Jun 20, 2007 20:43
Taking a look at this love affair today's American culture has with drugs.. this infatuation with chemically altering the mind, body & soul.. I realized it's enamoured participants seem to fall into two categories. There are those who take drugs, these often being recreational, self-medicated, to amplify the components of their lives, create texture, as they're naturally apathetic, indifferent, at times emotionally dissociated from the remainder of humanity, or even completely numb. They need drugs to create upheaval in their lives, instigate the chaos, as it's presence is lacking naturally. Maybe this is subconsciously what I'm doing, with my mind-numbingly simple, sugar coated life. Then there are those who take drugs like your Zoloft & other anti-depressants, Xanax and other anxiety relievers, Ambien and other inducers of unconsciousness.. in order to combat the darkness, the painful, uninvited intruders, to stabilize themselves, return to ground zero, put a cessation to the vacillation, the fury of emotions. It seems everything an individual is predisposed to sets them up for one of these two "necessities".
The underlying duality of the world, that yin & yang, dominates the majority of my thoughts on robo. The feeling of two forces, everything falling into two categories.. pure & contaminated, light & dark. On dxm, the myriad components of something are negligible; the overall picture reins. You feel enlightened by consistently occuring Gestalts, sudden realizations of the "unified whole". It radically alters your perspective on everything.. you don't develop an antagonistic view, you basically just see what you always subconsciously recognized.