Sadness creeps in and blackness consumes me
So I know how sweet Mike is. Really he is a sweetie and I don't know how I deserve him.
Grandpy had surgery today, and I saw him for a minute before I had to go. He looked so free from pain. It was the first time I saw him so relaxed. I'm afraid it didn't last though. He's in extreme pain now. They upped his morphine, his knee won't stop bleed and there were other complications. So here I am blubbering into the phone, and Mike's on his way over now... How many guys would drive over for just an hour to comfort their gf?
I'm trying to get out of work tomorrow, but I don't think it's promissing, and grandma doesn't want me to come to the hospital. Mostly because I can't do anything, but I just want to see him, be there for him. God I don't want to lose another grandparent this year.. Only 6 months or so apart.
I have heat exhaustion and I'm just plain exhausted from not taking care of myself. *sigh*
I want a huge hug. And I'm probably over reacting... they'll take good care of him. And Mike says that 80% of the patients he sees have complications like this...
But the old boot is going near suicidal.. He can't stand the pain anymore. I don't blame him... But I'll miss him. God I'll miss him.
Grandpy had surgery today, and I saw him for a minute before I had to go. He looked so free from pain. It was the first time I saw him so relaxed. I'm afraid it didn't last though. He's in extreme pain now. They upped his morphine, his knee won't stop bleed and there were other complications. So here I am blubbering into the phone, and Mike's on his way over now... How many guys would drive over for just an hour to comfort their gf?
I'm trying to get out of work tomorrow, but I don't think it's promissing, and grandma doesn't want me to come to the hospital. Mostly because I can't do anything, but I just want to see him, be there for him. God I don't want to lose another grandparent this year.. Only 6 months or so apart.
I have heat exhaustion and I'm just plain exhausted from not taking care of myself. *sigh*
I want a huge hug. And I'm probably over reacting... they'll take good care of him. And Mike says that 80% of the patients he sees have complications like this...
But the old boot is going near suicidal.. He can't stand the pain anymore. I don't blame him... But I'll miss him. God I'll miss him.