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How can things go from so good to so fucked up in just an evening? I guess it's been longer than an evening though.. maybe my entire life. I feel like such a fuck up. Why?? My friend isn't "allowed" to talk to me anymore because his girlfriend (who is also a really good friend of mine) doesn't want him to. What did I do to deserve that? Am I that bad? I feel like total shit. I have a boyfriend (for now) and I am the least of her problems. I feel like I don't want to hang out with them anymore. I feel like I am just a burden in their relationship. My relationship with Bryan seems to be falling apart. I thought things were getting better but according to him, they aren't. Maybe my heart is too fragile if it can break this easily. We were talking about getting engaged and all of that jazz but now he doesn't even know if he wants to be with me. I guess that's what you get whne you knock yourself out for somebody. I am just going to stop trying. Nobody appreciates the things that I do for them anyway. At least I can go to work tomorrow and submerse myself in it all day. Maybe a long day of hard work is just what the doctor ordered. I am so sad. I wish that I was stronger.