So Much Bitching All The Time!
hm last night was interesting lol. well, after that whole thing last night, Erin and Jackie stopped by. yeah i love those girls. we had nothing to do cuz Uncle Joe ( Drew's 23 year old uncle ) never called us back, so we walked from my house to Sam's house, which took like, 45 minutes haha. we got there and Drew and Sam had taken a shower together with their clothes on, so they were soaked. they think Sam is gay, like flaming gay. he was singing songs from Westside Story and cleaning and dancing around. odd? yeah..Jackie was drawing pictures of us. oh and when we were on the phone with them Sam didnt get the concept that there was two Jackie's, and Jackie made fun of him and was like " yeah man..two Jackie's! pshycadelic man! " it was soo funny. we spent maybe an hour at Sam's, and then walked back to Erin's. dude the sub where Wilde Elementary is is lurky as hell and was so fucking scary to be walking around in at 11:30 at night. like i had a really bad feeling like something was gonna happen. but nothing did, it was just scary. anyways, we kept walking, Erin was kinda out of it all night and not acting like herself. maybe it was because of the night before, hmm i dunno. so we got to Erin's and Jackie and I went downstairs and took off our shoes because our feet hurt so bad from walking the total of like 4 miles. we plopped onto Erin's bed and she called Uncle Joe. Jackie and i talked most of the time, oh us three did talk for a while about like Erin's messy bed and we ate some chinese food. it was good haha. Erin ate this really hot pepper, it was so funny. anyways, when Erin was on the phone Jackie and i just talked about sooo much stuff haha. i love my twin =) we eventually fell asleep around 3ish and Erin was somewhere else in the basement.
Drew called me at 9 this morning for my wake up call, and we noticed Erin wasnt in there with us, and she wasnt anywhere in the basement, so we thought she snuck out to see Uncle Joe. well hours passed, and Jackie and I called Uncle Joe about 6 times and Drew called him 2 times haha. then we played on each others cell phones because we have really fun games on there and that consisted of most of our time down there. Jackie went upstairs to see if Erin's dad was home and found Erin passed out upstairs, and she had never really left, so we called Uncle Joe all those times for nothing. Erin came down and she took off my dress she got from my house and was walking around in her under wear and bra lol. again she got back on the phone with Uncle Joe for a while and Jackie and i played games. then around 3ish we walked to Taco Bell woot! theres a really cool lady that works there, i liked her. we got free drinks. after that, we walked to my house cuz Jackie had to be back to Erin's by 4:45 and it was like 4:30 when we got to my house, and Erin needed her pants. so yeah after that, they left, and i just sat around in my room. my dad was putting new sinks in so i couldnt take a shower right away. hes all fucking wierd cuz hes quitting smoking again. we got to go to Walgreens and i got new deodorant and new mascara. omg Erin nick named me Spock, like the guy from Star Trek. and when we were all at Erin's, she has this poster of one of the guys from Star Trek and like Jackie only saw part of it and thought it was a poster of a naked it chick. it was great! anyways, after getting home from Walgreens i took my shower, and thought i should update this so yeah, this is what i'm doing.
i don't think certain people give me enough credit, i talked about this with Natalie. like, some people act like i'm not the one getting the information first and telling Natalie it, and they give her more credit then i do and act like she was the one who found all this out, and i know its stupid, but i mean come on. its dumb, its just, it bothers me.
Jackie and I really are twins, we have a lot of the same stuff in common and we say like a lot of the same stuff at the same time. its awesome. we want to find Erin an Erin so we can be doubles. it would be awesome.
Sam and Natalie broke up. did i tell you this yet? yeah, he got really stalkerish and it scares even me. i mean, hes been super mean since, like i'm afraid for not just Natalie, but for myself too. and i'm not usually afraid of guys, though i think i should never be, but i would never think i would be afraid of Sam hurting me, i mean hes so nice, but now, something is definately different about him. i mean i'm still gonna be his friend and hope everything turns out okay because i have known him since 7th grade and i wouldn't just ditch him like that. he is really cool, its just..i dont know. ::shrug::
tomorrow Drew and I will be going out a week. woop woop =)
everyone keeps giving me dates on when we will break up and i will go back out with Shaun, its really wierd. i dont understand it. Jacob has it set in his head that we will go back out, like after i showed him my arm, he was like " Jackie, don't kill yourself. I know you and Shaun will go back out, and a bunch of other people know that too. " and he went on a little more. ugh i just dont know.
mmm..i'm really sick of Jacob, Andy and Josh being such assholes about all of this. it isnt fucking funny. and Jacob is the only one that has said it to my face. Andy knows better. i'd go insane. but it just pisses me off because they are supposed to be his friends and they go and say stupid shit about him when hes gonna need them the most, but whatever. they can be assholes all they want, nothing i can do. Jacob has stopped doing it because i think he finally realized that it does bother me. i hate that Andy blames all of this on Drew. he said to Drew one day " ya know, too bad you had to fuck around with Jackie, cuz you and Shaun are a lot alike and would prolly be good friends " and that kind of blew my mind. ugh i'm so sick of all of this, i wish Shaun would just come back and be okay. but whatever, i really need to move on and quit blaming myself for all of this and be prepared for him to push me away. i really need to be prepared for that. its just, i can't imagine him doing that. =/ and i accidentally call so many people Shaun, i must of called Sam it 3 times and Drew it 2 times. bahh, i dunno. its wierd. i just need to move on. this is all, just dumb and i'm tired of dealing with it, he should just come home and be okay. blah, whatever i need to quit my fucking bitching about everything..
hm..school tomorrow, kinda want to go for a change, i think its cuz Drew's there. Natalie's grounded, its a long story and i really dont want to get into to it. but shes grounded till like the weekend and she isnt supposed to be online but she is. haha bad girl. i told her she needs to stop hanging out with Chrissy and Chrissy's friends because ever since she has been getting into so much trouble and being a real asshole to me and some of her other friends and i'm tired of it. blah, i hope she listens but i know she won't because she's Natalie. and she won't stop until she gets hurt. well, if thats what she wants, then most likely thats what she'll get...=/ i dunno i'm done becase i'm tired of bitching. peace
Drew called me at 9 this morning for my wake up call, and we noticed Erin wasnt in there with us, and she wasnt anywhere in the basement, so we thought she snuck out to see Uncle Joe. well hours passed, and Jackie and I called Uncle Joe about 6 times and Drew called him 2 times haha. then we played on each others cell phones because we have really fun games on there and that consisted of most of our time down there. Jackie went upstairs to see if Erin's dad was home and found Erin passed out upstairs, and she had never really left, so we called Uncle Joe all those times for nothing. Erin came down and she took off my dress she got from my house and was walking around in her under wear and bra lol. again she got back on the phone with Uncle Joe for a while and Jackie and i played games. then around 3ish we walked to Taco Bell woot! theres a really cool lady that works there, i liked her. we got free drinks. after that, we walked to my house cuz Jackie had to be back to Erin's by 4:45 and it was like 4:30 when we got to my house, and Erin needed her pants. so yeah after that, they left, and i just sat around in my room. my dad was putting new sinks in so i couldnt take a shower right away. hes all fucking wierd cuz hes quitting smoking again. we got to go to Walgreens and i got new deodorant and new mascara. omg Erin nick named me Spock, like the guy from Star Trek. and when we were all at Erin's, she has this poster of one of the guys from Star Trek and like Jackie only saw part of it and thought it was a poster of a naked it chick. it was great! anyways, after getting home from Walgreens i took my shower, and thought i should update this so yeah, this is what i'm doing.
i don't think certain people give me enough credit, i talked about this with Natalie. like, some people act like i'm not the one getting the information first and telling Natalie it, and they give her more credit then i do and act like she was the one who found all this out, and i know its stupid, but i mean come on. its dumb, its just, it bothers me.
Jackie and I really are twins, we have a lot of the same stuff in common and we say like a lot of the same stuff at the same time. its awesome. we want to find Erin an Erin so we can be doubles. it would be awesome.
Sam and Natalie broke up. did i tell you this yet? yeah, he got really stalkerish and it scares even me. i mean, hes been super mean since, like i'm afraid for not just Natalie, but for myself too. and i'm not usually afraid of guys, though i think i should never be, but i would never think i would be afraid of Sam hurting me, i mean hes so nice, but now, something is definately different about him. i mean i'm still gonna be his friend and hope everything turns out okay because i have known him since 7th grade and i wouldn't just ditch him like that. he is really cool, its just..i dont know. ::shrug::
tomorrow Drew and I will be going out a week. woop woop =)
everyone keeps giving me dates on when we will break up and i will go back out with Shaun, its really wierd. i dont understand it. Jacob has it set in his head that we will go back out, like after i showed him my arm, he was like " Jackie, don't kill yourself. I know you and Shaun will go back out, and a bunch of other people know that too. " and he went on a little more. ugh i just dont know.
mmm..i'm really sick of Jacob, Andy and Josh being such assholes about all of this. it isnt fucking funny. and Jacob is the only one that has said it to my face. Andy knows better. i'd go insane. but it just pisses me off because they are supposed to be his friends and they go and say stupid shit about him when hes gonna need them the most, but whatever. they can be assholes all they want, nothing i can do. Jacob has stopped doing it because i think he finally realized that it does bother me. i hate that Andy blames all of this on Drew. he said to Drew one day " ya know, too bad you had to fuck around with Jackie, cuz you and Shaun are a lot alike and would prolly be good friends " and that kind of blew my mind. ugh i'm so sick of all of this, i wish Shaun would just come back and be okay. but whatever, i really need to move on and quit blaming myself for all of this and be prepared for him to push me away. i really need to be prepared for that. its just, i can't imagine him doing that. =/ and i accidentally call so many people Shaun, i must of called Sam it 3 times and Drew it 2 times. bahh, i dunno. its wierd. i just need to move on. this is all, just dumb and i'm tired of dealing with it, he should just come home and be okay. blah, whatever i need to quit my fucking bitching about everything..
hm..school tomorrow, kinda want to go for a change, i think its cuz Drew's there. Natalie's grounded, its a long story and i really dont want to get into to it. but shes grounded till like the weekend and she isnt supposed to be online but she is. haha bad girl. i told her she needs to stop hanging out with Chrissy and Chrissy's friends because ever since she has been getting into so much trouble and being a real asshole to me and some of her other friends and i'm tired of it. blah, i hope she listens but i know she won't because she's Natalie. and she won't stop until she gets hurt. well, if thats what she wants, then most likely thats what she'll get...=/ i dunno i'm done becase i'm tired of bitching. peace