Blah .v2
You know those moods where you just feel caught in a rut and it brings your mood down? Where you feel bored and lonely for no reason and you are looking for something, anything, that can distract you or pull you from said rut for even just a few minutes
-raises hand- I'm in one right now. I have been for the past week.
I'd like to get out of it, but attempts have failed. I think they may continue to fail until something happens.
I miss my friends. At least they would kick my arse to get me into gear or help me find something worthwhile to do.
Just talking helps too, the smallest bit. I miss just hearing about people's days or discussing whatever the heck I/we wanted. I don't get to do that out here and lately I've felt cut off from things again. I just don't like how it feeds into the 'stuck in a rut' mood.
So. What can I do to change this. What can I do to make myself feel better?
Well, there's apartment hunting. Hopefully I get hat apartment I've got my eye on. The change in location from middle of nowhere to a city with things to do might help. That or it'll get worse because I won't even have family around then. I need to pick up more of my hobbies again. I've barely sketched and that's always been a good distraction and outlet for me. Rping? Maybe, if it works out. Movie watching, I've got that in the bag. READING is a big one. I should start walking again and once I'm in the city, I think the gym will be a must.
If there's other suggestions feel free to voice them.
I've got to stop feeling like I'm wasting people's time by trying to talk to them. Sure, I may not have the most interesting things to talk about and a conversation might go nowhere, but at least I tried. I need to send tha Facebook essage to that guy I went to high school with and bumped into recently and say 'Let's go for that coffee'.
I need to start realizing I'm okay.