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Why can't I do it? Why can't I go a day without yelling, crying, laughing... I am so worked up right now cause I can't play DOTA. I tell my really good friend and ex-boyfriend this hoping he'd understand and he's like...you're mad over a video game....yeah....he plays mgs...he should understand. Anyway. He's no help. He gets mad that I won't talk MGS3 with him and calls me a bitch as I say that he should leave me alone about it because I haven't had a lot of time. Then he blocks me. Retarded. I just can't not be high strung I hate too many things. Nothing will ever change me....Dylan is changed because of Abby...Grey because of Buddhism I guess...Ko because of years of practice and some kind of strength of will...and I just don't have anything in my life that makes everything okay and good all the time. Which sucks. I just can't be okay with everything. I JUST CAN'T DO IT. I am trying so hard because I hate this so much....I hate crying all the time because I am so mad at everything.... I need help. Help me. Somebody.