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I've been thinking a lot lately about my own mental stability, and how that pertains to the field of work I want to enter. I already have problems with depression and anxiety and have difficulty handling stress w/work as a telephone crisis counselor and school, and life at home; I just can't seem to balance everything out. I made an appointment (finally) to see a therapist for next tuesday, so we'll see how that turns out. I've just been reading the journals of others in the social work community, and just read one about a woman who left the field due to the "burn out" that we all know about. It kinda scares me. If I can barely handle things now before I'm even in the field, how am I gonna handle it after a few years? Am I gonna drive myself crazy? I know my problem is that I internalize everything and can't verbally express how I feel until I explode, which is why I write about it all the time; it's the only way I can get it out. I can't talk to Matt about it because he gets insensitive and basically just says to "get over it", or will bring me flowers to cheer me up and try to be positive, which just ends of annoying the hell out of me, and the next morning I wake up feeling the same way. Perhaps the therapist on tuesday will give me some insight as to how to handle all of this. I have a feeling he or she will encourage me to take meds again, but I don't know how that will work. I don't know, I just feel like I have no voice right now. I'm sure it will pass, but I'm atleast happy I finally asked for some help because I know I can't do this on my own anymore.