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for the past few days i've been really hating the fact that i have so much anxiety around people i dont know well. i went out for dinner with the distant family i actually never knew i had, i knew about 3 people. and i sat there, shaking. not knowing what to say. i have a problem with older men. i think its because i havent had an influence. i just get so anxious and nervous.
on another note, ive been reading. i dont read, i've read about 5 books in my lifetime and 2 or 3 were forced by school. but im starting to enjoy it. this is a new start for me.
job interview tomorrow at the petro-can. money would be nice as taking a road trip to seattle can't come out of my pocket at the least right now.
my hair is almost white. i bought new shampoo, and if i leave it on for a while instead of rinsing it out it turns whiter and whiter. im almost there. i want old people white, and tan skin.
im not broken anymore, atall. most of you know that.
in other news, i rode a horse who ive only ridden twice today in a horse show. this always happens. however, i placed first and the owner is now paying me to ride her horse 2 or 3 times a week, plus, i get to take her to whatever shows i'd like to. i dont know how much im getting paid, but ill probably know by next week.
so that'll be nice, with a job. disneyland, vegas, and seattle, plus booze is going to be paid for, plus my fake.
excellent, this is going greatly.
ontop of all things, im cutting down on smoking, alot. im quitting soon, i really am. i don't like being dependant on things.
i have to call my uncle this week for living arrangements, also.
things to do tomorrow.
call the showbox theatre,
type/print reference list
call monique
petro interview @ 6pm
wallmart shopping
thats right, wallmart.
on another note, ive been reading. i dont read, i've read about 5 books in my lifetime and 2 or 3 were forced by school. but im starting to enjoy it. this is a new start for me.
job interview tomorrow at the petro-can. money would be nice as taking a road trip to seattle can't come out of my pocket at the least right now.
my hair is almost white. i bought new shampoo, and if i leave it on for a while instead of rinsing it out it turns whiter and whiter. im almost there. i want old people white, and tan skin.
im not broken anymore, atall. most of you know that.
in other news, i rode a horse who ive only ridden twice today in a horse show. this always happens. however, i placed first and the owner is now paying me to ride her horse 2 or 3 times a week, plus, i get to take her to whatever shows i'd like to. i dont know how much im getting paid, but ill probably know by next week.
so that'll be nice, with a job. disneyland, vegas, and seattle, plus booze is going to be paid for, plus my fake.
excellent, this is going greatly.
ontop of all things, im cutting down on smoking, alot. im quitting soon, i really am. i don't like being dependant on things.
i have to call my uncle this week for living arrangements, also.
things to do tomorrow.
call the showbox theatre,
type/print reference list
call monique
petro interview @ 6pm
wallmart shopping
thats right, wallmart.