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yesterday morning i had an interesting dream just before i woke up. i was in a dark, u-shaped classroom, supposedly watching a movie for a class. i started out in the bottom of the u, with a random mish mash of people from college. they were all being just barely unfriendly - no one hostile or mean, but all slightly agitated. then i moved over into the right arm of the u and was met by faceless people from high school. as in, i identified them as "high school people" but did not identify them by name or personal experience. i felt very out of place in that group and decided to leave. so i went a little farther up the right u branch to where my bookbag was propped against a desk. i searched through it to find my two "my little pony" coloring books so that i could leave. it never even occurred to me to take the whole bag. while i rifled through my belongings, at the next table sat carl and joe from high school (who, incidentally i have not seen since the summer of 2000). carl said to joe "she doesn't belong here. did you see her with those other girls? this isn't where she's supposed to be." there was a tone of kindness and recognition in his voice, rather than hostility or exclusiveness.
this seems somewhat symbolic. i would hazard the guess that the mish mash of college people being marginally unfriendly is symbolic of our collective need to move on... as amazingly fantastic as college was, we couldn't stagnate there after our time was done. i suppose the choosing the right u branch represents returning to my conservative bedford roots, and the inability to relate to the people i saw in that branch (who were familiar, but unknown (!)) is a close parallel to how i have felt being back here. i suppose carl represents my subconscious telling me to move on, and maybe joe is my conscious self. i'm a bit perplexed as to why my brain chose those specific people... maybe because they were people with whom i had friendly, but not close, relationships in high school, so they would be objective about my situation. neither would care enough to try to convince me to stay, but neither would they care enough to try to convince me to go, either. but i have always vaguely liked/respected them, so my dream-self would be inclined to listen to their opinions. oh. and the "my little pony" coloring books have got to represent horses. i have to take horses with me wherever i go, but am willing to leave essentially everything else (the bookbag) behind.
good dream.
this seems somewhat symbolic. i would hazard the guess that the mish mash of college people being marginally unfriendly is symbolic of our collective need to move on... as amazingly fantastic as college was, we couldn't stagnate there after our time was done. i suppose the choosing the right u branch represents returning to my conservative bedford roots, and the inability to relate to the people i saw in that branch (who were familiar, but unknown (!)) is a close parallel to how i have felt being back here. i suppose carl represents my subconscious telling me to move on, and maybe joe is my conscious self. i'm a bit perplexed as to why my brain chose those specific people... maybe because they were people with whom i had friendly, but not close, relationships in high school, so they would be objective about my situation. neither would care enough to try to convince me to stay, but neither would they care enough to try to convince me to go, either. but i have always vaguely liked/respected them, so my dream-self would be inclined to listen to their opinions. oh. and the "my little pony" coloring books have got to represent horses. i have to take horses with me wherever i go, but am willing to leave essentially everything else (the bookbag) behind.
good dream.