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i am not asking you to write my speech. i'd like you to help me edit it, but i think that i can handel writing 10 minutes worth of persuation, if you will. so why is it that when i throw out an idea, you can shoot it down with a huge long reason of why you don't think it's valid, but when i expressed some scepticism about an idea you have, you tell me that when you're brainstorming, you don't discard anything, and don't let me explain anything? why do you get to interupt me every other sentence, but when i start to say something, you just keep talking right over me? then you keep saying that i'm getting mad, and how unreasonalbe that is. there's a difference between anger and frustration. and quite frankly, the research process is frustrating enough without you on my ass.
god, i hate researching. it's my least favorite part of anything. so why the hell do i do oratory? why don't i do spec oc or somthing with more creative freedom in the writing? now i'm all upset; but i have been for the last 24 hours, fairly unexplainably, though now that i have a justifiable reason, i'm having trouble not expressing it. i wish that break weren't almost over. i still have so much to do, things that i wanted to get done with soon so i wouldn't have them hanging over my head later. but unless i spend the next few days doing very little aside from just straight work, i won't finish everything.
sometimes i worry about what i'll do as an adult, if i can't motivate myself to just keep going and doing everything now.
god, i hate researching. it's my least favorite part of anything. so why the hell do i do oratory? why don't i do spec oc or somthing with more creative freedom in the writing? now i'm all upset; but i have been for the last 24 hours, fairly unexplainably, though now that i have a justifiable reason, i'm having trouble not expressing it. i wish that break weren't almost over. i still have so much to do, things that i wanted to get done with soon so i wouldn't have them hanging over my head later. but unless i spend the next few days doing very little aside from just straight work, i won't finish everything.
sometimes i worry about what i'll do as an adult, if i can't motivate myself to just keep going and doing everything now.