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i'm feeling soo good right now. might be because i'm a little fucked up but whatever. i just feel good. soo i had a weird weekend. me and dill went and saw hitchiker's guide but i was way too hung over to even enjoy it. :( sam was lookin SOOOO much like nick though, which made me even sadder. anyway...the weekend was just fucked all the way around. got to see cass on sunday though. made me very happy. she looked happy. then monday i had some serious mood swings soo i told dad to give that dr. a call and he did. the dr. called me back and we chatted. i'm soo fucking excited, i get to go see him monday. i wanna be happy and this could fix it. he's more of a med. dr than somebody to talk to, there is a difference between a psychologist and a psychiatrist. but he said i needed to find my center and he was going to help me. i don't want him to give me meds. i'm already fuckin hooked. mom's bein a real bitch though. she said taking a pill isn't gonna fix someone, its only gonna help them push their problem further away but dad said the pills would help balance whatever is going on in my brain. like its a chemical thing and it can't be helped with talking. but we aren't sure which i have yet soo. i dunno. today was good though. i got along with everybody. heather took me home and we had a good chat. i laughed and just felt really good today. i really wanna hang out with mitchell. he's so fuckin cute and just...soo fucking funny. well i'll see you kids later!