Apr 24, 2005 18:56
Finally got the Jeep on the road. Woo hoo!!! I got another job so now I have to pay off all my debts and leave RI. :)
Have I been that bad of a friend where I deserve to be treated and feel like this? Was I not the one at your door after your surgery with flowers and a card and lottery tickets to try to make you feel better? Was I not the one who was there for you all night comforting you when you had to bail your boyfriend out of jail? Was I not the one willing to do whatever it was to make you happy when you were down? Have I ever asked you for ANYTHING? As far as I can see, I haven't done anything to deserve to feel the way I do. You dont understand how much you've hurt me. I've tried to fix whatever the hell it is that's going on between us right now but I guess it doesnt matter...I don't matter. As long as you're happy, nothing matters. Well, enjoy your new computer, your new car, your new house and your new friend. I hope you guys are all happy together. I hope you're happy enough where you forget me and dont turn back and enjoy your new life (I'm sure it wont be hard) cuz God knows it's going to tear my heart out be impossible for me to forget all the time we spent together. I love you Alycia but I can't allow myself to be hurt like this.