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Click to viewI'm so tired. I'm so tired. I'm so tired. I'm so tired. I'm so tired. I'm so tired. I'm so tired. I'm so tired. I'm so tired.
I'm trying to make sense of what I'm doing to myself but I don't really know what I'm doing either..................... Sigh.
Hadn't been up to anything much lately besides working every single day with occasional exceptions.
I really miss the times when I'm able to just stay at home and rot, heading to town to shop and hanging about till late.
Perhaps it really isn't so much of being able to do those stuffs, but more of the time spent with my friends. Sigh.
Don't know why but I've been feeling rather blue recently and I'm not even sure why. Or maybe I do.
Honestly, I don't know what to say or how to feel anymore cuz everything I do just seem to make me feel worse.
However cliché this may sound- I'm not gonna expect anything from anyone else anymore. I don't want to.
It's so tiring to be thinking that things are finally looking up, but to be disappointed in the end. The cycle repeats.
I hate that I'm always trying so hard. Trying so hard all the time but nothing good ever comes back in return.
I don't want to feel this way anymore... I hate it and I absolutely fucking abhor all these emotions that I'm feeling.