cant do this ANYmore
wow - you - i cnat deal. i cant deal wiht you. i love you, well i have to, but i dont know waht id do wiht out you. but things are so different. and i cant take it, i cant take you. im not having sex and i dont plan on it. im not doing anything really, god. i hate that you think im such a slut and that im such a bad kid. im god damn sorry. thats all you ever bring up - IM NOT GUNNA DO IT. the bf-yea i know i could do better, but obviously i cant. and he makes me happy, god can i ever pick someone ok? i live to make you and billy happy. your all i care about - but things are different, your so like moody and odd i just cant deal. going thru all my stuff and everything, its like i have no god damn privacy. im a teenager, god. this is how its suppose to be. and i dont even do anything HALF AS BAD AS WHAT EVERYONE ELSE IS DOING. i have enough to deal with and im sorry if i hurt your feelings, but you hurt mine too - real bad. i dont even feel like me anymore- i know ive gotta change for YOU, but more so for me, im going to be ok , like carl said ' yuo only can lead them so far and then let them go the rest', but you cant keep taking me back- im almost SIXTEEN. i know whats right and wrong, i know when im doing something wrong that its wrong, theres so much that i could just say right now, i just dont want to. i dont want to talk about it eaither... i love you and im changing-and im not having sex adn im not gunna for a while, and when i think im ready-ill talk to you about it. i just want you to be proud of me and trust me enough. your everyhting to me and i know that we've made it thru alot of things together. and your awesoem, your who i look up too...but calm down a bit. and i know your gunna see this - and probaly get mad bc i wrote about it in my journal or w/e, but if i talk about it in person i know that you'll shut me down and i dont wanna talk about anything- i just wanna start over, you made your point. i love you :) more than anyhting in the whole entire world and thank you for everything that you have done and still do
so now that i got that out whewww, rally is in like three hours!!! ahhhhhhhh im so nervous :) but wicked excited. i hope that i didnt forget anything tho. LEaders is so much what i have been looking for. i feel like i finally belong some where i should be.
but GOD ppl pissss me off, god i cant take it- you - you always have to freaking beat me out dont you? and you your just PHYSCO and i cnat take you much longer.
But billy dow took me to bertellis for new skate guards and he bought me a sweatshirt. hes awesome, he really is. :)
HAPPY LICENSE DAY FOR MELISSA !!!!
i <3 you favorites :) its a moment **
ok im done bitching
<3
Ns
so now that i got that out whewww, rally is in like three hours!!! ahhhhhhhh im so nervous :) but wicked excited. i hope that i didnt forget anything tho. LEaders is so much what i have been looking for. i feel like i finally belong some where i should be.
but GOD ppl pissss me off, god i cant take it- you - you always have to freaking beat me out dont you? and you your just PHYSCO and i cnat take you much longer.
But billy dow took me to bertellis for new skate guards and he bought me a sweatshirt. hes awesome, he really is. :)
HAPPY LICENSE DAY FOR MELISSA !!!!
i <3 you favorites :) its a moment **
ok im done bitching
<3
Ns