sadness

[studkitten]

i am filled with the most incredible undescribible sadness right now. i just got home from work and no one is in the house. which is understandable because my parents are out of town. but my brother left and his phone line is still connected to the internet and there is a smell of a dinner he cooked but did not wait for me and he is completely gone. if things worked out as perfectly as they should i would be at mcdonald's, having french fries and soft serve with james and gearing up for my performance thirty minutes from now. instead i am sitting alone in uncomfortable clothes and james is gone for two months travelling the united states with his band and at 9pm los gatos will be playing their second show ever and the first without me and i will feel this lacking in my heart and the tears will come too easily.

somebody call me 7075378942 i need it more than ever right now