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it's 2 in the morning and for the last 2 hours i cleaned and rearranged my room instead of doing my HIST 195 paper that was due earlier today. not to defend a poor scholastic decision, but that shit had to get sorted. i needed a change in (some/any)thing and though it's not much hopefully it will facilitate better mental health and well being.
which i suppose is a rather appropriate segway to mentioning that things are pretty much not happening with me and Chelsie. a lot of factors played into that, some in my control but most not. i do know that by lacking respect for her and forcing what i wanted i managed to move it further away from me. maybe there is some Zen or a "chasing an inflatable ball toy in a pool" anaogy in there somewhere, i should ask Chris. i'd like to think i have the resolve in me to say i won't miss her company but i know i will. i still think she is pretty cool though i wish i knew how to deal with her more aptly sometimes, she seems to have a strange but special personality that gets obscured by the stresses of life. though i'm still kind of reeling emotionally i do know things will not get better just by sulking ... ::(insert highly advanced reasoning):: ... so i cleaned my room. perhaps this can serve me as a spring board for positive personal change... perhaps perhaps perhaps.
been talking to a guy named Mike about making some music. he's a friend of Colby (and mine now i suppose) and though i haven't heard him play, i've heard some stuff he's recorded and i think we're gonna get along well enough to make something work. he's pretty bright about music and more then anything ambitious in what he hopes to do. i admire both of those things. i've got about 7 or 8 song ideas written down and i think i can prolly formalize those with him pretty quickly in the upcoming months. oh god now i'm gonna have to write lyrics. ::fuck that noise:: i'm outsourcing lyrics writing to India.
i start at The University Club tomorrow. hopefully that will go well, though the place seems so classy i don't see how it couldn't. i also may be working at Mr. Greek's... i know i've said many mean things about the food there in the past but honestly at this point work is work. i like waiting tables and i'll take whatever chances come my way. le sigh, between the girl problems (or poor resolutions of such), the idea of starting a band and these jobs i think big changes are ahead.
Beefy T has called me from two Ben Folds' shows in the last month. what a sweetheart. i figure my tally is now roughly at 3 with the phone calls counting as half visits.
peace out,
scott kane
/ pistons = 3 - 0
// w00t! pistons parties at my house
/// not so prestigious when you realize that record is shared with the Bucks, the Wizards and the CLIPPERS!??! wha? who? ONLY IN AMERICA!
it's 2 in the morning and for the last 2 hours i cleaned and rearranged my room instead of doing my HIST 195 paper that was due earlier today. not to defend a poor scholastic decision, but that shit had to get sorted. i needed a change in (some/any)thing and though it's not much hopefully it will facilitate better mental health and well being.
which i suppose is a rather appropriate segway to mentioning that things are pretty much not happening with me and Chelsie. a lot of factors played into that, some in my control but most not. i do know that by lacking respect for her and forcing what i wanted i managed to move it further away from me. maybe there is some Zen or a "chasing an inflatable ball toy in a pool" anaogy in there somewhere, i should ask Chris. i'd like to think i have the resolve in me to say i won't miss her company but i know i will. i still think she is pretty cool though i wish i knew how to deal with her more aptly sometimes, she seems to have a strange but special personality that gets obscured by the stresses of life. though i'm still kind of reeling emotionally i do know things will not get better just by sulking ... ::(insert highly advanced reasoning):: ... so i cleaned my room. perhaps this can serve me as a spring board for positive personal change... perhaps perhaps perhaps.
been talking to a guy named Mike about making some music. he's a friend of Colby (and mine now i suppose) and though i haven't heard him play, i've heard some stuff he's recorded and i think we're gonna get along well enough to make something work. he's pretty bright about music and more then anything ambitious in what he hopes to do. i admire both of those things. i've got about 7 or 8 song ideas written down and i think i can prolly formalize those with him pretty quickly in the upcoming months. oh god now i'm gonna have to write lyrics. ::fuck that noise:: i'm outsourcing lyrics writing to India.
i start at The University Club tomorrow. hopefully that will go well, though the place seems so classy i don't see how it couldn't. i also may be working at Mr. Greek's... i know i've said many mean things about the food there in the past but honestly at this point work is work. i like waiting tables and i'll take whatever chances come my way. le sigh, between the girl problems (or poor resolutions of such), the idea of starting a band and these jobs i think big changes are ahead.
Beefy T has called me from two Ben Folds' shows in the last month. what a sweetheart. i figure my tally is now roughly at 3 with the phone calls counting as half visits.
peace out,
scott kane
/ pistons = 3 - 0
// w00t! pistons parties at my house
/// not so prestigious when you realize that record is shared with the Bucks, the Wizards and the CLIPPERS!??! wha? who? ONLY IN AMERICA!