Maybe I'll never get it, I just don't think I'm like that...
I am so bored, I am listening to loud music and waiting for it to be time to go to school. Which I don't want to go to.
Lord, I am having fun withdrawls, I haven't had fun in a coon's age.
Thats why I am so excited to get my car back so that I can go and do what I please again.
Plus, I need some lovin, I haven't seen Cory in a while since we are both rideless. It's a sad thing. I have been having some crazy dreams because of it, pretty much about every boy that I know. Lots of different boys. Not good.
Yesterday I had one of those high school feelings. Ya know, when you like a boy, and then have to sit and listen to him talk to another girl about how they hung out over the weekend. It just makes you feel shitty, because you didn't see him, and it took me back to all the high school crushes I had that were never returned. And I just felt like shit. Wow, it sucked. Especially since I am feeling this way when I have a boyfriend, why am I not focusing on that? No, I am focusing on another boy who has a girlfriend and lots of everythings he cares about other then me. It is so dumb. But it still gave me a little self esteem dip, made me feel ugly.
My fatness is getting out of control. I need to either kill myself or loose weight, those are my only options. Now, I haven't gained alot of weight, I just FEEL so HUGE!!!! Nobody can tell, it is really just me feeling crappy about myself, but what else is new?
I need to have fun! I may die.
Lord, I am having fun withdrawls, I haven't had fun in a coon's age.
Thats why I am so excited to get my car back so that I can go and do what I please again.
Plus, I need some lovin, I haven't seen Cory in a while since we are both rideless. It's a sad thing. I have been having some crazy dreams because of it, pretty much about every boy that I know. Lots of different boys. Not good.
Yesterday I had one of those high school feelings. Ya know, when you like a boy, and then have to sit and listen to him talk to another girl about how they hung out over the weekend. It just makes you feel shitty, because you didn't see him, and it took me back to all the high school crushes I had that were never returned. And I just felt like shit. Wow, it sucked. Especially since I am feeling this way when I have a boyfriend, why am I not focusing on that? No, I am focusing on another boy who has a girlfriend and lots of everythings he cares about other then me. It is so dumb. But it still gave me a little self esteem dip, made me feel ugly.
My fatness is getting out of control. I need to either kill myself or loose weight, those are my only options. Now, I haven't gained alot of weight, I just FEEL so HUGE!!!! Nobody can tell, it is really just me feeling crappy about myself, but what else is new?
I need to have fun! I may die.