Feels like bedtime.

[su6arpie]

I think i'm depressed ? Sounds retarded, but when I think about how many other of my family members are mentally ill it could make sense ? It made me wonder if i'm sick and ...... It scares me a little. I have no push to do homework (which i havent done any that would benefit me all weekend), I sit at home thinking too much & i just want to get away ... but who doesn't go through these at one point or another right ? School has been a blur, i know i can do it .. but lately i've been thinking about a switch in academic focuses .. like trying out history & anthroplogy course .. but what kind of job can i get with that right ? I need to talk to a guidance councellor. It may be too late for me. No honour roll for me this year, sigh. I wanna go out to a park and shout our F*** LOL. Any advice ? 
SOMEONE PLEASE BE MY MOTHER & PUSH ME.

I'm in a shit hole .. literally.