Ahh sickness..
Ahh the mouth surgery thing kind of caught up with me...I am still feeling a little sick but I don't want to tell anyone because if I do then I can't go out. the only thing that really bothers me is my mouth is tingling. oh well
Dana and John came over yesterday and brought me ice cream! My 2 bestest friends in the world, what good people. John was soo cute he didn't let Dana pay for the Dirt ice cream at the creamery. I was sort of mad at him yesterday even though he did come to visit me. I wanted to go out and see Anchorman with Dana but he didn't want me to go since he claimed I was too sick to go out. I know that I was ok enough to go to the movie with Dana and Scott and he was just using it as an excuse so he could go out with his friend Jeek. Well I understand that he wanted to go out with his friend and I said he could invite Jeek or he didn't have to go. But none of those worked for him so I just gave in and said fine ok im too sick to go you're right i'll go back in. So I said bye to Dana and him, I tried to act like I wasn't upset or anything but of course it didn't work. He promised he would call later and I didn't really expect him too but he did call early, I guess since he couldnt find anyone to go out with. His best friend, Gary, is at the beach so it figures. I apologized for myself even though I really shouldn't have had to..at least I don't think I should have. I said to him that I've been keeping him away from his friends and apologized.
I just want to make him happy and thats what I hope I did. I know he probally really hates it here and wants to go back down to the beach. It's just every time he goes down there I feel alone and that when he's there, thats the only time he ever has a good time and he can't have a good time here with me. And its not like I am ever invited to the beach, I just love him soo much and it hurts when he leaves. It feels like..he's leaving me. I don't know how to explain it to anyone, I guess I'm a selfish girlfriend who asks too much. I hear all these things about what guys do at the beach too...it would hurt me if he ever did anything like cheat on me. I've given him my heart which means more than anything to me since I have never operend up to anyone besides Dana. Oh well...love hurts
Tonight we were supposed to go have dinner with scott and dana but scott has plans with friends. Dana wants me to come and meet Scott and his friends but I am just too tired and sick. I've had one thing to eat all day and I have no energy. John is coming over soon to go see Anchorman but I dont want to do that either. I would rather stay home and rest..Who knows what we will end up doing tonight must get ready hair make up n clothes...the works! ohh god
<3 Claire