Mixed Feelings
Don't you hate it when two complete opposite feelings mix together? When your happy and at the same time you're sad. Well that's how I'm feeling right now. It's all because of this weekend. I was hanging out with the usual friends at my mom's house since my loser of a dad never called me back. I think I was glad that he never called me, but then again I'm sad cause I knew I couldn't believe in him to call me or my mom back. Even if it was just to say it has to be another weekend. Of course he didn't though and that kind of thing pisses me off. I've learned once again to never get my hopes up.
Well anyways on with my story. So no names are going to be mentioned for the sake of...who knows what but anyways...So Usual friends hanging out. For a long time they hung out subtract someone leaving it just three of them. So he got upset and went for a drive to make himself feel better. Him and her watched "The Grudge" (Extreme suckage by the way)until the other he got back and fell asleep, so they thought. After a bit she left and he fell asleep. The next day his whole family knew leaving him and her embarrassed and him feeling bad considering it was his fault. The four hung out again two to study bio and two to see a movie "Boogeyman" (Alright I suppose) They went back to the van lied to everyone and maybe felt bad. At the same time that he felt happy he felt sad and almost as it he was taking advantage. Maybe they should go back to the way they were maybe they should just ignore whatever everyone else thinks. Mixed feelings suck. Maybe he should just have everything go back to normal make her stop feeling this way I dunno really friends making fun...people making fun...what's the point of it all? Is there a point?
Whatever. Thinking ruins alot of happy feelings you get. I decided that I get a caffiene break...since my mom already screwed over our deal. Starbucks...gah...it feels...strange and wrong...don't ask maybe I'm just rambling. If this makes no sense to you whatsoever oh well...this is just my way of getting my feelings out. I feel bad sometimes...almost like an asshole (Had to use it) I'm also not trying to make anyone feel bad so if you do, don't. It was probably totally wrong to do...Gah...I can't stand feelings like this...I need something to occupy my mind...but there's nothing...not one thing in this whole freaking house. I'm mad at people too I'm NOT looking forward to my birthday it's gonna be a load of crap. Why do I want to take things back? Aren't things ment to happen for a reason...? Ugh...why does my mind always have to look on the bad side of things and make my head hurt. ( Has a major headache by the way) I think maybe I'm done...I feel like I'm just repeating/rambling more so...
I'm out of here...
-Dustin
Well anyways on with my story. So no names are going to be mentioned for the sake of...who knows what but anyways...So Usual friends hanging out. For a long time they hung out subtract someone leaving it just three of them. So he got upset and went for a drive to make himself feel better. Him and her watched "The Grudge" (Extreme suckage by the way)until the other he got back and fell asleep, so they thought. After a bit she left and he fell asleep. The next day his whole family knew leaving him and her embarrassed and him feeling bad considering it was his fault. The four hung out again two to study bio and two to see a movie "Boogeyman" (Alright I suppose) They went back to the van lied to everyone and maybe felt bad. At the same time that he felt happy he felt sad and almost as it he was taking advantage. Maybe they should go back to the way they were maybe they should just ignore whatever everyone else thinks. Mixed feelings suck. Maybe he should just have everything go back to normal make her stop feeling this way I dunno really friends making fun...people making fun...what's the point of it all? Is there a point?
Whatever. Thinking ruins alot of happy feelings you get. I decided that I get a caffiene break...since my mom already screwed over our deal. Starbucks...gah...it feels...strange and wrong...don't ask maybe I'm just rambling. If this makes no sense to you whatsoever oh well...this is just my way of getting my feelings out. I feel bad sometimes...almost like an asshole (Had to use it) I'm also not trying to make anyone feel bad so if you do, don't. It was probably totally wrong to do...Gah...I can't stand feelings like this...I need something to occupy my mind...but there's nothing...not one thing in this whole freaking house. I'm mad at people too I'm NOT looking forward to my birthday it's gonna be a load of crap. Why do I want to take things back? Aren't things ment to happen for a reason...? Ugh...why does my mind always have to look on the bad side of things and make my head hurt. ( Has a major headache by the way) I think maybe I'm done...I feel like I'm just repeating/rambling more so...
I'm out of here...
-Dustin