Just found this place I used to write in. I was feeling a little down and seeing it gave me a warm glow. The universe sends messages thru time and thru chance.
Then I checked some friends I'd not talked to in years and it made me sad.
A lot's happened in the years since my last update. I've changed in some ways. Or maybe I've stayed the same and my view of the world's changed. Maybe I'm talking bollocks.
I have a higher opinion of myself now and I have people in my life again.
I'm doing an art course and it's going fairly well. Might be going to uni but not sure if it's worth it at my age.
Tomorrow at 11 I have three fillings which I'm kinda worried about cos I hate dentists. It's playing on my mind and anyway I've been feeling unsettled and gloomy lately.
Some things just feel wrong.
At 6pm tomorrow I have to go to an open evening for an exhibition which has a piece of my work.
Talking crap and drinking wine, pretending I'm an artist. Hah!
I dunno.
I'm on some kind of track but everything feels wrong.
In 2003 when I started this journal I was an idiot, but a happy idiot.
Things started to get more and more hellish but I tried to pull myself out of the hole.
Always had a sense of destiny.
A lot of people do but that don't mean shit.