I'm a Dick I'm addicted to you...
I got 3 xanax at work two nights ago.
I'm already down to 1.
One that night.
One last night at V's with Gardfuck.
and depending on how tonight goes I'll either stay at one or be at zero.
I dont need it. I know i dont need it. But I like it. Its bad. I know.
But I'm not taking more than one a day and I'm not fiending for them.
Just to prove that I'll leave it home so that I dont take it tonight.
Dont be mad friends, we all have our vices.
They are all bad in their own ways.
i'll work through it.
I have a lot of stuff running through my head at all times and
every once and awhile its nice to just relax and feel nothing.
I'd like to go through everything my way and not have anyone worry about me
but i cant lie to everyone especially Breanne and everyone else that i'm close to
...which the number seems to keep getting smaller and smaller.
So i'll be completely open about what I'm doing.
I'm spread my deck out on the table and expect the same in return.
Just let me do what i'm going to do and be there when i need you.
V.D.H.
It's time to sleep before work.
I'd just like to add that for the next few days i will be conversating (yeah i said it, conversating) through ryan's lj post. so if you have anything to say about this post leave the comment on here but i'm so down for small talk on his post. I think we can break 100.
I'm already down to 1.
One that night.
One last night at V's with Gardfuck.
and depending on how tonight goes I'll either stay at one or be at zero.
I dont need it. I know i dont need it. But I like it. Its bad. I know.
But I'm not taking more than one a day and I'm not fiending for them.
Just to prove that I'll leave it home so that I dont take it tonight.
Dont be mad friends, we all have our vices.
They are all bad in their own ways.
i'll work through it.
I have a lot of stuff running through my head at all times and
every once and awhile its nice to just relax and feel nothing.
I'd like to go through everything my way and not have anyone worry about me
but i cant lie to everyone especially Breanne and everyone else that i'm close to
...which the number seems to keep getting smaller and smaller.
So i'll be completely open about what I'm doing.
I'm spread my deck out on the table and expect the same in return.
Just let me do what i'm going to do and be there when i need you.
V.D.H.
It's time to sleep before work.
I'd just like to add that for the next few days i will be conversating (yeah i said it, conversating) through ryan's lj post. so if you have anything to say about this post leave the comment on here but i'm so down for small talk on his post. I think we can break 100.