun’s hands snaked his way around to the back of her head, fisting it strong. Asuka eased into the kiss, her hands carding through Jun’s hair and her tongue running along Jun’s lower lip before slipping inside Jun’s mouth. She did her best to not get scared by Jun sudden and violent moves, and after a day full of doubts of where Jun was, and if he was alright, it was a relieve to have him there, safe.
Jun's lips were on her neck, alternating on kissing and biting her flesh.His hands slid down Asuka’s head and chest to rest on the rim of her jeans. He didn’t even bothered with unfasten the button or pull down the zipper, he just pulled down her pants, taking her underwear with them. Asuka inhaled sharply as Jun’s hands stilled, resting on her naked sides. They looked at each other for a brief second, Jun’s eyes looked apologetic in someway, but they found no fear in Asuka’s. “Come here” Jun said pulling back from her and manoeuvring her by the hips to get her closer to the bed. He didn’t wait for Asuka to settle properly back against the bed. He climbs right on top of her, pressing his covered erection against Asuka. She inhaled deeply then narrowed her eyes before leaning in and catching Jun’s lower lip between her teeth. She shared the same desperation Jun had. She ran her hands up Jun’s sides and across his chest, to later quickly get rid of his t-shirt, tossing it to the floor. Jun did the same with hers and let his mouth wander down Asuka’s chest, stopping to bite hard her left nipple, making her release a noise of surprise. He sucked the affected area gently then bit down again, while working his own belt open. He came back, to sit in between her legs and plugged himself inside Asuka with no further advice or care. Her body tensed, and a loud yelp leaved her mouth, but Jun didn’t stopped, he bend down, drinking her moans and whimpers, covering her lips with bruising kisses, biting down the skin around her neck and shoulder. Asuka could notice the change in Jun’s attitude. He wasn’t fine.
The sex was rough, desperate, Jun frowned the entire time and his grip was strong. Each time Asuka rocked her hips, his mouth would open in a soundless moan. And Jun’s hands were tight on Asuka’s hips as to leave bruises. His body was thrumming with need as he held Asuka in place by passing his fingers through her hair, holding his head down. There was something in every movement, kiss and moan of Jun that scared her to the core. She felt as if Jun was trying to convey something, something she wasn’t able to grab.
Soon Jun is ready to release, his mouth is panting something unintelligible into her ear in heavy, guttural rhythm. She wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed his face, trying to give him some calm, some assurance to whatever was passing through his mind. He quickened his pace and she raised her hips, wanting him deeper and deeper inside. He pumped harder and deeper in. She grasped at the strength of each thrust.
They looked deep inside each other’s eyes and that trigged it. For both.
Stillness settles over them, thick and comfortable. Asuka cleaned a single drop falling down the corner of Jun’s eyes and kissed his shaken lips. She pulled him with her, to lay across the bed more comfortably, Jun followed with no resistance. She got up, bringing his underwear so he could put it on. She grabbed her pyjama from under her pillow, dressing up and getting in to bed with Jun. The room was already submerged in darkness and outside the sky was already black. She came back to the bed, getting in with Jun. She rested her back against his chest, allowing him to spoon her, kissing her neck. "Asuka" he whispered, and she turned over, squirming in place to face Jun. His expression was carefully blank, not a smile or a frown, his hand curled on her neck, moving up her face, resting against her warm cheeks "I love you". Asuka kisses the confession, holding Jun’s hands, moving to her lips, dropping one kiss on each hand “I love you too” Jun smiles for the first time since Asuka found him. A bright, honest smile that reached his eyes. She answers with a smile as bright as his and Jun brought her closer, making her rest her face against his neck, feeling her breathing close.
She wanted to ask. She needed to know what was happening to Jun. Why this sudden need of passion, why that change in his way to treat her, but he asked her to wait until tomorrow. So she will.
“My sister is coming” Jun said from nowhere “She is planning to take me with her to England” Asuka felt as if her soul leaved her body for a long second. Her heart clenched, her throat closed and her eyes were soon clouded by tears.
She didn’t need to ask anymore, that was the reason behind Jun’s behaviour.
Jun hold her, feeling her sob against his neck, hiding his own sobs in her hair.
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Jun hasn’t step a feet inside his house. All his belongings were brought by his senpai once police finished checking every corner of the house for any kind of proof. Not that they needed it, his parents had confess a while ago, but it was a good case, and they wanted to do it right apparently.
Jun was already far from worried. He was back in school, back with his friends, back with his girlfriend. Of course, every single day a dark sorrow would attacked him each time he remembered his parents and what they did, but it was easily subdued by Aiba’s jokes or Asuka’s kisses.
In all the months knowing Asuka, he already knew that she was someone who will face fear, her words preceded her, always. But at the same time, he knew that Asuka never insisted in issues that could bring her pain. As the issue of him leaving.
Everyone new it, but no one brought it up. It was too hard.
His sister arrived the first day of summer. Wearing a raincoat and boots, London was rainy after all. Asuka was taken aback of how similar Jun and her looked. She was incredibly pretty. Sweet and smart too. She pulled Asuka in a warm and familiar hug when she arrived in Asuka’s house. They organized a big welcome party. They ate, talk, and joke around, Jun’s sister told her beautiful stories about Jun and embarrassing stories too. She looked grateful, grateful that someone was able to caught Jun’s heart, grateful that Jun had a warm shoulder were he could rest his tired head.
When everyone was too busy laughing with Nino’s jokes, Asuka and Jun were pulled by his sister to a more private place. She settled them in her bedroom, Jun closed the door and sat in the bed next to Asuka. Both knew what they will talk about. “Guys, I know is hard, but you know why I’m doing this right?” None of the answered, they just looked at each other “Jun is underage, we have no close family here, and I’m afraid of what could happen to Jun if someone finds out who his father is…Asuka-chan, please tell me you understand”
”I do” Jun stared at her, annoyed for some reason, he was hoping for a denial, at least some resistance “Jun will be back, in a year or two, I know he had plans, and I’m not going to interfere with them, but for now, I need to have him with me” Jun stood up, half of him mad, half of him already rendered “It’s the only option Nee-chan?”
“It is Jun, right now you had no money, no house, I’m your only family and sadly I live across the continent and after what happened, you need to clear your mind”
“Asuka? Say something please” Jun walked in her direction, kneeling in front of her, resting his hand on top of hers “Jun…It saddens me, you don’t know how much, but she’s right, you need a clear start, some time apart, away from the ghosts of what happened”
“I don’t wanna be away from you”
“Me neither, but…it doesn’t mean that we are going to break up, right?” Jun pulled her in to a hug, caressing the back of her head “No, of course not” Jun stayed like that for a while, they didn’t even noticed when his sister leaved the room. “Jun?, we can go through this….right?”
“Sure we can” Jun smiled at her, caressing her cheeks, moving closer so he could kiss her, sealing the promise.
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It was almost embarrassing how much Aiba cried. There were already in their way to the airport and he hasn’t stop crying since the beginning of the week when Jun decided who will follow him in line to be the new leader. “Damn it Aibaka, you have my t-shirt covered in tears and snot!”
“Nino-chan, be understanding with me! My friend is leaving!” Everyone laugh at the amount of drama in each of Aiba’s words. They were all sharing a bus that will take them to Narita.
The week before that was a weird week, Jun spend the entire morning doing paperwork, the entire afternoon saying goodbye to his friends and acquaintances and the entire night snuggling with Asuka. By now, both of them were over the fact that Jun was leaving. They saw it even as an opportunity.
That morning Jun and his sister visited their mom at jail. The sentence was already settled, one year and 8 months for their mom, 3 years for his father. The reunion was tense, Jun’s mom had a hard time looking at her children’s at the eye. Jun didn’t know if he was mad or felt sorry for his mom. He promised to write every month, and Asuka will visit her too. He didn’t ask for his dad, and didn’t want to see him either. He didn’t care anymore.
The entire ride Jun would whisper things in Asuka’s ear, remembering things from when they met, telling her how much he loved her, how much she meant to him. Asuka did the same, everything that wasn’t’ said before, was now on top of the table, leaving memories in their heads. “I can’t believe that my first love will be my only love” Asuka was thinking out loud, but Jun had to agree with that “I know, we are such a cliché”
“Since the beginning” Both laughed, sharing a private moment, in their own buble “I already told Sho-san and Nino that they had to take good care of you, Nino told me that for ten thousand yens a month he could keep every guy away from you, I was this close to take the offer, but then I remembered that you are too honest to do that”
“That bastard, what did Sho -chan said?”
“He ask me to please stay away from any danger, and to hurry up and be back, for your own good”
“Awww, he’s so sweet”
“Yeah…you don’t dare to cheat on me with him…I’ll be totally defeated by him” Asuka giggled against his arm, hugging him “I will not, I swear”
The bus arrived too fast and everyone’s mood suddenly felt to the floor. Jun’s sister tried to keep things alive but it was hard. The goodbye was closer, and apparently they weren’t ready.
They had to be in the boarding door in two hours, but pass through security could easily take them an hour or more, so they decided that they will leave 30 minutes for the last goodbyes. Each one of the hugs that Jun receive was charged with strong feelings of sorrow but at the same time they were supportive, they knew it wasn’t a farewell.
Asuka was the last one. She didn’t have anything to say anymore, nothing more than I love you and I will miss you. She hugged him, inhaling his scent, memorizing the feeling of his body under her grip and the warmth of his skin. Jun did the same, sinking one of his hands in Asuka’s wavy hair, moving it down, feeling for the last time the soft sensation between his fingers. Asuka was in the verge of tears, but she didn’t wanted to break, she will wait until Jun couldn’t see her. She had to be strong.
His sister touched his shoulder, indicating him that it was time. Jun desperately grabbed Asuka’s face in between his hands, looking at her, her eyes, her lips and her cheeks. He kissed her with the same desperation, focusing all his attention in Asuka’s kiss, it would be a while until he could taste those lips again, so he better got the best of it. Asuka broke the kiss, with the intention of give him a last hug and not perpetuate the pain any longer. “Thank you Jun”
“For what?”
“For go and pick me up at school that day, for kiss me that night in the river shore, for stay with me that night my mom was at work, for coming back to me the day you found out about your parents, and for promise me that you will be back in two years”
“Damn, I love you Asuka, I’m so sorry for being such a bad boyfriend, for not telling you enough times that I loved you, for making you worry, for making you cry, I’m so sorry”
“Listen Jun, my mom taught me one thing: You don’t always have to tell people you love them. You just have to give them no reason to doubt it., and you Jun, have never give me a reason to doubt it, got it?” Jun nodded and pulled her closer for a last kiss. She took a step back, allowing him to take his suitcases, and Nino and Sho received her, passing their arms around her shoulders.
Jun turned around for the last time, waved to his friends, winked at Asuka with a smile on his lips, and turn back, following his sister.
The last image imprinted on his mind was Asuka blowing a kiss, smiling back at him.
Epiloge
2 years later.
That morning Asuka woke up early, she had to give a last review to her essay, pack some books and take a bath. The good of it was that she had the chance to have breakfast with her mom “”Did you spoke with Jun-kun?”
“No, he hasn’t contacted me in almost two weeks, he hasn’t respond to my email either, he must be busy”
“Oh I see, I can’t believe he is going to be back the next semester, I miss him so much, he’s such a good son”
“Yeah mom I know, you love him more than you love your daughter”
“That’s right, but don’t tell her…Asu-chan, you have handle it really well, Jun’s absence I mean”
“Well, some days are harder, some nights I can barely sleep, but it hasn’t been as hard as I thought, and time passes so fast! Amazing!” Her mom got up from the table, hugging her, congratulating her for her hard work.
She was closing the door, a long day at university was waiting, and she really didn’t had the energies, so it was better to do it for once, sucking it up. Once she was done with locking the door and checking if she had everything she needed with her she was finally ready to leave. “Is it too late?” Asuka jolted on her spot, that voice was so familiar. She slowly turned around, finding a pleasant surprise in front of her. There behind the railing it was Jun, with his hair shorter, glasses on, wearing skinny pants and a beautiful black coat. He looked like a model. She ran on his direction, opening the doors with difficulty. Once the railing was open, she stopped for a while, looking at him from head to toe, scared that it was an illusion. “I’m real Asuka, do I get a hug or what?” Asuka screamed in pure excitement, jumping in Jun’s arms “I wait for so long!”
“Sorry”
“You’re late!” She said softly hitting his chest and then grabbing his face “And you’re more handsome than ever!” Jun smile was shy, again he felt as if he didn’t deserved Asuka’s appreciative stare. “I don’t know if coming back like this was a good idea”
“Shut up and kiss me” Jun smiled wide at her, and he obeys, kissing Asuka. A hot, slow and long kiss. Two years without touching each other was way too much. “Is your mom home?” Asked Jun once they took a break to gain some air. “No”
“But you have classes”
“Fuck them!” Asuka grabbed his hand and pulled him with her, opening the door of the house. They got inside, already getting rid of each other clothes, when Jun was kissing that path he loved so much from Asuka’s hear to her shoulder she stopped him “Wait! You’re here earlier, are you visiting me?”
“What? No, I’m back, I’m not leaving again, well at least not without you” Asuka grabbed his face again, looking at his eyes, realizing that it was true, and now Jun was there, all for her. She pushed him on top of the couch, straddling him. His touch was the same, nothing had change, after 2 years there were taking each other breath away just as in the beginning.
Jun grabbed a good hold of Asuka, not planning on letting her go anytime soon.
Author:su_ede
Length: About 6122 words
Pairing: Matsumoto Jun x OC
Rating: nc - 17
Genre: romance - life - School life
Disclaimer: I don't own Arashi...or maybe I do, who knows?
Summary: Jun's school moved to Asuka's neighbourhood recently. She has been looking at him lately. Is not the cool hair and the handsome look what call her attention. It's the idea of rebellion, ideals and braveness what makes her go toki doki for this guy.
A/N: I want to say thank you everyone who followed this fic. It was a little dream of mine to write a fic about a first love, and the passion and innocense that youth brings. I'm so pleased with the result, and hope you, my dear readers, too.
Chapter 10
“Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.”
― Dr. Seuss
Aiba was having a hard time with mitosis and meiosis, and Jun was doing his best to help him out “Come on Aiba I’m bored”
“Hey! If you’re smart that’s not my problem, some of us need more time to digest this information”
“Ok, I’ll go down stairs to hang out with your dad”
“Matsujun wait, did something happen? You have been here for two nights in a row that’s not like you…is everything alright at home?” Jun came back to his position in the floor and looked at the floor, shunning Aiba’s stare “Things at my house are weird. The other day a detective came, then my mom fought with my dad for an hour, I couldn’t get what they were saying, I could only hear their muffled screams, each time I leaved the house, some unknown persons came to me asking who I was, and If I could say something about my dad…I think my dad is in to something, but I don’t wanna know, I would crash at Asuka’s place, but she’s visiting her gramps”
“Jun-kun that sounds bad…well, you can stay here as long as you want”
“Na! Asuka arrives tomorrow, I’ll move to her place” Jun patted Aiba’s shoulder and walked outside his room so he could study in calm.
But Aiba couldn’t avoid get worried.
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“It’s so nice to have a son in law who is so helpful and cute and polite and a good cooker and…”
“Mom, enough, I get it, you like him more than you like your own daughter, big deal”
“Oh my god Asuka, I never said that, I was just implying that I wish Jun was my son and not you” Asuka did a fake hurt expression, getting a good laugh from Jun “Girls, girls don’t fight for me please, now if you excuse me, I’ll go take out the garbage” Jun leaved, throwing Asuka a mocking smile “Jun, let me adopted you please!, I can get rid of Asuka in a minute” Asuka hung to her mom’s neck, crushing her in to a hug “Mom, don’t leave me please, I’ll be a good daughter” Jun watched them joke around, and heard them fake quarrelling with a big smile plastered on his face. That was a nice family environment.
After smoke a cigarette and chewing a mint gum for a while, he got inside Asuka’s house, finding her sitting in the kitchen pealing some oranges “Mom went to bed already, she has long shift tomorrow, I’ll take this to my bedroom, you can follow me, or you can stay here cleaning the house or what ever”
“You’re not mad aren’t you?, she’s just joking, I’ll be a better son, that’s for sure, but she loves you” Asuka threw him the rind of an orange, which Jun skilfully dodge “I know that! She’s just bewitched by your natural charm”
“And you’re not?”
“I am, very much” Asuka got up from the table, leaved a short kiss in Jun’s cheek and walked to her room. Jun followed her, turning off the lights on his way.
The day Jun arrived in Asuka’s house, her mom had prepared him a futon in Asuka’s room. She knew that the possibility of Jun getting in Asuka’s bed in the middle of the night was high, but as a mom, she preferred to erased that though from her mind.
Jun laid on top of his futon, eating one of the oranges Asuka brought, looking at her changing in to her pyjama. “Are you enjoying that nice futon over there?”
“Sure, is soft and warm, better than Aiba’s” Asuka gave him a look that Jun couldn’t interpret, but say nothing. She got in to her bed, eating the last orange before Jun did.
They both went to sleep at the same time. None of them could do it though. “You up?” Asuka turned around in her bed, looking on his direction “Yeah…want to be bad and sneak in to my bed?”
“Don’t mind if I do” Jun went out of his futon cautiously, trying to make no sound, so her mom wouldn’t find out. He got in to her bed, with the same care, making Asuka laugh. Finally Jun was under Asuka’s blankets, sighing in content. The heat flared between them, Jun pulled her closer, enjoying the feeling of Asuka melting in his arm. “Jun? Let me ask you something” Her voice was a soft whisper easy to hear in the stillness of the night “Ask me”
“Something is bothering you, you haven’t sleep in your house for four nights, tell me what’s going on”
“Man, you’re fast”
“I know you very well”
“Ok, I don’t wanna go home, something is going on and…I’m scared of what I might find out”
“I see…you think your dad is on to something?”
“Yeah” Jun said nothing more, he didn’t need to, Asuka already got an idea, and the only way to support him was being there for him. She kissed Jun’s lips, chin and neck to finally rest against him, seeking for sleep.
Jun did the same.
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“Jun-kun, Jun-kun wake up!” Jun was being violently shook by his shoulder, a horrible way to start the day “Jun-kun, come on, Asuka, you too, I need you guys down stair right now, hurry up!” Asuka saw her mom dash outside her room, it was still early, and probably her mom was getting ready to leave. She woke up Jun, no without difficulty, her mom kept screaming ‘hurry up’ from the first floor. “Is she mad because I got in to your bed?”
“I don’t thing so, she didn’t looked mad, she looked worried, hurry up, let’s go see what is happening”
They reached the first floor finding Asuka’s mom in front of the TV, covering her mouth with one hand, her eyes load with worry “Jun-kun, dear, seat down, watch this” Jun focused his attention on the TV for the first time ‘Senator Matsumoto money scam’ read in the CG of the TV and the image was a man that looked a lot like his dad pulled out from a house that looked a lot like his, by a police man. His body felt cold suddenly, his head refused to believe what was going on “Early this morning senator Matsumoto and his wife were arrested at their house after the tribunal find him and his wife guilty in the charges of embezzlement and fraud. They were taken to the Aoyama police department and they are waiting for their trial. Their lawyers haven’t talk to the press, and they aren’t answering our calls, we will back to you with more news about this case after the break”. The TV went to commercials. The image of his dad was replaced by a girl with big eyes and a big smile eating bread.
It had finally happen.
His dad finally dig his family grave. Embezzlement and fraud. Two disgusting charges. Now all the things that occurred during the week had an explanation. And the explanation was mom and dad, on TV taken out of their house by cops.
It felt as if he was inside a vacuum. There was a strange ring in his ear, his mouth was dry, his eyes itched, and he couldn’t react.
Asuka stared at the TV with the exact same feelings. But she had to be strong. “Jun, Jun?” He didn’t react, not to her voice, not even to her touch. His eyes were still looking at the TV. But not really looking. Say ‘It’s alright’ sounded as a fake and stupid lie in her ears, and Jun wasn’t going to believe it. She felt like there were no good words to say now. Her hand grabbed Jun’s, he didn’t answer back, but that didn’t stop her. Asuka’s mom had to leave, her concern was the same as her daughter. She dropped a kiss in Jun’s head and leaved for work.
Asuka noticed as Jun’s body started to shake, his breathing quickened and his eyes closed. With desperation, Asuka brought him to her body, hugging him, trying to calm him down, to bring him back to life. Her body started rocking back and forward, soothing him, whispering his name on his ear, kissing his head and face.
Suddenly something was pulling Jun back to reality. It was Asuka’s warmth, fragrance and voice. Taking him back to life. As always. He grabbed her waist, pushing her slightly away, to look at her. He only found worried in her eyes. He could see the worry of his own eyes reflected on hers. And he hated it.
He got up from the couch, dash up stairs to get dressed. Asuka followed him, trying to calm him down, but without success. Both of them froze when Jun’s phone rang. It was his father’s lawyer “Jun-kun, I don’t know if you know…”
“Of course I know, it was in the fucking news, what the fuck is that?”
“Look, calm down, we have to talk, we have to meet, I’ll wait for you at the coffee next to the train station. I’ll like you to stay away from your home and from your school, you will be surrounded by reporters”
”Ok, I’ll be there in 15 minutes” Jun hanged up the phone, but said nothing to Asuka “Jun?” He didn’t answered “Jun? Please, where are you going?” He walked outside the room, followed by her “Asuka! No…don’t follow me, I need to be alone” He walked outside without looking back, leaving Asuka in the verge of crying.
Jun had met the family lawyer a couple of times. He knew him well, it was a good man, for sure his work had a strong lack of ethic, but he was a good man after all. “Jun-kun come here, you must be hungry”
”Cut the crap, what is happening?”
“Well, what you saw on TV is true. Right now your dad and your mom are guilty on those charges”
”My mom?!”
“Yeah, she was an accomplice, she wasn’t directly connected, but she knew, and some of the papers and properties bought with that money are under her name, when asked, she said that she was aware of it” Jun didn’t saw that coming, but knowing his mom, he suspected that she was covering his husband “Jun-kun, I’ll cut to the chase, right now, thing don’t look good, they have the proofs, they have witnesses, and your mom and dad already confessed. My job right now is turn the penalties a bit down, less years. Not less than 3 years though. The bank accounts are blocked, you can’t get in to your house either, it’s being investigated by the police” Jun felt like crying, like hitting the guy in the face, like grabbing the knife in the table and stab himself in the neck. His mom and dad, a pair of modern Bonnie and Clyde, but more disgusting. “Also, your big sister is on her way. You’re still a minor, and with the situation, she’s your chaperone now…she wants to take you with her to London. With all the accusations and all the people your father knew and trick, it could get hard for you to live in Tokyo”
“What? So not just only my parents are the new shame of Japan but I’m supposed to leave now?!”
“Jun, is all for good. Your own good”
“Tell me something, did my dad told you to met me? All this things you’re saying are his message?”
“No, I’m doing this on my own. Your dad hasn’t said anything about you, and I don’t know about your mom, I haven’t had the chance to talk to her”
“Figures…fuck this, I don’t give a damn of what happens to them, let those love birds make new friends in jail, tell them I say hi” Jun stood up, feeling his view go blank, numb to any word that came from outside.
He started to wonder, walk with no clear path. His cell phone started buzzing. Aiba, Ranma, Tommy, Asuka, Ohno, Asuka again, he didn’t know what to say, he didn’t want to say anything, so has soon as he found a garbage can, he dropped his phone and kept walking.
Mornings during week days turned the small shirine close to the river shore in to a desert place. It was a good place to hide and smoke. One cigarette after the other. It took him 3 cigarettes to reconsider the ‘visit his parents issue’, it took him 5 cigarettes to understand what was going on, it took him 2 cigarettes to realized how fucked up was all, another 2 cigarettes to realize how little his parents cared about him, and finally 6 cigarettes to let himself get full of rage and resentment. Just like in the beginning. His fists started to blaze with anger and a rush crawl up his back. He got in to his feet and walked to the south of the river shore. The sun was already down, the wind felt colder, and the street lights were already lighting up the cement. He chose the south because he knew what he could find there.
He knew who he could find there.
The guy didn’t have a name, or at lest he didn’t remembered it. His face was clear on his mind though. Jun and his friends had fought with him a couple of times before. They used to met at the creepiest part of the shore, the one full of garbage, were the water had a funny smell and not even the police dare to come by “Oi!” Jun’s scream was clear and loud, he found just who he wanted.
The guy was by himself, lying on the grass, smoking not a cigarette but a marijuana fag. His eyes were red and unfocused and getting up took him a bit of work. Jun knew that it would give him advantage and he didn’t care. Once he was up and stable on his feets, he looked in Jun’s direction and he recognize him “Oh, Shirokin beautiful princes! How can I help you miss?” Jun didn’t answered, if he was waiting for a reason to attack, there it was. He walked down the hill, and as soon as he was less than a meter away from him, he dropped the first punch. From then on, it turned in to a mess of pumping adrenaline and swearing. The first punch that glanced Jun’s chin made him feel alive, as his violence had a reason now. A second punch was approaching, Jun dodged it skilfully, and his fist landed on his opponent stomach, doubling him over and expelling the last bit of choked air from his stomach. Jun wish the guy was a bit more conscious so the fight could be more liberating, the other guy send a hit, It was a heck of a shot, Jun noticed a light amount of pain. Fortunately, he was used to it. Jun already had a fair amount of fights in his body, he knew how to deal with pain.
He knew how to do it.
He stood straight, eyes bulging with rage, and stared at his opponent right in his shifty little eyes. The guy, still dresses with his school uniform, did his best to stand tall, but the pain and the effect of the weed didn’t allow him. Jun had him where he wanted and with a single kick Jun had him on the floor. He aimed another kick, this one to his ribs. The guy turn in to a ball, trying to protect himself, but Jun wasn’t satisfied yet. He straddled him, his fists aiming the guy’s face. His knuckles were already bleeding, his muscles sore, but still with energy to drop a few more punches. His fist was way up, gaining some momentum when he heard his name “JUN!!!” His fist stopped, his entire body froze when he saw who was bolting on his direction “What are you doing?, Stop it you idiot!” Asuka’s voice was a warm balm for Jun’s hurt body, even if it was covered by those words. She reached him in now time, grabbing him by his shoulders, soothing the shudder, relaxing them. Slowly, Jun put down his fist and looked at Asuka with his eyes darkened by rage, a small cut on his cheek and a trickle of blood going down his chin “Let’s go Jun, please come with me” He didn’t answered, he looked back at the guy under him, then back at Asuka. The expression on her face, the worry in her eyes, the trail of tears in the corner of her eyes, the shaking of her lips. She was worried, scared, and it was because of him.
Jun stood up, leaning against her, trying to steady his legs “I’m sorry Asuka, I’m sorry” It surprised him how low and rasped his voice sounded “It’s alright Jun, I’ve got you now, let’s go” They walked in silence until they reached the footpath. Asuka’s grip around his body was strong, but the lack of talking from her side scared him “Are you mad?”
“No, I’m not mad Jun, How can I be mad?, I was worried, dead worried, I leaved you alone, just as you asked, but I started to get worried, you didn’t pick up your phone, and no one saw you…I walked all along the river shore looking for you”
“I really needed to be alone”
“I know…did it help?”
“Yeah it did…but can we talk about it tomorrow?” Asuka didn’t insist, she understood that much.
They walked to Asuka’s house, Jun didn’t move his body away from Asuka’s, not even a millimetre. Meanwhile Jun ate, Asuka called everyone who was looking for him around the neighbourhood, even around Tokyo. “Ok, everyone is informed that you’re alive, and unharmed, I told them that you don’t feel like seeing anyone too, so you will be safe here” Jun only stared at his plate, bringing to his mouth the last piece of chicken. Asuka stood next to him, and carefully posed her hand on his back, moving it up until he reached his head. Jun’s eyes closed, his lungs release all the heavy air he had inside of him with a long sight. Asuka’s fingers caressed his head, combing his hair, moving from his forehead to his nape. Jun grabbed her hand, rather brusquely, standing up, pulling her with him. He darted up stairs, with Asuka following his steps. They reached her bedroom, and Jun was fast pushing her inside, closing the door behind them, and cornering her against a wall. His pupils contracted, and the stress in his cheeks notable. Strong, rough hands instantly covered Asuka’s face. Hard lips crashing against the girl's, low moans escaping both of their lips as Jun’s hands snaked his way around to the back of her head, fisting it strong. Asuka eased into the kiss, her hands carding through Jun’s hair and her tongue running along Jun’s lower lip before slipping inside Jun’s mouth. She did her best to not get scared by Jun sudden and violent moves, and after a day full of doubts of where Jun was, and if he was alright, it was a relieve to have him there, safe.
Jun's lips were on her neck, alternating on kissing and biting her flesh.His hands slid down Asuka’s head and chest to rest on the rim of her jeans. He didn’t even bothered with unfasten the button or pull down the zipper, he just pulled down her pants, taking her underwear with them. Asuka inhaled sharply as Jun’s hands stilled, resting on her naked sides. They looked at each other for a brief second, Jun’s eyes looked apologetic in someway, but they found no fear in Asuka’s. “Come here” Jun said pulling back from her and manoeuvring her by the hips to get her closer to the bed. He didn’t wait for Asuka to settle properly back against the bed. He climbs right on top of her, pressing his covered erection against Asuka. She inhaled deeply then narrowed her eyes before leaning in and catching Jun’s lower lip between her teeth. She shared the same desperation Jun had. She ran her hands up Jun’s sides and across his chest, to later quickly get rid of his t-shirt, tossing it to the floor. Jun did the same with hers and let his mouth wander down Asuka’s chest, stopping to bite hard her left nipple, making her release a noise of surprise. He sucked the affected area gently then bit down again, while working his own belt open. He came back, to sit in between her legs and plugged himself inside Asuka with no further advice or care. Her body tensed, and a loud yelp leaved her mouth, but Jun didn’t stopped, he bend down, drinking her moans and whimpers, covering her lips with bruising kisses, biting down the skin around her neck and shoulder. Asuka could notice the change in Jun’s attitude. He wasn’t fine.
The sex was rough, desperate, Jun frowned the entire time and his grip was strong. Each time Asuka rocked her hips, his mouth would open in a soundless moan. And Jun’s hands were tight on Asuka’s hips as to leave bruises. His body was thrumming with need as he held Asuka in place by passing his fingers through her hair, holding his head down. There was something in every movement, kiss and moan of Jun that scared her to the core. She felt as if Jun was trying to convey something, something she wasn’t able to grab.
Soon Jun is ready to release, his mouth is panting something unintelligible into her ear in heavy, guttural rhythm. She wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed his face, trying to give him some calm, some assurance to whatever was passing through his mind. He quickened his pace and she raised her hips, wanting him deeper and deeper inside. He pumped harder and deeper in. She grasped at the strength of each thrust.
They looked deep inside each other’s eyes and that trigged it. For both.
Stillness settles over them, thick and comfortable. Asuka cleaned a single drop falling down the corner of Jun’s eyes and kissed his shaken lips. She pulled him with her, to lay across the bed more comfortably, Jun followed with no resistance. She got up, bringing his underwear so he could put it on. She grabbed her pyjama from under her pillow, dressing up and getting in to bed with Jun. The room was already submerged in darkness and outside the sky was already black. She came back to the bed, getting in with Jun. She rested her back against his chest, allowing him to spoon her, kissing her neck. "Asuka" he whispered, and she turned over, squirming in place to face Jun. His expression was carefully blank, not a smile or a frown, his hand curled on her neck, moving up her face, resting against her warm cheeks "I love you". Asuka kisses the confession, holding Jun’s hands, moving to her lips, dropping one kiss on each hand “I love you too” Jun smiles for the first time since Asuka found him. A bright, honest smile that reached his eyes. She answers with a smile as bright as his and Jun brought her closer, making her rest her face against his neck, feeling her breathing close.
She wanted to ask. She needed to know what was happening to Jun. Why this sudden need of passion, why that change in his way to treat her, but he asked her to wait until tomorrow. So she will.
“My sister is coming” Jun said from nowhere “She is planning to take me with her to England” Asuka felt as if her soul leaved her body for a long second. Her heart clenched, her throat closed and her eyes were soon clouded by tears.
She didn’t need to ask anymore, that was the reason behind Jun’s behaviour.
Jun hold her, feeling her sob against his neck, hiding his own sobs in her hair.
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Jun hasn’t step a feet inside his house. All his belongings were brought by his senpai once police finished checking every corner of the house for any kind of proof. Not that they needed it, his parents had confess a while ago, but it was a good case, and they wanted to do it right apparently.
Jun was already far from worried. He was back in school, back with his friends, back with his girlfriend. Of course, every single day a dark sorrow would attacked him each time he remembered his parents and what they did, but it was easily subdued by Aiba’s jokes or Asuka’s kisses.
In all the months knowing Asuka, he already knew that she was someone who will face fear, her words preceded her, always. But at the same time, he knew that Asuka never insisted in issues that could bring her pain. As the issue of him leaving.
Everyone new it, but no one brought it up. It was too hard.
His sister arrived the first day of summer. Wearing a raincoat and boots, London was rainy after all. Asuka was taken aback of how similar Jun and her looked. She was incredibly pretty. Sweet and smart too. She pulled Asuka in a warm and familiar hug when she arrived in Asuka’s house. They organized a big welcome party. They ate, talk, and joke around, Jun’s sister told her beautiful stories about Jun and embarrassing stories too. She looked grateful, grateful that someone was able to caught Jun’s heart, grateful that Jun had a warm shoulder were he could rest his tired head.
When everyone was too busy laughing with Nino’s jokes, Asuka and Jun were pulled by his sister to a more private place. She settled them in her bedroom, Jun closed the door and sat in the bed next to Asuka. Both knew what they will talk about. “Guys, I know is hard, but you know why I’m doing this right?” None of the answered, they just looked at each other “Jun is underage, we have no close family here, and I’m afraid of what could happen to Jun if someone finds out who his father is…Asuka-chan, please tell me you understand”
”I do” Jun stared at her, annoyed for some reason, he was hoping for a denial, at least some resistance “Jun will be back, in a year or two, I know he had plans, and I’m not going to interfere with them, but for now, I need to have him with me” Jun stood up, half of him mad, half of him already rendered “It’s the only option Nee-chan?”
“It is Jun, right now you had no money, no house, I’m your only family and sadly I live across the continent and after what happened, you need to clear your mind”
“Asuka? Say something please” Jun walked in her direction, kneeling in front of her, resting his hand on top of hers “Jun…It saddens me, you don’t know how much, but she’s right, you need a clear start, some time apart, away from the ghosts of what happened”
“I don’t wanna be away from you”
“Me neither, but…it doesn’t mean that we are going to break up, right?” Jun pulled her in to a hug, caressing the back of her head “No, of course not” Jun stayed like that for a while, they didn’t even noticed when his sister leaved the room. “Jun?, we can go through this….right?”
“Sure we can” Jun smiled at her, caressing her cheeks, moving closer so he could kiss her, sealing the promise.
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It was almost embarrassing how much Aiba cried. There were already in their way to the airport and he hasn’t stop crying since the beginning of the week when Jun decided who will follow him in line to be the new leader. “Damn it Aibaka, you have my t-shirt covered in tears and snot!”
“Nino-chan, be understanding with me! My friend is leaving!” Everyone laugh at the amount of drama in each of Aiba’s words. They were all sharing a bus that will take them to Narita.
The week before that was a weird week, Jun spend the entire morning doing paperwork, the entire afternoon saying goodbye to his friends and acquaintances and the entire night snuggling with Asuka. By now, both of them were over the fact that Jun was leaving. They saw it even as an opportunity.
That morning Jun and his sister visited their mom at jail. The sentence was already settled, one year and 8 months for their mom, 3 years for his father. The reunion was tense, Jun’s mom had a hard time looking at her children’s at the eye. Jun didn’t know if he was mad or felt sorry for his mom. He promised to write every month, and Asuka will visit her too. He didn’t ask for his dad, and didn’t want to see him either. He didn’t care anymore.
The entire ride Jun would whisper things in Asuka’s ear, remembering things from when they met, telling her how much he loved her, how much she meant to him. Asuka did the same, everything that wasn’t’ said before, was now on top of the table, leaving memories in their heads. “I can’t believe that my first love will be my only love” Asuka was thinking out loud, but Jun had to agree with that “I know, we are such a cliché”
“Since the beginning” Both laughed, sharing a private moment, in their own buble “I already told Sho-san and Nino that they had to take good care of you, Nino told me that for ten thousand yens a month he could keep every guy away from you, I was this close to take the offer, but then I remembered that you are too honest to do that”
“That bastard, what did Sho -chan said?”
“He ask me to please stay away from any danger, and to hurry up and be back, for your own good”
“Awww, he’s so sweet”
“Yeah…you don’t dare to cheat on me with him…I’ll be totally defeated by him” Asuka giggled against his arm, hugging him “I will not, I swear”
The bus arrived too fast and everyone’s mood suddenly felt to the floor. Jun’s sister tried to keep things alive but it was hard. The goodbye was closer, and apparently they weren’t ready.
They had to be in the boarding door in two hours, but pass through security could easily take them an hour or more, so they decided that they will leave 30 minutes for the last goodbyes. Each one of the hugs that Jun receive was charged with strong feelings of sorrow but at the same time they were supportive, they knew it wasn’t a farewell.
Asuka was the last one. She didn’t have anything to say anymore, nothing more than I love you and I will miss you. She hugged him, inhaling his scent, memorizing the feeling of his body under her grip and the warmth of his skin. Jun did the same, sinking one of his hands in Asuka’s wavy hair, moving it down, feeling for the last time the soft sensation between his fingers. Asuka was in the verge of tears, but she didn’t wanted to break, she will wait until Jun couldn’t see her. She had to be strong.
His sister touched his shoulder, indicating him that it was time. Jun desperately grabbed Asuka’s face in between his hands, looking at her, her eyes, her lips and her cheeks. He kissed her with the same desperation, focusing all his attention in Asuka’s kiss, it would be a while until he could taste those lips again, so he better got the best of it. Asuka broke the kiss, with the intention of give him a last hug and not perpetuate the pain any longer. “Thank you Jun”
“For what?”
“For go and pick me up at school that day, for kiss me that night in the river shore, for stay with me that night my mom was at work, for coming back to me the day you found out about your parents, and for promise me that you will be back in two years”
“Damn, I love you Asuka, I’m so sorry for being such a bad boyfriend, for not telling you enough times that I loved you, for making you worry, for making you cry, I’m so sorry”
“Listen Jun, my mom taught me one thing: You don’t always have to tell people you love them. You just have to give them no reason to doubt it., and you Jun, have never give me a reason to doubt it, got it?” Jun nodded and pulled her closer for a last kiss. She took a step back, allowing him to take his suitcases, and Nino and Sho received her, passing their arms around her shoulders.
Jun turned around for the last time, waved to his friends, winked at Asuka with a smile on his lips, and turn back, following his sister.
The last image imprinted on his mind was Asuka blowing a kiss, smiling back at him.
Epiloge
2 years later.
That morning Asuka woke up early, she had to give a last review to her essay, pack some books and take a bath. The good of it was that she had the chance to have breakfast with her mom “”Did you spoke with Jun-kun?”
“No, he hasn’t contacted me in almost two weeks, he hasn’t respond to my email either, he must be busy”
“Oh I see, I can’t believe he is going to be back the next semester, I miss him so much, he’s such a good son”
“Yeah mom I know, you love him more than you love your daughter”
“That’s right, but don’t tell her…Asu-chan, you have handle it really well, Jun’s absence I mean”
“Well, some days are harder, some nights I can barely sleep, but it hasn’t been as hard as I thought, and time passes so fast! Amazing!” Her mom got up from the table, hugging her, congratulating her for her hard work.
She was closing the door, a long day at university was waiting, and she really didn’t had the energies, so it was better to do it for once, sucking it up. Once she was done with locking the door and checking if she had everything she needed with her she was finally ready to leave. “Is it too late?” Asuka jolted on her spot, that voice was so familiar. She slowly turned around, finding a pleasant surprise in front of her. There behind the railing it was Jun, with his hair shorter, glasses on, wearing skinny pants and a beautiful black coat. He looked like a model. She ran on his direction, opening the doors with difficulty. Once the railing was open, she stopped for a while, looking at him from head to toe, scared that it was an illusion. “I’m real Asuka, do I get a hug or what?” Asuka screamed in pure excitement, jumping in Jun’s arms “I wait for so long!”
“Sorry”
“You’re late!” She said softly hitting his chest and then grabbing his face “And you’re more handsome than ever!” Jun smile was shy, again he felt as if he didn’t deserved Asuka’s appreciative stare. “I don’t know if coming back like this was a good idea”
“Shut up and kiss me” Jun smiled wide at her, and he obeys, kissing Asuka. A hot, slow and long kiss. Two years without touching each other was way too much. “Is your mom home?” Asked Jun once they took a break to gain some air. “No”
“But you have classes”
“Fuck them!” Asuka grabbed his hand and pulled him with her, opening the door of the house. They got inside, already getting rid of each other clothes, when Jun was kissing that path he loved so much from Asuka’s hear to her shoulder she stopped him “Wait! You’re here earlier, are you visiting me?”
“What? No, I’m back, I’m not leaving again, well at least not without you” Asuka grabbed his face again, looking at his eyes, realizing that it was true, and now Jun was there, all for her. She pushed him on top of the couch, straddling him. His touch was the same, nothing had change, after 2 years there were taking each other breath away just as in the beginning.
Jun grabbed a good hold of Asuka, not planning on letting her go anytime soon.