thoughtful...
so it is the day after christmas.
christmas was really good.
my rents bought me Finale 2008. That's gonna be bitchin :D. and four shirts too.
my sis bought me a car care kit, with all different kinds of stuff, like 7 different bottles =D.
raina got me four shirts, and then made me a cd, a double batch of double fudge cookies, and a certificate.
it was a good day.
now christmas eve was interesting, and i felt that i should share it with you all.
so my mom asked me at dinner if i wanted to go to christmas mass with her at midnight. and i told her i did not. and she was very shocked, but i didnt budge on that statement. and then an hour later she asked me again, and again, i did not change my mind. but then she said no, you ARE going with me. so she was trying to take my freedom of choice away. later that night, she left, and did not even look at me, but didnt force me to go with her. and i was not sorry. at all. i watched her cry about it to me last night, christmas night...but i wasn't sorry about it. I CANNOT and WILL NOT change who i am to please someone. I don't want to go to church, not right now at least. not until i have realized inside what it is i believe in, and then find what religion best suits that belief. There is no greater crime that any person can commit than to not be the person they choose to be. there is NO greater crime than that. The sense of individuality is what makes us human, makes everyone unique, and both completely imperfect, yet justifiably PERFECT because they chose who they are. when you are given the choice to find yourself, there is no better feeling, because that pride that comes along with it is happiness in its greatest form. you are filled with pride at the idea that you made who you are, that you own your life, that you have become the person you always wanted to be.
I know for certain that i do not support the ideals that are written in the holy bible, or any holy book of faith for that matter, at least not yet. I do not support the idea that a person must devote their lives to a being that you may never see or know, i don't like it because it is an idea that screams to us all that YOUR beliefs are not right unless they coincide with the beliefs of that religion. i am not saying that i dont see the reason that so many people NEED to have that belief, that securing thought that there is someone/something that is not of this world that can offer eternal happiness. and i have full respect for people that hold those beliefs sacred in their hearts. I am all for a person's beliefs, so long as they are happy. but i refuse to change my beliefs for someone else. i dont judge on the basis of religion and such, because its not fair to the person that holds those beliefs.
I have no respect for the idea that there are some words that are "unholy" and that it is a crime against the higher being to utter them. jeez is another word for jesus is another word for screaming jesus christ! when something goes right OR wrong. just like darn is another word for dang is another word for damn. they are all WORDS, and i don't believe that it should be a crime against ANYTHING to utter words.
I don't like the idea that i should be labeled as a "sinner" or a believer in the "anti-christ". I hate the idea that a day is beautiful because "god" made it that way. WHY must i be labeled something that holds a terrible reputation in society because i choose not to follow the masses, because i CHOOSE to be an INDIVIDUAL? WHY must the credit for a beautiful day be placed upon a higher power? ...in my eyes, a beautiful day is beautiful because of what the people in that day make of it. It is those that exist that make days beautiful or not beautiful. life IS WHAT WE MAKE OF IT.
but i do not discriminate against anyone because they choose to believe in any of this that i have criticized.
I simply chose that i believe something different.
will you discriminate against me for it?
if the answer is yes, ask yourself why? and then ask yourself if the only reason you can come up with to justify it is the fact that it is against what you believe and you don't like that it is against your beliefs.
if the answer is no, then i don't believe that you and i are so different. ->you and i may believe different things, but you realize that you and i are no different in terms of the fact that we are both living, breathing people who have made their OWN choices.
so do i take up a religious association?
is it really that important that i do so?
will it really matter to me if my wife wants to get married in a church, if she is dedicated to her religion in the utmost of ways?
nope.
I will marry in any church, to a woman that loves me for me, and respects my beliefs just as i respect hers. that trust, and that respect, is what makes a relationship work.
and this wasn't meant to make you (the universal you) change your beliefs. it was just to tell you about my own.
this is what i live by.
do what you LOVE.
LOVE what you do.
life is good.
christmas was really good.
my rents bought me Finale 2008. That's gonna be bitchin :D. and four shirts too.
my sis bought me a car care kit, with all different kinds of stuff, like 7 different bottles =D.
raina got me four shirts, and then made me a cd, a double batch of double fudge cookies, and a certificate.
it was a good day.
now christmas eve was interesting, and i felt that i should share it with you all.
so my mom asked me at dinner if i wanted to go to christmas mass with her at midnight. and i told her i did not. and she was very shocked, but i didnt budge on that statement. and then an hour later she asked me again, and again, i did not change my mind. but then she said no, you ARE going with me. so she was trying to take my freedom of choice away. later that night, she left, and did not even look at me, but didnt force me to go with her. and i was not sorry. at all. i watched her cry about it to me last night, christmas night...but i wasn't sorry about it. I CANNOT and WILL NOT change who i am to please someone. I don't want to go to church, not right now at least. not until i have realized inside what it is i believe in, and then find what religion best suits that belief. There is no greater crime that any person can commit than to not be the person they choose to be. there is NO greater crime than that. The sense of individuality is what makes us human, makes everyone unique, and both completely imperfect, yet justifiably PERFECT because they chose who they are. when you are given the choice to find yourself, there is no better feeling, because that pride that comes along with it is happiness in its greatest form. you are filled with pride at the idea that you made who you are, that you own your life, that you have become the person you always wanted to be.
I know for certain that i do not support the ideals that are written in the holy bible, or any holy book of faith for that matter, at least not yet. I do not support the idea that a person must devote their lives to a being that you may never see or know, i don't like it because it is an idea that screams to us all that YOUR beliefs are not right unless they coincide with the beliefs of that religion. i am not saying that i dont see the reason that so many people NEED to have that belief, that securing thought that there is someone/something that is not of this world that can offer eternal happiness. and i have full respect for people that hold those beliefs sacred in their hearts. I am all for a person's beliefs, so long as they are happy. but i refuse to change my beliefs for someone else. i dont judge on the basis of religion and such, because its not fair to the person that holds those beliefs.
I have no respect for the idea that there are some words that are "unholy" and that it is a crime against the higher being to utter them. jeez is another word for jesus is another word for screaming jesus christ! when something goes right OR wrong. just like darn is another word for dang is another word for damn. they are all WORDS, and i don't believe that it should be a crime against ANYTHING to utter words.
I don't like the idea that i should be labeled as a "sinner" or a believer in the "anti-christ". I hate the idea that a day is beautiful because "god" made it that way. WHY must i be labeled something that holds a terrible reputation in society because i choose not to follow the masses, because i CHOOSE to be an INDIVIDUAL? WHY must the credit for a beautiful day be placed upon a higher power? ...in my eyes, a beautiful day is beautiful because of what the people in that day make of it. It is those that exist that make days beautiful or not beautiful. life IS WHAT WE MAKE OF IT.
but i do not discriminate against anyone because they choose to believe in any of this that i have criticized.
I simply chose that i believe something different.
will you discriminate against me for it?
if the answer is yes, ask yourself why? and then ask yourself if the only reason you can come up with to justify it is the fact that it is against what you believe and you don't like that it is against your beliefs.
if the answer is no, then i don't believe that you and i are so different. ->you and i may believe different things, but you realize that you and i are no different in terms of the fact that we are both living, breathing people who have made their OWN choices.
so do i take up a religious association?
is it really that important that i do so?
will it really matter to me if my wife wants to get married in a church, if she is dedicated to her religion in the utmost of ways?
nope.
I will marry in any church, to a woman that loves me for me, and respects my beliefs just as i respect hers. that trust, and that respect, is what makes a relationship work.
and this wasn't meant to make you (the universal you) change your beliefs. it was just to tell you about my own.
this is what i live by.
do what you LOVE.
LOVE what you do.
life is good.