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lol so the truth. truth is were all scared of something. anything.
I'm scared of many things, but today it was brought to my attention that I'm scared to let people in. and above all that I'm scared of falling in love. "too late too bad nat, you've already fallen in love. you can't really not notice that. now you're just being stupid. you have a cool guy and you're messing it up nasty."
k so w.e you're right.
you nailed it. you figured out the big mystery. I'm scared. and I've been working little by little to overcome that fear.
so wake up call it's either I change my ways or one day I will wake up and find that all the people I love will be gone.
... and I don't want that, at all.
I always try to put up that front, that I don't care or that I'm too strong to cry or show emotions.. but it's not like that at all.
I guess the thought of sharing my inner thoughts and a part of me scares the shit out of me. but there are moments when I let my guard down and we can talk and it feels awesome. I really do like talking to him and I love being with him. He makes me feel emotions x10. whether they be bad or good. I don't know what I'm trying to say here. but I do know one thing, from now on, I'm done being what is pulling us apart.
I'm scared of many things, but today it was brought to my attention that I'm scared to let people in. and above all that I'm scared of falling in love. "too late too bad nat, you've already fallen in love. you can't really not notice that. now you're just being stupid. you have a cool guy and you're messing it up nasty."
k so w.e you're right.
you nailed it. you figured out the big mystery. I'm scared. and I've been working little by little to overcome that fear.
so wake up call it's either I change my ways or one day I will wake up and find that all the people I love will be gone.
... and I don't want that, at all.
I always try to put up that front, that I don't care or that I'm too strong to cry or show emotions.. but it's not like that at all.
I guess the thought of sharing my inner thoughts and a part of me scares the shit out of me. but there are moments when I let my guard down and we can talk and it feels awesome. I really do like talking to him and I love being with him. He makes me feel emotions x10. whether they be bad or good. I don't know what I'm trying to say here. but I do know one thing, from now on, I'm done being what is pulling us apart.