Just not having a good day....................
My streak of good days has gone. Tomorrow is my friends b-day... hopefully that will be fun, I wish I could spend the night, but I have to get my wisdom teeth taken out, the next day at 9:15 A.M.
I just wish I could rip out my own heart, and throw it at Adams feet. Bleeding, while dying, Beating slower and slower... Until it dies. Dies of heartache. Until it dies of hate towards it. Until it dies of lack of love toawrds it.Does he no fucking get it? He says I don't love him. He says I don't give a damn about him. But here I am wasting my time on him, a person I can never look at the same. Never kiss again. Never wrap my arms around again. Never be happy with again. Never here his voice saying I love you to me. Does he just not understand. Does no one? I hate you. I hate everyone. I want Adam.
and through all this derek keeps crossing my mind... just somehow i don't think i need him anymore.. but i love him.. i love him to death.. this is all bullshit.. all of it.. every single part of it..
See the flames in my eyes
See the flames burning my heart
See the red amber killing me slowly
I just wish I could rip out my own heart, and throw it at Adams feet. Bleeding, while dying, Beating slower and slower... Until it dies. Dies of heartache. Until it dies of hate towards it. Until it dies of lack of love toawrds it.Does he no fucking get it? He says I don't love him. He says I don't give a damn about him. But here I am wasting my time on him, a person I can never look at the same. Never kiss again. Never wrap my arms around again. Never be happy with again. Never here his voice saying I love you to me. Does he just not understand. Does no one? I hate you. I hate everyone. I want Adam.
and through all this derek keeps crossing my mind... just somehow i don't think i need him anymore.. but i love him.. i love him to death.. this is all bullshit.. all of it.. every single part of it..
See the flames in my eyes
See the flames burning my heart
See the red amber killing me slowly