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I just realized why I'm so nervous to be meeting up with P tonight.
It's because I keep forgetting that we've already met in person.
If this doesn't make sense, keep in mind that physically, a year ago I was a completely different person, and that what my mirror now reflects is not what my brain still sees.
I've done the online dating thing before, and we would have awesome amazing conversations, and then the minute they saw my picture things would change. "You're fat" they'd say and I'd rarely, if ever, talk to them again.
With P though it's different. She was the one who initiated contact with me - in person. So she knows exactly what I look like already.
And the fact she left me a message yesterday that said "hey sexy" certainly helps the esteem!
It's because I keep forgetting that we've already met in person.
If this doesn't make sense, keep in mind that physically, a year ago I was a completely different person, and that what my mirror now reflects is not what my brain still sees.
I've done the online dating thing before, and we would have awesome amazing conversations, and then the minute they saw my picture things would change. "You're fat" they'd say and I'd rarely, if ever, talk to them again.
With P though it's different. She was the one who initiated contact with me - in person. So she knows exactly what I look like already.
And the fact she left me a message yesterday that said "hey sexy" certainly helps the esteem!