i know its time, to leave these places far, behind...

Jul 25, 2005 19:24

you and me we have no faces
soon our lives will be erased
do you think they will remember?
or will we just be replaced
oh I wish that I could see
how I wish that I could fly
all the things that hang above me
to a place where I can cry

So what can it be?
no one hears me call
echoes back at me
no ones there
to all these nameless feelings I cant deal with in my life
to all these greedy people trying to feed on what is mine
youve got to fill your hunger and stop fucking with my mind
i know its time to leave these places far behind...

life has so much to offer you its unbeleivable. Not everybody has an equal chance but if you truely want happiness you can get it. And once you've suffered enough things can only get better for you. Life can be very tragic and life can also be very beautiful. It's fucking insane how much you can experience in only 17 years on this earth. And whats even more crazy is life hasn't even started yet. I'm actually looking foward to school. I am going to enjoy this year. Im going to get everything out of it that i never got out of it before. Ever since my first day of pre-school at Glen Oak primary all the way up until my junior year i have hated school. But now that its almost over im really starting to appreciate all that i've gotten out of being young. Not neccecarily the school teaching me anything, but just growing up, and meeting people, and experiencing things. It's so unbelievable i am at where i am at today. Who knows whats after all of this. But im not gunna get all choked up yet, because its not quite over.

on october 30th 2004 my life was about to change dramatically and allthough i didnt know it at the time i see it now. somthing started at that time. And has only grown since then. i started dating a person who i found myself interested in, not because she would talk to me, or she wanted me, but i was actually interested in this one. I was allowed to do more than i have ever been able to with any girls previous to her. I could be myself around her and she wouldnt get freaked out and break it off. She stayed in. I have felt so many feelings since that day. Feelings that i never knew existed, and feelings that i am well aware of. So much anger, frustration, love, hate, comfort, confusion, everything. And if i had to be perfectly honist i would have to say that i would go through all of it again if i had to. At this age, or with a couple at the ages me and mica are at, it is a rareity that they would even be together HALF as long as me and mica have been. On top of all of that, people lying to us, people trying to screw things up, us lying to one another, and us not being totally honist with one another, all of the fighting, everything. We are still here. And im sure a few of you "smart" people are saying "well what kind of relationship is that then?" i will tell you that it is a REAL ONE. everybody has problems in a relationship. Not to mention this age, most people are age are with a new person every month. So its really hard not to stray away from each other, but have u noticed that we havent? who knows wut will come of everything, Im living for the moment, but i think that me and mica have come to the point were we have been wanting to get for so long. Im not saying all the drama is over. i mean as long as ur dating sumone there will always be sumthings going on. But i think as far as me and her being real with one another, and needing one another, and loving one another, it doesnt get any better than this. I love you mica

as far as i go, im going to step off a little bit. There has been alot of things going on anymore, and its something that i dont want anything to do with. I have been around enough instigators and liars to know whats real and what isnt. People need to take a long hard look at themselves before they start ruining other peoples lives as well. Just because it has no effect on you life doesnt mean it cant crush sombody elses. BTW when a girl doesnt want you to touch her, i highly doubt she will want you to put ur penis inside of her, just a word of advice. Im pretty much done until school starts back up again. Until then im jsut going to be thinking, planning, and loving everyday that i have while im here. I hope that maybe someday people will wake the fuck up. I know that they wont but the thought of everybody opening there eyes makes me smile just a little bit. Well I will be back, some of you will be too, and some of you will not be. To the ones who will be i would like to take this time to tell you how much i love and appreciate everyone of you for being there for me and making life a little bit easier, you people make my world turn. Love And Peace Dude...heh

DEVILS REJECTS IS AMAZING!!!....yes im plugging a movie in my livejournal, its fucking amazing, and id recommend it but alot of people are posers...heh, i cant wait to deal with you people this fall hehehe...

IM MISSIN YOU CHRIS! you still are and always will be my fuckin friend man, much love to you and I miss ya man

dont think i forgot about you pooky. i love you mica, with everything, with all that i got, with my life, with my heart, with anything i could possibly have to offer. you are my everything, and when your not locked up anymore, i am going to do my best to make you the happiest girl on EARTH!, i love you sweet face, i will always be here...I promise
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