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First time Ive been to class in like a WEEK! I was doing so good too.
Its amazing how one incident, one event, can change your perspective on certain things completely. Never in my life have I ever thought Id think the things I think today.
In four days, I will have offically been in my longest relationship ever. And its pretty sad thats its only 5 months. Not that its bad that its only 5 months, I mean outta all my relationships, the longest I ever had was 2 months and 11 days.
I dont feel good. Im sore. Im scared.
Its so weird that in 21 days, I turn 20. Thats so...old.
I need help. Im scared. What if its true? I cant live with myself. I know you promise to be there with me, and I beleive you. Its me Im worried about. I know you say " dont worry about it", but I will. I always will. And I know you know I always will. Like I said, Its me Im worried about.