awkward silences...
dont know what to do anymore. here i am being stupid as always. i miss my bestfriend. man its been 2 months since we've spoken to eachother. he said its better if he didnt talk to me anymore because all he does is hurt me. which is BULLSHIT!!!! ahhh i hate this. ive been so alone w/out him just being stupid. he told my friend sara a "secret" of mine and he thought i got hurt by it but i didnt cause i gave him my permission to tell her.
i had stopped cutting myself but ive begun doing it again. i feel good doing it. i know i shouldnt but its something that i just do now, not for attention but for pleasure. not only that but i lost another friend. or alteast i thought he was my friend. man im so damn lonely i dont go out anymore and its so awkward in school not talking to them when i have them for most of my classes and i sit next to them. *tear* i wish i didnt feel this way but i guess i was just so attatched to them. esp my bestfriend!!
we shared lockers but he got out and got his own. we've been through so much and to end it like nothing? i hope he speaks to me soon.
i had stopped cutting myself but ive begun doing it again. i feel good doing it. i know i shouldnt but its something that i just do now, not for attention but for pleasure. not only that but i lost another friend. or alteast i thought he was my friend. man im so damn lonely i dont go out anymore and its so awkward in school not talking to them when i have them for most of my classes and i sit next to them. *tear* i wish i didnt feel this way but i guess i was just so attatched to them. esp my bestfriend!!
we shared lockers but he got out and got his own. we've been through so much and to end it like nothing? i hope he speaks to me soon.