Simply Plain
Plain and simple...I hate myself right now...I wish I wasn't so closed off from everyone. I wish I could tell someone something without caring what they thought was going through my mind. I seriously hate being so shutdown and basically impossible to open. I can't hold myself together...it seems that even the slightest thing I think of breaks me down and makes me about to cry. Last night I lay awake for about 3 hours just thinking trying to hold back tears the best I could...I am so pathetic...my emotions are so unstable that Im breaking under everything. I can't handle it...my mind is constantly hurting and I can't take it...I nearly gave up but something is keeping my spirits up just enough and I don't know what it is.