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Oh, what a week. I'm finally over my second illness for the year, and still volunteering at DISC Village. I'm getting more and more comfortable there the more often I go. I really enjoy working with the counselor Kirsten, she's really sweet and is very knowledgable on the process of things there, but at the same time is very compassionate towards the kids that we assess. However, she can definitely be assertive when she needs to be and I admire that about her. Also, since I'm no longer sick I can get started with my training at the ER. School is going ok, nothing too much going on there.
Matt and I got into the biggest fight we have EVER had the other night. The whole premise of the argument was that I left the house at 11pm to go watch a movie with some friends and left him at the house and didn't get home until 2am. He knew where I was, what I was doing and when I was going to be home, but he freaked out because he felt abandoned, and he was also drunk and I was sober. I just wanted some independent time with my friends, and we watched The Village, which was pretty good actually. He didn't understand, and the more he fussed about it the angrier I got, which I know wasn't helpful. He called my phone over and over again and we screamed at each other when I got home. He threw things and cried and I just couldn't understand why he was THAT upset. We both know that his being drunk was the main reason why he was irrational. He said that he just doesn't think it's appropriate for me to leave at 11pm with a friend and go to another friend's house and leave him at home and not come back until 2am. I know it's "our time" in the evenings, but I just wanted to get out for a few hours and he could not accept that, and didn't. The next day we talked more about it, and were away from each other all day, so by the time we came home we were cooled off (plus he was sober) and he said he felt like an idiot for over reacting, which he did. I also admitted that it was insensitive of me to leave him at home alone and go out with friends that late at night, but at the same time I need to be able to feel like I CAN go out without him, and same for him. We have trust issues we still need to work on, clearly. I'm just glad it's over with. I do realize that even though it was bad, this is what relationships are about:work. I'm going to marry him so I'm willing to take the good, bad and ugly and be able to work from it. Perhaps couples counseling could help?
Matt and I got into the biggest fight we have EVER had the other night. The whole premise of the argument was that I left the house at 11pm to go watch a movie with some friends and left him at the house and didn't get home until 2am. He knew where I was, what I was doing and when I was going to be home, but he freaked out because he felt abandoned, and he was also drunk and I was sober. I just wanted some independent time with my friends, and we watched The Village, which was pretty good actually. He didn't understand, and the more he fussed about it the angrier I got, which I know wasn't helpful. He called my phone over and over again and we screamed at each other when I got home. He threw things and cried and I just couldn't understand why he was THAT upset. We both know that his being drunk was the main reason why he was irrational. He said that he just doesn't think it's appropriate for me to leave at 11pm with a friend and go to another friend's house and leave him at home and not come back until 2am. I know it's "our time" in the evenings, but I just wanted to get out for a few hours and he could not accept that, and didn't. The next day we talked more about it, and were away from each other all day, so by the time we came home we were cooled off (plus he was sober) and he said he felt like an idiot for over reacting, which he did. I also admitted that it was insensitive of me to leave him at home alone and go out with friends that late at night, but at the same time I need to be able to feel like I CAN go out without him, and same for him. We have trust issues we still need to work on, clearly. I'm just glad it's over with. I do realize that even though it was bad, this is what relationships are about:work. I'm going to marry him so I'm willing to take the good, bad and ugly and be able to work from it. Perhaps couples counseling could help?