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My head hurts...really bad. I found out the hard way last night that you should NOT drink wine when first starting a new medication. I finally went to Thagard this week to see a doctor so I can get a referral for the Psychiatrists there. I only have Mega Life insurance through Thagard, so can't really go anywhere else. The doctor gave me a check up and I explained everything that has been going on, and he wrote me a prescription for Zoloft and Klonopin (sp?). The Klonopin is for sleeping, and the Zoloft is for everything else I suppose. It was just weird because by the time I left I realized he never gave me a referral, but just gave me prescriptions. Anyway, so I've started taking the Zoloft this week and I feel soo weird. Very shaky, and almost disoriented. I know meds are bad and all that, but I figured I'd try it and see how I feel and if I don't like the results I'll try an alternate route. I just don't think talking about it helps as much anymore. So, back to my original point, I drank some wine last night, not alot, but a few small glasses. At around 4am, I woke up and had a pounding headache and threw up. I got in the bathtub after and just shook for about 20 minutes, though when I was in the bathtub I heard Matt's alarm going off, meaning it was already after 5am. How long was I in there? It seemed like a few minutes, but apparently it was about an hour. Maybe I passed out or something? I don't know, but I am NOT drinking for a while, atleast not until I get used to these meds. I'm gonna take just half today so I don't feel as crappy.
It just makes you think though. I mean, what is the "right" way to deal w/depression and anxiety? Just dealing with it? It makes me feel like in a way I'm giving up by taking them, but what if they help? Matt and I got into a big argument about it because he said he thought he was my source of happiness and I quit taking the Effexor when we got together and I said I didn't need it anymore, but I've felt worse and thought maybe it would help to go back. So, he felt that I was keeping my depression from him and leaving him out of my problems, though I have tried to talk about it with him before, but he would treat it like "it'll pass, it's just stress". My head hurts too much to keep writing....owww
It just makes you think though. I mean, what is the "right" way to deal w/depression and anxiety? Just dealing with it? It makes me feel like in a way I'm giving up by taking them, but what if they help? Matt and I got into a big argument about it because he said he thought he was my source of happiness and I quit taking the Effexor when we got together and I said I didn't need it anymore, but I've felt worse and thought maybe it would help to go back. So, he felt that I was keeping my depression from him and leaving him out of my problems, though I have tried to talk about it with him before, but he would treat it like "it'll pass, it's just stress". My head hurts too much to keep writing....owww