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[stupid_car]

hmmm. well. i've realized that i'm surrounded by cheaters. people who say to your face that they are honestly, truly, ass-backwards in love one minute...and then turn around and suck face with strangers the next. it's eery. and i'm noticing more and more that it's becoming the norm. and people don't even try to be sneaky about it, it's like the cheating thing is less about getting that rush from not being caught (which i always assumed it was mostly about) and is more a game of 'how obvious can i be about this'. at first it just made me a bit paranoid...as if to say, well if it's so easy for everybody else to be doing this, who's to say it's not happening to me too. but the more i'm confronted by these sleaze ball liars, the more i realize that it's not the fact that they're cheating that's bothering me so much...it's the fact that they are the type of people who think nothing of it. do you ever have those moments where you reevaluate the people surrounding you, and like a sudden epiphany you acknowledge their flaws and decide whether they're something you can live with or something that ruins any possibility of that person ever contributing anything positive to your life? i suppose i'm having one of those moments. and the fact that the list of cheaters i know seems to be forever growing, it's making me think that i actually don't know anyone, and that anything i may have liked about them at first was just a lie.
is it wierd that i'm so bothered by this? it's their relationships, not mine, they obviously don't involve me. but how do i take anything about these people seriously, without thinking that everything they do or say are just total fabrications? how do you lie to the one you're supposed to love and trust the most? how can you be honest with others when you are being so blatantly dishonest with the one person you should be able to be completely true to?